Blind_one's Quest for Excellence ( Logs, FRs, you name it )

[blind_one]

So there I am, creating this thread.

For me, to reflect on my actions in order to better myself and grow.
For others, to see my ups and downs and learn with me along the way as I move through what are the best years of my life.
I won't ramble here about what got me here and when I went full AFC on some HB, If you are really curious you could check the archives.

I will start where I am now.

As of late May 2014, I am 23, gemini. 6 and half feet tall, around 165 lbs ( yeah that guy is a skinny sob for what's it worth) .
Attending Maritime University on a land based study course of Transportation and Logistics , writing my engineering thesis.
Starting this June I got into an 4 month summer holiday internship at an international corporation and so far it's been a blast ! The perspective that I might actually get hired later on the road is just WOW, given that they will be expanding by a huge margin towards the middle of 2015.

After this http://www.sosuave.net/forum/showthread.php?t=21755. I'm finally back to my good old self, stronger then ever.

You are all most welcome in this thread so we can develop ourselves together.

First entries soon to come.

As a note I wanted to thank all of you who shared your wisdom with me (both directly and indirectly by posting here) during my time lurking these forums there is just too many of you grown men here so I'll just name bradd80 because he's a straight up guy.

 

[blind_one]

It is time, fellow Don Juans ! The first of many

So the company that im interning in atm took in 3 interns ( including me ) and 5 people for the job. We were all being trained together for 2.5 weeks and we decided, since we are new here we should meet up and socialize. So the other intern told us she's throwing a party since she just moved into a new apartment.

I come back from a music festival, 6 hours back by train with a company of 2 lovely ladies traveling seaside for vacation. I'm at around 30 hours no sleep before the 2 hour nap I took before going to the party.

Turns out it's just I know no one besides the host girl. She introduces me to her bf, nerd roommate, her flatmate M and the rest of her friends ( lotsa females), pop a beer, we play some board game and watch the soccer semifinals.

During that time I noticed a cool chick ( Alicia and like '' hmm shes quite an interesting lady )''

We get to laugh during the board game when she doing so bad . 4 Of us [ Me, M, nerdguy, and the cute redhead Alicia is ], we talk in the hall as she says she has to go since it was already near midnight and she wants to go to the gym next day yada yada yada. The convo turn to fitness and her hobby as a dancer cool stuff,

I'm like BRO DONT **** IT UP and be damned for ever if you just do nothing ] Turns out we talk for another hour in that hall and then for a couple of minutes in front of the house as I devise a plan to go grab another beer from a shop nearby AND WALK her to to the bus stop on my way there. M catches my drift instantly and says shes ok you go still looking at me and slightly smiling, the nerdguy comes with us :crazy: .

What will be BLD1's next move ? What will happen next ?? STAY TUNED

 

[blind_one]

As we are about to split into different directions I ask her for her business card, since I saw she has at least one in her purse while she showed it to M, while they were comparing it to the old one. We say goodbye and split. A block away nerdguys says he's sorry but he caught the drift just now . I say chill dude since everything went allright. I grab a beer and we go back.

After some time the party dies down, the host starts cleaning the room and the remaining 5[ me, nerdguys, M, 2 other ppl ] of us move to M's room.

M gets more and more tipsy, she teases me about Alicia as she knew she cought my attention, which she tells me is her friend as they used to live together in the past. I realize talks mostly to me and at least 2 times initiates kino and when BLD1 realizes a girl initiates kino, it has to be pretty obvious.

One of 2 random people joke around that they should go and leave us alone which they do after some time. As they shut the door behind them shes all over me. I tell her to at least wait till they leave the apartment .

Now as we see them off to the door I do a quick memo.

