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how to say this... ok. this happened two weeks ago
I talked with this girl since 2005 but she had a boyfriend, a fat baldie so we never got along until a month ago we started talking on the net, i saw her on webcam and she also saw me and like what she saw, she called me on the phone a couple of times and we arranged a date for the past saturday.
She made a 3 hour trip (+/- 200 miles) from Lisbon to Porto (Portugal) to be with me, and paid a lot of money for the trip and i knew it wasn't just for a coffee, she wanted to spend the night with me.
i showed her around, monuments and interesting stuff. we had lunch together but when she finished she had little crumbs of food in the corner of her mouth and that made me nauseous, she didn't clean them she didn't even went to the bathroom like women like to do to check if they are looking nice. she stayed like that all afternoon, we had a chat while looking at the sea but when she told me she wanted to spend the night with me i knew that i had to make up something to get the hell out of there.
i sent an sms to my friend to call me and i made up a conversation with him saying loud so she could hear that my father was in the hospital and i had to go away to check him out.it was low and kinda immature but i hadn't the guts to tell her she wasn't my type right there. i took her to the train station and went home.
sunday i told her she was not what i expected and there wasnt a spark between us. i dont even know why i wanted to be with her, she is fat, ugly, not very feminine. maybe because im a virgin or maybe because i feel lonely but then my beauty standards for a woman get in the way and i just cant have sex with a woman that i dont feel a connection with.
a girl friend told me that woman want to have sex when they are in love and men when they feel attraction, but i dont see myself that way. i need to feel more than attraction i always have been this way and i had many chances to score and it never happened cuz i think too much with my heart i guess.
anyway i told the girl i didnt like her and she said she wanted to be my friend and that she didnt want me to stop talking to her. this on sunday. on friday i called her to see if she was ok and she kept rejecting my calls, thought she wanted me to be her friend so this behaviour confused me. i found her today online and she told me that 3 days later she had found someone and that she didnt like me, she tried to like me but i wasn't the right guy for her.
not that i care but why waiting a week after saying that she wanted me to be her friend to act like a *****? i think she is lying just to make me feel like i was the one rejected dont you guys?
I talked with this girl since 2005 but she had a boyfriend, a fat baldie so we never got along until a month ago we started talking on the net, i saw her on webcam and she also saw me and like what she saw, she called me on the phone a couple of times and we arranged a date for the past saturday.
She made a 3 hour trip (+/- 200 miles) from Lisbon to Porto (Portugal) to be with me, and paid a lot of money for the trip and i knew it wasn't just for a coffee, she wanted to spend the night with me.
i showed her around, monuments and interesting stuff. we had lunch together but when she finished she had little crumbs of food in the corner of her mouth and that made me nauseous, she didn't clean them she didn't even went to the bathroom like women like to do to check if they are looking nice. she stayed like that all afternoon, we had a chat while looking at the sea but when she told me she wanted to spend the night with me i knew that i had to make up something to get the hell out of there.
i sent an sms to my friend to call me and i made up a conversation with him saying loud so she could hear that my father was in the hospital and i had to go away to check him out.it was low and kinda immature but i hadn't the guts to tell her she wasn't my type right there. i took her to the train station and went home.
sunday i told her she was not what i expected and there wasnt a spark between us. i dont even know why i wanted to be with her, she is fat, ugly, not very feminine. maybe because im a virgin or maybe because i feel lonely but then my beauty standards for a woman get in the way and i just cant have sex with a woman that i dont feel a connection with.
a girl friend told me that woman want to have sex when they are in love and men when they feel attraction, but i dont see myself that way. i need to feel more than attraction i always have been this way and i had many chances to score and it never happened cuz i think too much with my heart i guess.
anyway i told the girl i didnt like her and she said she wanted to be my friend and that she didnt want me to stop talking to her. this on sunday. on friday i called her to see if she was ok and she kept rejecting my calls, thought she wanted me to be her friend so this behaviour confused me. i found her today online and she told me that 3 days later she had found someone and that she didnt like me, she tried to like me but i wasn't the right guy for her.
not that i care but why waiting a week after saying that she wanted me to be her friend to act like a *****? i think she is lying just to make me feel like i was the one rejected dont you guys?
