so..long story short, i dated this girl for about six months, we split up in late january after a month of distance and no sex. we broke up because i acted very weak in a few instances (i had big family problems) and because of a series of events i couldn't been with her every saturday night, instead i was with my friends often. there was a valid reason for that (dad was an alcoholic and i couldn't stand being home for too much time, but i couldn't stay far away from my family too because i felt guilt, so i went at their place but hang out with friends to relieve the pressure, in short)
i know it's a big mess and i'm taking massive steps to get my life straight,
went NC in february, she wrote me some weeks later asking how it's going, i told her fine, let's go out for a walk, she told me ok but disappeared when i asked her when she was free.
three months later i broke nc, told her so! how it's going?, she told me a little about those months, i told her that i have a lot going on right now, she went curious, i told her to hang out in the following days so we'll chat a little, she told me that wasn't a good idea, but was still curious.. i joked a little, she became pissed off and angry and told me that she don't give a **** about how my life is wonderful right now and that she has a lot of problems and her life is a mess right now. she just snapped!
so.. i just told her that i was trying to be positive contacting her, that i'd like to see her and to call me if she changes her mind.
as far as i can see, she's curious, and angry because i didn't told her anything, and if i studied well any emotion is better than no emotions and her hamster wheel should spin like a crazy one in the following weeks.
i'm planning to ignore her completely for a couple of months unless she tell me that she wants to hang out, but i'm surprised about that reaction.
what do you think?
oh, i almost forgot, i used (and still i'm using) these months to tackle my problems HARD, i'm into therapy to overcome issues with my loving but toxic parents, to become more independent, i've started exercising again, i've acquired a lot of new skills and responsibility at work, i plan on getting a degree in another language, setting bigger goals for me. no new girls right now because i don't want to be dependent on a girl anymore, i want to fix my life and have bigger personal goals before.
i know it's a big mess and i'm taking massive steps to get my life straight,
went NC in february, she wrote me some weeks later asking how it's going, i told her fine, let's go out for a walk, she told me ok but disappeared when i asked her when she was free.
three months later i broke nc, told her so! how it's going?, she told me a little about those months, i told her that i have a lot going on right now, she went curious, i told her to hang out in the following days so we'll chat a little, she told me that wasn't a good idea, but was still curious.. i joked a little, she became pissed off and angry and told me that she don't give a **** about how my life is wonderful right now and that she has a lot of problems and her life is a mess right now. she just snapped!
so.. i just told her that i was trying to be positive contacting her, that i'd like to see her and to call me if she changes her mind.
as far as i can see, she's curious, and angry because i didn't told her anything, and if i studied well any emotion is better than no emotions and her hamster wheel should spin like a crazy one in the following weeks.
i'm planning to ignore her completely for a couple of months unless she tell me that she wants to hang out, but i'm surprised about that reaction.
what do you think?
oh, i almost forgot, i used (and still i'm using) these months to tackle my problems HARD, i'm into therapy to overcome issues with my loving but toxic parents, to become more independent, i've started exercising again, i've acquired a lot of new skills and responsibility at work, i plan on getting a degree in another language, setting bigger goals for me. no new girls right now because i don't want to be dependent on a girl anymore, i want to fix my life and have bigger personal goals before.
