BigCat's: Game a day

[BigCat]

Maybe there should be a subforum for game improvement journals...
What I am most interested in is whether engaging in such an activity as online journal writing will actually help me in the long run. I'm no stranger to journals - hell I keep and have kept a daily journal on paper since 2003! On the web I have kept write-ups on my powerlifting progressions over the years. But never a journal which encompasses such things that rarely are talked about outside my head.

So lets keep it simple. My goal is to improve myself, and by extension, with women... thereby greatly increasing the odds of eventually meeting that special someone and keeping her. I've been doing reading on pua but am more interested in game (read the spear-head more than pua manuals) but have yet to truly apply myself.

Well here goes. The amount of feedback will determine in part whether I will get serious about this - after all I want to create a log with success at the end as inspiration for others. And I WILL follow the journals of others who also share my dream of conquering life.

So it begins...

 

[sexyfaceme]

If your looking for motivational Fu.c.kers, don't count me in, mate. I don't mean to pull you down but You don't do favour to anyone by posting on their thread.
Well on the bright side, constructive criticism from you and others is welcome. And yeah we can always chit chat on what went wrong or what can be improved(for both of us) to speed up the improvement. . . Wish you success in all corners!

 

[BigCat]

....i don't get it sexyface u do or do not want me to post on your thread? Doesn't bother me either way...sorry just got back from work and a bit slow

 

[Xanthus]

If your looking for motivational Fu.c.kers, don't count me in, mate. I don't mean to pull you down but You don't do favour to anyone by posting on their thread.

That's ok. This might have been because I was answering something a new member 'pnutz' wrote in sexy's thread. He even said he didn't mean to hijack the thread either. I didn't want to leave him hanging.

Sexy, I was only trying to help a brotha out. Your thread is your thread and I respect that.

By the way BigCat, no offense in hijacking your thread here. Oops.

But anyway, everyone keep up with your journals and we'll be able to help each other along the way to personal greatness.

Xanthus

 

[BigCat]

OK so I am a 22 year old, 5'8 @ 180lbs muscular caucasian Scottish male - average looking. Actually I don't know how I am looks-wise. I rarely get noticed by women at all probably due to my height but I can be above or below average looks given circumstances/settings. Just about to graduate uni but probably going ahead with a masters course so really I'm a student until 2012 Olympics.

Today was work - retail store category health. Work week-ends mostly with a female boss - tall, blonde 40ish well-preserved, big nice ass - all offset by her multiple personalities, her flatulence, racism, sexism and toddler maturity level at times. Quite emasculating to say the least. Also have a pretty dam cute assistant manager - a 8 if it weren't for the extra few pounds. Rest of staff all female and a mix between sweet and grumpy old grannies and pretty attractive yet icy early 20 year olds.

I actually have semi-onitis for one of them - defo my type - 5'10-5'11 brunette, slender, gorgeous face with extremely sweet voice and smile. Only thing is she despises me and is always cold towards me underneath her begrudgingly polite exterior. Has a big, ape of a badboy bf with red hair and a leather jacket. Dunno if there is any connection between that and the fact she smells like pee when I am really close to her.

Working at the tills doing customer service can be soul-destroying or satisfying depending on my mood and mostly the customers. Given I am not really a people person and not being very suited to this kind of job it is generally the former. I get good practice though - my ability to restrain myself and anger has greatly advanced and I have 3 years of practice making eye contact with tons of people from bitter yet lovable old grannies to HB10s.

99% of all customers male or female ignore eye contact but I always try anyway. Highlight was HB7.5 returning my eye contact and giggling when I raised my eye-brow and sighed at her crumpled up bill notes When she left she smiled genuinely at me and her eyes looked down. Defo attracted to me.

 

[BigCat]

Sounds good to me Xanthus, hope to get to know you better soon

 

[BigCat]

OK so today....

Went to gym this morning as I always do to work shoulders - seated presses, inclines presses etc. I recently opened a club for weighlifting - trying to get new members. Actually initiated convo with this lithe, athletic brunette - HB7 - who was doing cleans. Asked her if she lifted competitively (obviously not given how it was only 110lbs or so she was using - herself weighing that much) and she was really warm and receptive. She actually is a sprinter. Asked her if she held any records - maintaining eye contact and not smiling too much. She sort of blushed and sheepishly said no - and I sighed and said she'd should train harder, finishing with a smirk. She laughed and said she'd like to join the club - told her fb page details. I then promptly left to talk to my gym buddies. Also spoke to this Finnish girl who is a member of my club - social sec actually. On very friendly terms with her - HB7-8 - actually have no idea what ethnic background she is. Definetly partially Asian - dark skinned - flowing long black hair with blonde highlights and tall. No potential there as want to keep things professional in the club. Not exactly my type either but still potential for friendship.

After that made eye contact with everywoman I passed on my way back to the flat. Some cute girls held it as I passed though couldn't tell if they looked down or up when it was broken. Felt really good.

Was meant to go to a party tonight with friends of my Czech flatmate (She's a solid HB10 with the nicest ass/legs and boobs ever and striking face and heartmelting smile - fell for this tall/dark handsome French guy much to my displeasure - a story for another day) - but they never got back to me and I couldn't very well invite myself over...

 

[BigCat]

Oh and I still haven't received replies from the 2 girls on POF who I tried to number close - been 2 day since I told them to give me their number after 2-3 emails exchanged b4. Pretty annoying but neither one particularly attractive.

 

[BigCat]

Haven't had any real contact with people last few days as been studying for exams intensively. When I am away from people for a couple of days my social skills definetly deteriorate fast and I start feeling a bit anxious and self-conscious around people so defo need to work on remedying that.

On POF got a reply from HB7 who likes same things I do (gym, weights etcs) and said she likes my profile and that I like "strong girls" and asked me to reply if I'm still interested...

Hell yeah but need to be careful about oneitis habit - dinner plates need to be spun - but she would be my first and only plate lol. Spending WAY too much time trying to think up an answer to send tonight - fact I'm killin so much time is worrying. Anyone got any ideas to put my mind to rest?

 

[BigCat]

ok this journal thing was a dumb idea - no-one is responding or even acknowledging my existance on this forum. Its just not the place for me so my search continues for somewhere where people will actually give me some goddam advice. Mod plz close thread ta