1. I'm not sh!tting where I'm eating cuz right ? ( I'm on an internship with M's flatmate, the hostgirl)

2. She's obviously smashed but her motor skills are allright.

3. Should I hit it or not if things go that way ?

4. I decide to play alone and see what happends, I realizing it might fvck things up when I try to play it with Alicia. ( maybe )

We kiss and tumble on her large bed as I massage her. I help undress her top and pull her close to me while I ligthly kiss her colarbone and neck.
She's getting more and more rilled up as we lose ourselves in the passage of time. I get her pants of and massage her entire body avoiding the OMPH button area. She asks me If I have a rubber. I say yeah, and just keep doing what I'm doing, happily exploring her body. I dont remember the rest very clearly but it was definitely fun

When we're don't its 4 am we lay down together for sometime and then I decide its time to leave. She tries to stop me but I persist and we part ways.

 

[blind_one]

The same day, evening[Sunday]. This happends http://www.sosuave.net/forum/showthread.php?t=217899 Big thanks to TicTac and MC, many thanks guys, I appreciate your help!

M contacts me, I reply what TT and MC advised me and its right on the money.

Forward today [ Monday ]

M asks me whenever she should be worried in regards to the fact that she doesn't remember everything from that night. She says its embarrassing but she has to know.

She's asking about the condom ofc.

I shoot her back:

I think I get the idea and if I'm getting it right, you have nothing to worry about as we took the necessary precautions, if i interpret it right that is. Sorry for replying so late but I didn't notice it at work.

We exchange some texts she feels bad because she doesn't know me and I reassure her that everything is alright and that is just happened, no need to cry about spilled milk. She says its not THAT bad and shes feels better now and is happy that I'm chill about that.

I says that Its all fine and I'm glad to have helped.


Now, she texts me a couple of hours later saying

If you ever wanted to get to know each other better, just let me know

Now, I did not reply yet since:

1. Idk what she wants, might meet up just to find out ?
2. I dont might keeping her as a plate IF IT COMES to that which we do not know at this point.
3. Id avoid [option 2] as it might jeopardize the interactions with Alicia( which is M's friend )
4. It might complicate/get weird with my coworker [ which is M's roommate]


At this point I'm considering just not replying at all if it might fvck something up with the other chick.

Replying something like ''sure'' and playing for time

OR calling her in the near future to set logistics to get some drinks and get her in the sack again.

So I'm calling some other gal on Tuesday to try to get her on a date of some sorts, loosen her up with some good ol'social lubricant, and on Wednesday I was planning to call Alicia to take her for a coffee, see if I like her OR bowling then drinks ( I'm not sure about the rapport we established if any )

Help me out fellas your input is highly valued here as always

 

[blind_one]

The thread continues !

So, I called Alicia, got her private number, wanted to invite her over to a BBQ
I was hosting but shes going for some holidays [ that was almost two weeks ago] so I'll call her this week to invite her for a coffee after work, keep it short.

In the meantime ...

Saturday, people came over to have the BBQ, lots of fun, then basically she was the only one left as her flatmate, that I work with, ditched her saying that (she and her bf) were tired. [ Obv ploy to get us laid imho ]

One thing lead to another and we got back to her place. Was even better then before. So different from what got used to during my last LTR, just looks like she's truly enjoying it and is not self-conscious about her body like my ex was ( she had no reason for that ).

I figured she's showing interest and is acting all cool so next Sunday I rewarded her behaviour by taking her to an airshow ( free admitance ), then we went to her place and prepared some food since dinners were stuffed because of the event. My co-worker was with us for the first 30 minutes and then we met her at their place, she seems cool about "us" .

Then we had a couple of drinks and it was all going again :yes: .

I left at around 10 PM since I had work on Monday.

Called the other girl I mentioned a post above. She had some sh!t going for the entire week, trying to meet a deadline with some videos of them dancing, no counter offer or anything so I'll just try once next week and then just delete her number if nothing moves forward.

The internship is going swell, I really see myself working with them in the future. I just need to make sure I get my thesis done.

 

[blind_one]

Went to a music festival with my friends this weekend, so much energy, no wonder I'm coming back for the 4th time, I feel charged and ready to conquer whats ahead of me.

