hey fellas, this will be very similar to a lot of posts you read on here!
but i messed up bad and need to vent ha.
I'm sure you've all had a oneitis in your time, i managed to tune mine and started seeing her 2 years after we became friends.
when i met her she was an innocent shy girl who had never touched a boy.
i gave her her first kiss and first everything except sex, she would always lock up when we came close to sex but i acted like i didn't mind coz i liked her heaps. infact i legitimately didn't mind.
there was always this weird vibe to our relationship though, we have kept at it for a year now, but it never seemed like it was progressing, it felt kind of secret and strange, sometimes she was really affectionate and sometimes she was distant and cold. for me it made me like her even more, I'm absolutely crazy about her and i don't even know why. if i could put together a perfect scenario in my head, it would pretty much be the way we came to know each other, all the talks we had, finally kissing her and making her fall for me. on top of that she is insanely good looking and quiet, goddamit i hate myself for even typing this but its the truth.
as i mentioned before, her hot and cold act started getting to me. about 2 months ago she flaked on my via text for no reason other than she couldn't be bothered doing anything. with other girls if they said that i wouldn't even reply, but when its a girl you're dating its a hard thing to respond to.
my response was this: haha okay thats fair enough, since you're so lazy and i cant be bothered waiting to tell you face to face, i think we should just be friends.
when i wrote this, i was expecting her to come running back, which she did. we met up and made out, then we started talking about our relationship, i told her that i didn't want to end it but that i was just frustrated with it.
this did not work at all. she denied me. said it would probably just happen again and said it would be best if we just stayed friends. then she got out of my car and went inside.
its been about 6 weeks since then, and now she is seeing someone else.
she texted me and told me she didn't know how to tell me and that she was sorry she did it over text.
now basically I'm wallowing in my on self pity and wishing i could go back in time and stop myself from acting like a complete b1tch.
im also thinking a lot of thoughts that i know are stupid but i can't help such as, after all the handwork i put into this girl bringing her out of her shell, some other dude has just come along and will take her virginity etc.
im not sure what i expect to get out of posting this. i have lost my manhood and I'm desperate to stop feeling so terrible about myself... i know most of you will say move on. but it just doesn't seem right, i feel like i should fight to get her back but i also know that it isn't possible haha... I've lost it....
what to do with my sorry ass?
but i messed up bad and need to vent ha.
I'm sure you've all had a oneitis in your time, i managed to tune mine and started seeing her 2 years after we became friends.
when i met her she was an innocent shy girl who had never touched a boy.
i gave her her first kiss and first everything except sex, she would always lock up when we came close to sex but i acted like i didn't mind coz i liked her heaps. infact i legitimately didn't mind.
there was always this weird vibe to our relationship though, we have kept at it for a year now, but it never seemed like it was progressing, it felt kind of secret and strange, sometimes she was really affectionate and sometimes she was distant and cold. for me it made me like her even more, I'm absolutely crazy about her and i don't even know why. if i could put together a perfect scenario in my head, it would pretty much be the way we came to know each other, all the talks we had, finally kissing her and making her fall for me. on top of that she is insanely good looking and quiet, goddamit i hate myself for even typing this but its the truth.
as i mentioned before, her hot and cold act started getting to me. about 2 months ago she flaked on my via text for no reason other than she couldn't be bothered doing anything. with other girls if they said that i wouldn't even reply, but when its a girl you're dating its a hard thing to respond to.
my response was this: haha okay thats fair enough, since you're so lazy and i cant be bothered waiting to tell you face to face, i think we should just be friends.
when i wrote this, i was expecting her to come running back, which she did. we met up and made out, then we started talking about our relationship, i told her that i didn't want to end it but that i was just frustrated with it.
this did not work at all. she denied me. said it would probably just happen again and said it would be best if we just stayed friends. then she got out of my car and went inside.
its been about 6 weeks since then, and now she is seeing someone else.
she texted me and told me she didn't know how to tell me and that she was sorry she did it over text.
now basically I'm wallowing in my on self pity and wishing i could go back in time and stop myself from acting like a complete b1tch.
im also thinking a lot of thoughts that i know are stupid but i can't help such as, after all the handwork i put into this girl bringing her out of her shell, some other dude has just come along and will take her virginity etc.
im not sure what i expect to get out of posting this. i have lost my manhood and I'm desperate to stop feeling so terrible about myself... i know most of you will say move on. but it just doesn't seem right, i feel like i should fight to get her back but i also know that it isn't possible haha... I've lost it....
what to do with my sorry ass?
