Can't remember the feeling

[Thorninmyside]

Have you reached a point of truly not caring whether a girl is in your life or not, if she replies to your messages or not, drops off the face of the earth or not?

I haven't had an exclusive relationship in a year, and anyone since then I've been 100% DGAF. I can't remember what it feels like to want to be in a relationship right now. There's not a single girl I'd walk across the street for if it meant taking the shine off my day. It's gotta be easy or I couldn't be bothered. I'm dating, but anyone who even gives a hint of a red flag doesn't get a call back and I never give them another thought. I've either become really good at not giving a toss, or becoming cold.

How many of you have stayed this way long term, and who has eventually caught the feels again for a girl later?

 

[Julian]

ive been in this mode for a year and a half. i also worked in nightlife and stripclubs which jaded me further after a 2 yr relationship with a girl. nowadays i dont even try for relationship and im not looking for love because i know what it entails. im on my player chit i dont give a fuk about catching feelings for anyone or getting on that level. whats the point when every relationship has an expiration date and marriage is a horrible deal and the way our society is changing chit up...nah man im sweet.

 

[Thorninmyside]

whats the point when every relationship has an expiration date and marriage is a horrible deal and the way our society is changing chit up...nah man im sweet.

That's where I'm at. I'm genuinely not bitter or cynical, but I just can't recall what it feels like to really care whether something lasts for a while or goes up in smoke.

 

[resilient]

Hello
Is there anybody in there?
Just nod if you can hear me
Is there anyone home?

Come on now
I hear you're feeling down
Well, I can ease your pain
And get you on your feet again

Relax
I'll need some information first
Just the basic facts
Can you show me where it hurts

There is no pain, you are receding
A distant ship's smoke on the horizon
You are only coming through in waves
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying
When I was a child I had a fever

My hands felt just like two balloons
Now I've got that feeling once again
I can't explain, you would not understand
This is not how I am

I have become comfortably numb

I have become comfortably numb

O.K.
Just a little pin prick
There'll be no more... aaaaaaaah!
But you might feel a little sick
Can you stand up?
I do believe it's working, good

That'll keep you going, for the show
Come on it's time to go.

There is no pain you are receding
A distant ship's smoke on the horizon
You are only coming through in waves
Your lips move, but I can't hear what you're saying
When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown
The dream is gone
And I have become
Comfortably numb.

 

[Thorninmyside]

I have become comfortably numb

That is indeed the risk, and something I haven't figured out yet. Am I free of giving a f*ck, or numb? Time will tell.