The dumbo I am, no approaches were made LIKE SERIOUSLY

It was a good opportunity to meet my acquaintances that I normaly rarely have time for, mingled mingled and got two numbers [ separate groups ], both live in an 6 mile radius from my home so I'll have something to work on during the up coming week.

On the way back by train, that is full of festival attendees, we hang out, drink, sing and laugh.

During our journey I wasn't sure whenever that girl was eyeing me or not ( didn't have my contacts on otherwise I'd take it for 100% granted ) so I assumed just that, took a seat next to her, introduced myself and we just started taking about what bands we saw and what we liked etc. She's giving vibes and I just autopilot as I was genuinely interested. I notice that brushes herself ever so slightly against my leg as we talk so I reciprocate. Turns out she lives in another country and leaves at next station. Well sh!t, right when my gut was telling me to isolate her for a ''smoke'' in the bathroom Gave myself a nice pat on the back for this one, can't win them all, life goes on.

Spoke to my buddy, we are going to join a gym by the end of this week.

Excited about whats going to unfold next.

 

[Cerwin Vega]

Hahaha, as a glasses guy I can totally relate to the "wasn't sure whenever that girl was eyeing me or not" part.
I don't wear them outside, only at home in front of the computer or when I'm studying so it happens to me a lot.

Good log, keep it updated

 

[blind_one]

Hahaha, as a glasses guy I can totally relate to the "wasn't sure whenever that girl was eyeing me or not" part.
I don't wear them outside, only at home in front of the computer or when I'm studying so it happens to me a lot.

Good log, keep it updated

Much appreciated ! Will do.

 

[blind_one]

So I phoned Alicia today [ tuesday ], after I finished work. Talked maybe for a minute or two at most.

BLD1: Hey, how was your holiday ?
HB: Hey, oh it was great, how are you ?
BLD1: I'm doing great as well, how about you tell me about your holiday when we meet for a coffe after work, say, thursday ? There is a cafe on Xstreet that I wanted to visit.
HB: Thursday is allright for a quick coffe after work. ( My thoughs exxacly )
BLD1: Alright, I assume you finish at X, so I'll be at the corner of Xstreet at X.
HB: Okay, sure.
BLD1: Okay see you, bye
HB: Bye bye.

Never been on a coffee date, whatever, I guess I'm supposed to screen her that way so I know whenever she's crazy/not interesting / redflagish. Let her talk and just go with it. I don't anticipate much kino opportunities other then the HI-HUG and maybe something at the end, we'll see.

That is if she doesn't flake in which case, she better have a good excuse and a counter-offer or fvck her !



Gonna phone one of the chicks I took a number from during the music festival, tomorrow. Set something up for Sunday.

The M chick texted me at work asking me what whenever I'm going to honour her with my presence on saturday. ( not joking)

I said sure and asked to reschedule to friday after work since I'm doing a BBQ but I said I'm going to birthday ( which is actually double truth since two of my guests are having a birthday that day :yes: )

" So my birthday is less important ? , Allright, I understand and it looks like I'll spend it alone with My Coworker from internship ( which is her flatmate) because everyone has plans already. In that case we can meet on friday after work " I Totally forgot about it ! Wrong move on my part as I remember her saying the specific date some time ago

This is where I think I might have gone overboard a little

BLD1: "Hey I'll come and visit but I'll do so earlier and I'll leave earlier but I have something planned for you "

HB: Should I be afraid ? So we're seeing each other a little bit on friday and a little bit on saturday ?
(Now, I decided to make her a bracelet from bright coloured cord, more into "I was thinking about you , not thinking about fvcking you" ( which is just the opposite ), I just hope she won't catch feelings, or do so later rather then sooner )
BLD1: Yes

After that she asked me whenever I like cheesecake so I joked that I need to watch my weight and told her I'm hitting the sack.

She wished me sweet dreams after that so for now all is well.

Now, the crucial thing is to leave early enough to avoid Alicia , which may or may not attend her birthday since they're friends.

