AverageJoe5
Don Juan
Starting tommorow, going to start the eight week boot camp. Just setting up for it. Thought i would give some background on myself. I found this site last march (about a year ago almost after). This site helped me develope into a better person. It help me finally stand up for myself and become more confident. Then last summer, I started a process kind of like a camp, but it was me trying to improve myself. Long story short i end up w/ 2 different girls. There was others and I was doing really good. But wouldn't get w/ this one I really cared about since she had a boyfriend. Well, this really devastated me and left a deep scar. Go all afc again. Well, it was my senior year in high school. So partyed a lot from nov. to dec. Meet a couple girl but went back so AFC was afraid to approach. Then meet this sluet but wrecked that by being to attach. It's stupid but yet another long story short. drank a boatload, a friend betrayed me and pretty much ****ed me over a great deal, but basically we ened all getting arrested that night.and i end going to hospital. Where my parents come to get me in the morning. I know, deff not one of my proudest moments. Got grounded for 3 1/2 months. during this time basically blamed my self for everyone getting arrested and felt extreme guilt. Finally get ungrounded. Find out NOT one bit was my fault. Apparently the "friend" had the blame on me to his mom, was going to leave me in wood, and it was his ***** who was yelling so much the cops got called. (Let more info on this so called friend. He's a scumbag, but stood by him b/c everyone else got sick of him Well, found out from a friend that he was talking about me and was saying how he wanted to fight me. Note: this kid is a ***** who would do nothing. Well, that was it. I had I was the only one who stood by him and he was going to say that ****. So, I'm done dealing w/ him.) Ended up bouncing back into the my game back in April. Got w/ this girl, but she turned into a real *****. That bothered me. End up going w/ this one chick just to see how far could get w/ her. On the 3rd date she was suggesting we get a motel room for the night. Which I do. Good time 
End breaking off w/ her. Get sick of *****s and sluets. End up getting w/ this one chick. Ask her to prom one week before it (was going to go w/ this other who was a total slut. Deff would have gad a good night w/ her. But another long story short, she was acting like a total ***** to her best frien so I send her a myspace message a week before prom telling her I’m not taking her) End up hooking up w/ her the whole night and going down her shirt on the way home. (Note: I’m in a town car, w/ some guy driving us, a friend in the front passenger seat and his date next to us) We’re going 70 down I-95. When I hear someone yelling, so I look up this guy is hanging out the passenger side window of a truck yelling yeah over to us. Lol. I just smile and back to my business. Unfortunely after prom the girl just blows me off . Don’t know why. But whatever. Apparently now she’s getting w/ a friend mine. Whatever I could get pissed off but I moved on. Anyway end up meeting this college girl who is two into widner and going to west chester next year. She’s had a bf for the past 5. This girl ends up attached to me, takes a “break” from her bf and we end doing stuff. She ends up saying oh I’m still w/ my bf . Though as she saying she cares about her bf I’m rubbing her ***** and ass. Whatever. That was last weekend. Was in the dumps all weekend till graduation party sun. where I kicked it off w/ some Indian chick and was leding a red head on (who I’m going to fireworks w/ tomorrow night ) Well, I told her i didn’t want to talk to her for a few days. And I have no idea what’s going on there. She wants to be friends for now but still likes me but her bf is still around and she’s all confused. Ok that’s bs. But whatever. Actually talking to her now and she said this in text on aim. The reason she says is “i want to have a fun summer and find myself without like a guy around and thats y we need to be friends for now. maybe more lata just not right now. also i cant hurt my bf im an honest kind of girl and that would kill me and him and i also cant do that to u cauz if i started something with u i want to be committed to it ya know cauz otherwise that wouldnt be fair to u and i dont want that” Anyway back working at the pool and the girl who left the deep scar is back. I realized something today. Actually kind was yesterday. See I graduated yesterday, and well I end up going to tom jones. My bs mom startes **** and ruins the night. I end up feeling betrayed by everyone. It hits me . Why I’ve been so bothered the pass year? Why that girl mattered so much? Why I failed? I was so focused on everything else but myself. I was happiest when I was focusing on myself. Long story short. I was doing AFC when should’ve done DJ.
Anyway I’m back to where I was but I want to be better. I start college in the fall and I see this summer a way to final become the man I want to be. I see that happening even more by doing this camp. The reason I’m doing this journal is b/c I don’t think I can do it myself. I think I’m going to need to have as much support as possible. Thanks.
End breaking off w/ her. Get sick of *****s and sluets. End up getting w/ this one chick. Ask her to prom one week before it (was going to go w/ this other who was a total slut. Deff would have gad a good night w/ her. But another long story short, she was acting like a total ***** to her best frien so I send her a myspace message a week before prom telling her I’m not taking her) End up hooking up w/ her the whole night and going down her shirt on the way home. (Note: I’m in a town car, w/ some guy driving us, a friend in the front passenger seat and his date next to us) We’re going 70 down I-95. When I hear someone yelling, so I look up this guy is hanging out the passenger side window of a truck yelling yeah over to us. Lol. I just smile and back to my business. Unfortunely after prom the girl just blows me off . Don’t know why. But whatever. Apparently now she’s getting w/ a friend mine. Whatever I could get pissed off but I moved on. Anyway end up meeting this college girl who is two into widner and going to west chester next year. She’s had a bf for the past 5. This girl ends up attached to me, takes a “break” from her bf and we end doing stuff. She ends up saying oh I’m still w/ my bf . Though as she saying she cares about her bf I’m rubbing her ***** and ass. Whatever. That was last weekend. Was in the dumps all weekend till graduation party sun. where I kicked it off w/ some Indian chick and was leding a red head on (who I’m going to fireworks w/ tomorrow night ) Well, I told her i didn’t want to talk to her for a few days. And I have no idea what’s going on there. She wants to be friends for now but still likes me but her bf is still around and she’s all confused. Ok that’s bs. But whatever. Actually talking to her now and she said this in text on aim. The reason she says is “i want to have a fun summer and find myself without like a guy around and thats y we need to be friends for now. maybe more lata just not right now. also i cant hurt my bf im an honest kind of girl and that would kill me and him and i also cant do that to u cauz if i started something with u i want to be committed to it ya know cauz otherwise that wouldnt be fair to u and i dont want that” Anyway back working at the pool and the girl who left the deep scar is back. I realized something today. Actually kind was yesterday. See I graduated yesterday, and well I end up going to tom jones. My bs mom startes **** and ruins the night. I end up feeling betrayed by everyone. It hits me . Why I’ve been so bothered the pass year? Why that girl mattered so much? Why I failed? I was so focused on everything else but myself. I was happiest when I was focusing on myself. Long story short. I was doing AFC when should’ve done DJ. Anyway I’m back to where I was but I want to be better. I start college in the fall and I see this summer a way to final become the man I want to be. I see that happening even more by doing this camp. The reason I’m doing this journal is b/c I don’t think I can do it myself. I think I’m going to need to have as much support as possible. Thanks.
