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Approximately 5 years ago I was in high school. I frequented the forums and the many articles in the hopes of finding the key to success with women. Although enlightened by thsociety vast majority if knowledge i went my whole senior year without touching a female.
I would still frequent the site untill i joined the military right after highschool. But once i was out of bootcamp and found some time i would still frequent it. Eventually i slowly ditched the forums and started to venture into online dating. I always hated them but since every guys was talking about all the women they pulled because of it and the popularity it gained i decided to try it.
I met this girl in OKC and she was 1 year older than me. I was 20 at the time and I lost my virginity to her. To not bore you with the details we are going to skip some stuff. We stopped talking or rather she stopped talking with me because it seemed I couldn’t learn everything this forums had to offer and i was overly attached and very possessive. But then after here I would encounter my first and only Girlfriend. We were together for about 4 months before She broke up with me. Initially i broke up with her. Then i decided to get back with her almost immediately then she broke up with me twic before ending it for good.
I died.
No seriously I was a mess after that. Took me almost 3 years to forget about her. (Broke up around august 2014)
The worst part is that is not like I didn’t get laid or found other women but i just couldn’t forget her. I would drunk text and call her every other month for the next year. Then i would delete here from my social media then add her back. Eventually I stopped for a while until this year when i checked up on her and she has a bf and she looks happy.
Now thats not the reason I write this thread. But rather to show how far I have come in this journey. Ever since her i have had a lot of sex with different women. And recently this year i discovered that apparently I’m hot as **** and had multiple one night stands and met lots of women in clubs of whatnot( ok maybe not but definitely this year i have ****ed more women than the past 2 years combined. And also understand I thought one night stands would be impossible for me for what ever reason)
It got to a point where my friends would get mad at me and wouldn’t want me to go out with them because they were scared i would take women from them. (If you have made it this far I thank you for your patience I’m about to explain the title soon)
However even with this newfound success and confidence in getting women. I’m still not happy. You see i mentioned the Military right? Well after my gf broke up with me I wasn’t the same. And i was very angry with the world. I got in trouble constantly while in training and although I made it to the fleet my problems didn’t stop there. I would always chase women thinking they were the key to my happiness. Taking everything else for granted. My job, my life and happiness. All for a woman that doesn’t exist. In my mind i was really good at anything life threw me except for women. So i chases and chased. Eventually I got kicked out and i never been the same.
The reason I joined was to pay for college. But with the type of discharge I got I am not eligible for it. Funny though right after I get kicked out is like women discovered me and I had so much success. But I wasn’t happy. I am 23 year old with no college education and no job. Although I’m still young I’m not where I thought i would be at this point in my life.
I write this in the hopes of finding similar stories. How long did it take you to find out that women are not the key to happiness ? I know this forums preaches that but is only now that I’m realizing it. Is as if Im still waiting for “the one” that would change my mind about women and help me through the struggle.
In conclusion this marks the beginning of me actually TRYING to become a better version of me and no more excuses!!!!
TLDR: life is a ***** then you die.
Approximately 5 years ago I was in high school. I frequented the forums and the many articles in the hopes of finding the key to success with women. Although enlightened by thsociety vast majority if knowledge i went my whole senior year without touching a female.
I would still frequent the site untill i joined the military right after highschool. But once i was out of bootcamp and found some time i would still frequent it. Eventually i slowly ditched the forums and started to venture into online dating. I always hated them but since every guys was talking about all the women they pulled because of it and the popularity it gained i decided to try it.
I met this girl in OKC and she was 1 year older than me. I was 20 at the time and I lost my virginity to her. To not bore you with the details we are going to skip some stuff. We stopped talking or rather she stopped talking with me because it seemed I couldn’t learn everything this forums had to offer and i was overly attached and very possessive. But then after here I would encounter my first and only Girlfriend. We were together for about 4 months before She broke up with me. Initially i broke up with her. Then i decided to get back with her almost immediately then she broke up with me twic before ending it for good.
I died.
No seriously I was a mess after that. Took me almost 3 years to forget about her. (Broke up around august 2014)
The worst part is that is not like I didn’t get laid or found other women but i just couldn’t forget her. I would drunk text and call her every other month for the next year. Then i would delete here from my social media then add her back. Eventually I stopped for a while until this year when i checked up on her and she has a bf and she looks happy.
Now thats not the reason I write this thread. But rather to show how far I have come in this journey. Ever since her i have had a lot of sex with different women. And recently this year i discovered that apparently I’m hot as **** and had multiple one night stands and met lots of women in clubs of whatnot( ok maybe not but definitely this year i have ****ed more women than the past 2 years combined. And also understand I thought one night stands would be impossible for me for what ever reason)
It got to a point where my friends would get mad at me and wouldn’t want me to go out with them because they were scared i would take women from them. (If you have made it this far I thank you for your patience I’m about to explain the title soon)
However even with this newfound success and confidence in getting women. I’m still not happy. You see i mentioned the Military right? Well after my gf broke up with me I wasn’t the same. And i was very angry with the world. I got in trouble constantly while in training and although I made it to the fleet my problems didn’t stop there. I would always chase women thinking they were the key to my happiness. Taking everything else for granted. My job, my life and happiness. All for a woman that doesn’t exist. In my mind i was really good at anything life threw me except for women. So i chases and chased. Eventually I got kicked out and i never been the same.
The reason I joined was to pay for college. But with the type of discharge I got I am not eligible for it. Funny though right after I get kicked out is like women discovered me and I had so much success. But I wasn’t happy. I am 23 year old with no college education and no job. Although I’m still young I’m not where I thought i would be at this point in my life.
I write this in the hopes of finding similar stories. How long did it take you to find out that women are not the key to happiness ? I know this forums preaches that but is only now that I’m realizing it. Is as if Im still waiting for “the one” that would change my mind about women and help me through the struggle.
In conclusion this marks the beginning of me actually TRYING to become a better version of me and no more excuses!!!!
TLDR: life is a ***** then you die.