This is getting more and more exciting. Peace


PS: During the music festival I attended ( 650 000 people + ) Of course I had to run into my ex-gf during one of the concerts So I approached them, Highfived her friend and she hid behind her, :nono: so I had fun for while nearby, and approached her again and went for the highfive, she stood there awkward for a brief moment then highfived me and I left them. I laughed really hard afterwards but felt a little bit bad about it , since I was sure that must have made her sad, like sadder then before . 3 Days later I get text from her : " If you are going to have a GF or have one already then I hope she won't have to suffer because of you, like I did after our breakup PLUS the situation at the festival after which I couldnt get a hang of myself, and that is the last you hear from me ( BSH!7 it's the 3rd or 4th time now, srsly leave me be ) because you won't reply anyway, take care .. "
( BINGO!, I stopped and never will , after she told me to go fvckmyself and then acting all hurt and why won't I give a sh!t )

Hilarious really

 

[blind_one]

So there goes, my first coffee date

Met here where intended at the established time hugged her to say hi.

We interacted for around 40 minutes ( 30 min coffee and then I walked with her for some time since we were going in the same direction ). Then I hugged her goodbye, she thanked me for the coffee and we parted.

I literally feel nothing, we chatted casualy about what we did lately and what our plans are for upcomming days. I could have probably asked more questions but I definitely didn't dominate the convo as I wanted her to talk. No red flags so far. No kino other than me poking fun at her so she would stop thinking/talking about work.

Doesn't look half bad atm, we'll see if she'll be up to go out again in the future.

This is the hard part I've been out of the game for so long I have almost no clue what to do further.

My guess is I'll contact her sunday/monday and try setting up for weekend.
Now, what I'd like to do is grab a wine and snag her to the beach around say 2 or 3 get some more tan going pm or BETTER grab her for bowling saturday evening then go to the beach to sip on some wine and somehow steer towards her place after that if the opportunity presents itself.

Help me out fellas :wave:

 

[blind_one]

So I've received your wise feedback on my coffee date and how rusty I became. I need to unleash the beast again :yes: .

Phoned Alicia 5 days later, she did not pick up, but she phoned me back in a few minutes so I guess it's not so bad even though shes going to her family town for the upcoming long weekend for which I tried to set bowling for. I did not really try to set anything up for earlier not later so I'll just call her next week and if we fail to set up a meeting and actually go though with it I rest my case, I ****ed up and its time to move.

Met with M on Friday, went to the beach, we went back to her's and I suggested she join me in the bathroom and we had a hot shower .
We talked some, baked a cake and along the lines it she mentioned that we're not really in a relation ship and ''we're just seeing each other and stuff'' . FWB status established . Grabed a wine, smashed and I dashed home some time later .

Saturday, BBQ TIME. Nothing special just chilling with my friends, them complimenting me for my fire making skills, celebrating a close friends birthday.

I had another girl set up for Sunday but she was going to her sister's bday on Saturday and said upfront that she will inform me if something fizzles out and she did. I are scheduled for next weekend and If that doesn't come to fruition she's out.

Monday M calls me and I get the idea she wants the D and wants to set something up for the upcoming weekend. She loves some dirty talk that I lay on her. Say I might be out of town but we'll see.

Tuesday she texts me how am I am and when are we gonna see each other. I reply that I'm gonna be knife-throwing on Thursday so she can join me and I could teach her a thing or two If she can handle it She says sure.

Get a call from an unknown number, I answer and It's a girls voice.

HB: Hey BLD1 you still remember me ?
BLD1: Sure, just remiding me what your name was.
HB: It's Anna
BLD1: Oh .. flufftalk

Turns out she switched numbers again. Tried to grab her for bowling but turns out her hand is injured, we are set up for friday.

Gotta grab more numbers, I gotta start approaching in public transport as I travel 8 min to and from work everyday in a ''tube''

Went to the gym with my friend on Monday, gonna get back there Wednesday gonna set up some routines soon, probably grab some protein supplements for good measure too.

