If you read my journal you already know this. But this problem came back to haunt me for the 1000th time and it really ruined my day. I'm pissed at myself.
Here is the deal; I f*cking hate clubs and especially the music they play. I can't stand that sh*t. It completely puts me off balance when I'm in there. I tried to like it many times and try to just have fun... but I just can't do something that's not a part of me. Sure, when I'm in there with friends, we have fun. But the music is just a continues annoying noise in the background that distracts me and prevents me from really reaching a level of state. Needless to say, I really really suck at getting girls in a club environment even though I'm a good looking guy. My cold approaching is actually not that bad; I can get numbers every now and then while I'm waiting for the bus.
Last week for example. I had this introduction camp for my college where I had to lead new students around the city (awesome). There was this absolutely gorgeous girl. Really, she was just drop dead beautiful in a natural way. Just a tiny hint of makeup, great blue eyes and long brown hair... great figure and she was just fun. I liked her instantly and we just clicked. She laughed at my jokes, good eye contact, kino back and forth, we laughed... it was just there, you know? I felt like I could make something happen. At night, everyone went into this huge tent where they played club music. She asked me to dance and I was just awkward and kinda rejected it because I didn't really knew what to do. I can't dance to music I hate deeply. I just can't. The way she looked at me when we occasionally walked into each other told me clearly she wanted me to do something, but I just couldn't. I was just too awkward and uncomfortable, which made me insecure, especially because I was into this girl.
Needless to say, things were weird the next day. I asked her number as she left, but she kinda evaded the question.
Me: You're leaving?
Her: Yea, my mom picks me up
Me: Ah I see. Hey, I'd like to see you again. You want to hang out sometime?
Her: Hang out? Hang out as in?
Me: You know, grab a drink, have a chat
Her: Yea... well... eh...
Me: Just give me your number, I'll give you a call
Her: Hmm... I'll give my number to one of the people of the organization here, so that you can get it from them...
I just laughed
Me: It's okay if you say "no", too
She gave me a warm, yet a little awkward smile.
Her: Yea... we'll talk about it ok?
Me: Sure. Have a nice trip home, you
Yea, I know I ruined it. She was just too sweet to simply blow me off.
It wasn't the first time something like this happened. I want this sh*t handled because it pisses me off. I'm especially pissed that I ruined this one. Normally I just laugh it off when a girl rejects me, but I felt like we had something going, and I really liked this girl. She was really hot, really cute and really a lot fun; while actually having brains. That's a rare combination.
Here is the deal; I f*cking hate clubs and especially the music they play. I can't stand that sh*t. It completely puts me off balance when I'm in there. I tried to like it many times and try to just have fun... but I just can't do something that's not a part of me. Sure, when I'm in there with friends, we have fun. But the music is just a continues annoying noise in the background that distracts me and prevents me from really reaching a level of state. Needless to say, I really really suck at getting girls in a club environment even though I'm a good looking guy. My cold approaching is actually not that bad; I can get numbers every now and then while I'm waiting for the bus.
Last week for example. I had this introduction camp for my college where I had to lead new students around the city (awesome). There was this absolutely gorgeous girl. Really, she was just drop dead beautiful in a natural way. Just a tiny hint of makeup, great blue eyes and long brown hair... great figure and she was just fun. I liked her instantly and we just clicked. She laughed at my jokes, good eye contact, kino back and forth, we laughed... it was just there, you know? I felt like I could make something happen. At night, everyone went into this huge tent where they played club music. She asked me to dance and I was just awkward and kinda rejected it because I didn't really knew what to do. I can't dance to music I hate deeply. I just can't. The way she looked at me when we occasionally walked into each other told me clearly she wanted me to do something, but I just couldn't. I was just too awkward and uncomfortable, which made me insecure, especially because I was into this girl.
Needless to say, things were weird the next day. I asked her number as she left, but she kinda evaded the question.
Me: You're leaving?
Her: Yea, my mom picks me up
Me: Ah I see. Hey, I'd like to see you again. You want to hang out sometime?
Her: Hang out? Hang out as in?
Me: You know, grab a drink, have a chat
Her: Yea... well... eh...
Me: Just give me your number, I'll give you a call
Her: Hmm... I'll give my number to one of the people of the organization here, so that you can get it from them...
I just laughed
Me: It's okay if you say "no", too
She gave me a warm, yet a little awkward smile.
Her: Yea... we'll talk about it ok?
Me: Sure. Have a nice trip home, you
Yea, I know I ruined it. She was just too sweet to simply blow me off.
It wasn't the first time something like this happened. I want this sh*t handled because it pisses me off. I'm especially pissed that I ruined this one. Normally I just laugh it off when a girl rejects me, but I felt like we had something going, and I really liked this girl. She was really hot, really cute and really a lot fun; while actually having brains. That's a rare combination.
