So I didn't get into my #1 choice. It sucks, because getting into top Ivy League schools and their kin makes your college life a lot easier due to grade inflation. I got into my second/third choice, and slowly I'm growing happier with the choice. I get to move to the West Coast! It's so much better there. The weather is amazing and people are just nicer in general.
Regarding girls - I feel like I'm back on square one. Last summer, I put on a new personality. I became much more aggressive, playful with girls. Got laid a few times, but the girls didn't like me much after. What it shows though is that the only thing you need to do to get laid is to be confident and physical. The rest will follow naturally.
But I STILL struggle with conversation. Often times I have nothing to say. I put myself in a playful mindset but nothing comes to mind. Even at my best, when I'm definitely in control and not nervous, I don't have anything to say. I know why though - I don't go out enough/do enough cool things. I'm working on that. I'm also going to take improv classes to improve my humor and perspective on life, because I've heard they help a lot.
Finally - my approach anxiety depends on a lot of factors. In the summer, it was practically non-existent. Now it's back. I just saw a ridiculously cute girl on the bus the other day and I didn't approach. Tomorrow I'm going to approach, no matter how ****ing awkward it gets.
The reason I'm keeping this journal is so I have a strong motivation to accomplish my goals, to write down here that I did follow through.
Goals for the next few months:
1. Make money
2. Become good at improv comedy
3. Date girls, or at least approach ones I find attractive
I know this post was kind of stream-of-consciousness style, and I apologize. Hopefully my writing ability will get better as well as time goes on.
Peace out.
Regarding girls - I feel like I'm back on square one. Last summer, I put on a new personality. I became much more aggressive, playful with girls. Got laid a few times, but the girls didn't like me much after. What it shows though is that the only thing you need to do to get laid is to be confident and physical. The rest will follow naturally.
But I STILL struggle with conversation. Often times I have nothing to say. I put myself in a playful mindset but nothing comes to mind. Even at my best, when I'm definitely in control and not nervous, I don't have anything to say. I know why though - I don't go out enough/do enough cool things. I'm working on that. I'm also going to take improv classes to improve my humor and perspective on life, because I've heard they help a lot.
Finally - my approach anxiety depends on a lot of factors. In the summer, it was practically non-existent. Now it's back. I just saw a ridiculously cute girl on the bus the other day and I didn't approach. Tomorrow I'm going to approach, no matter how ****ing awkward it gets.
The reason I'm keeping this journal is so I have a strong motivation to accomplish my goals, to write down here that I did follow through.
Goals for the next few months:
1. Make money
2. Become good at improv comedy
3. Date girls, or at least approach ones I find attractive
I know this post was kind of stream-of-consciousness style, and I apologize. Hopefully my writing ability will get better as well as time goes on.
Peace out.