I have only ever discussed this with two very close friends before and neither of them were emotionally equipped to help me deal with this situation.
When I was about 9, i was molested by a man on repeated occasions, who would have raped me, if i werent able to get away from him quick enough. The whole thing happened over a period of time, and got worse and worse. Once it stopped and the guy got what he deserved i blocked this out of my mind completely.
When i was about 24 something happened that bought all these memories back and i confided in my partner at the time and another really close friend, but even now i dont feel like i have got closure from it.
I sometimes wonder how much that has impacted on the way i deal with my relationships with people and whether i will ever be able to put this behind me. Sometimes i think people see me as weak and vulnerable and feel they can walk all over me and use me for there personal gain. I like to be the powerful, dominant one in relationships to balance this and occasionally i overstep the mark.
Has anyone been through this and would like to share their experience.
When I was about 9, i was molested by a man on repeated occasions, who would have raped me, if i werent able to get away from him quick enough. The whole thing happened over a period of time, and got worse and worse. Once it stopped and the guy got what he deserved i blocked this out of my mind completely.
When i was about 24 something happened that bought all these memories back and i confided in my partner at the time and another really close friend, but even now i dont feel like i have got closure from it.
I sometimes wonder how much that has impacted on the way i deal with my relationships with people and whether i will ever be able to put this behind me. Sometimes i think people see me as weak and vulnerable and feel they can walk all over me and use me for there personal gain. I like to be the powerful, dominant one in relationships to balance this and occasionally i overstep the mark.
Has anyone been through this and would like to share their experience.