Peace

 

[blind_one]

Thursday, beginning of a long weekend. After work I grabbed my knives and M met me on the station as planned. Taught her to throw a bit, laughed that she does it like a panzy and all the good stuff, kino while I show her how to hold the knife and move her arm while releasing the knife.

Later we grab a bottle of vodka and head to her place, watch James Bond, The Spy Who Loved Me with some drinks in hand. We did not finish watching that movie . I leave afterwards.

Friday I rest and catch up on some news, went for a beer or two and chilled at my buddie's.

Saturday, I met Ann, the chick that phoned me, who I haven't seen in a couple of months, Invited me to a party next weekend, she has a BF. Social expansion.

After that I went back for the Date with Karoline, went to the beach sipped on some wine, good kino. Seems like a nice chick, someone who can hold a conversation, talked about sex as well. We'll see how that goes. Walked her off to her bus, thanked me for spending time with her. Turned her cheek to the kiss-close, no biggie.

After that I grab a bite and visit my friend, and before that M texts me that she's cold and she's comming back from X and If I want to go back to her place. I hop onto her train, she makes me dinner then we fvck and I'm too tired and spend the night. We fvck again in the morning. I wash up, she make breakfast for us I stay for about half an hour and leave.

Overall great weekend.

Now time for the best.

On Monday my boss asks me to come speak to him 1:1. He asks me If I'm interested in continuing to work for them after I finish the internship as the project needs to be done before the end of the year ( which it won't ) and then I'll just take place of new hiree's which were supposed to join in January. All that on a regular salary, not these intern pennies.

Went to the gym
AWESOME.

 

[blind_one]

Woaa been a long time !! High time to dust off that thread.

My dad passed away late december. Huge loss, might still affect me even though I think it doesn't. Have to be strong for my mom as now I am the Man in the house. Still makes me sad when I think about all of it and how much good he brought that I didnt realize.

Got a steady job, in the same bizz I interned in. Lots of opportunities and experience gains already and to be had. Life's a beast.

Looking to buy a nice used car soon, my first. Engaging my brother into it, he's got it covered.

As for them ladies. Well ups and downs, my day game sucks and I want to approach buy I think I developed a mental block and am in a bad loop.

Still got my thesis unfinished which sucks because I need it for my engineer diploma and to finish up the university.

Hitting gym regularly since early february, gotta ramp up the frequency and stuff. I wanna grow hard and pump hard for it makes me feel great!:crackup:


Got 1 plate still same that I got in July/August, almost gained another one but I was not feeling it, no chemistry I backed off and havent heard from her since.

I feel like my game got better I can sense **** way better then ever, however I'm far from my god mode in terms of attitude I once had.

Good stuff !

 

[blind_one]

Haven't been here long, time for a new log.

Career has been doing well so far yet I'm looking for an upgrade. I want to become an Air Traffic Controller, a daring task but I think I got what it takes.
Recruitments are being held around twice a year, gotta keep looking up for them and sign up. I got an acquaintance from my current job that applied and got there and he is willing to help me out with the application so it's good stuff.

Got my first car up and running, learning the moto stuff and how to drive, lots of fun. Its an old 1.6 litre 101 HP Audi A3 but I love it. Next one is gonna have more kick to it http://imgur.com/rmx0P1T

My mindset is improving, yet there is always more good stuff to internalize.
Especially taking into account that I am coming to terms with my insatiability. It seeps into every aspect of my life, sometimes its a good thing, as I can learn new things very well, get into them, but sometimes its not needed and I waste time.

Hitting the gym with good results, especially thanks to EFFORT , he hooked me up with a program and a good diet.

So little time and I want to improve so much in so many ways.

1. Improve my carrer
2. Get good at moto stuff
3. Achieve an amazing physique
4. Improve my social acumen
5. Have fun

On the flipside, thesis is 1/3 done so at least its something.