Are these normal feelings after your over a bpd ex?

[captain55]

I went from confused, to being angry, to being creeped out and disgusted as well as feeling slightly stupid myself for dating her as long as I have.

The thought that I stuck my **** in this woman knowing that she’s mentally ill just kind of ****s with my mind....Most guys look back at an ex with fond memories but in my situation now that I know she was a legit bpd/npd and just a flat out evil person In general I don’t have any fond memories of her all.

It’s a very disturbing feeling. I really wish I could if lost a good woman and at least could of looked back on the relationship saying “yeah those were good times and she was a good girl. Some guy will be lucky to have her” but that’s not reality.... these two dark years of my life are something I want to forget. It was a terrible toxic relationship and I truly am afraid to run into her again

 

[MoreThanSmooth]

I went from confused, to being angry, to being creeped out and disgusted as well as feeling slightly stupid myself for dating her as long as I have.

The thought that I stuck my **** in this woman knowing that she’s mentally ill just kind of ****s with my mind....Most guys look back at an ex with fond memories but in my situation now that I know she was a legit bpd/npd and just a flat out evil person In general I don’t have any fond memories of her all.

It’s a very disturbing feeling. I really wish I could if lost a good woman and at least could of looked back on the relationship saying “yeah those were good times and she was a good girl. Some guy will be lucky to have her” but that’s not reality.... these two dark years of my life are something I want to forget. It was a terrible toxic relationship and I truly am afraid to run into her again

Sounds like a perspective shift would help you out here - instead of thinking how s***ty the relationship was and how awful it felt, realise you are now free to do whatever you want. You should feel like the weight has been lifted off your shoulders, not put on them.

We all f*** up and date people we probably shouldn't have. That's life. You're now free to pursue someone you'll really click with. At the very least go out and have some fun with women who are more normal.

 

[Murk]

5th thread you’ve made on this woman, as Marmel would say, spin plates and meet other women.

 

[derby1]

Date other women you will then find this woman becomes a distant memory, its because you have no other women you are writing posts ...

 

[Billtx49]

I went from confused, to being angry, to being creeped out and disgusted as well as feeling slightly stupid myself for dating her as long as I have.

The thought that I stuck my **** in this woman knowing that she’s mentally ill just kind of ****s with my mind....Most guys look back at an ex with fond memories but in my situation now that I know she was a legit bpd/npd and just a flat out evil person In general I don’t have any fond memories of her all.

It’s a very disturbing feeling. I really wish I could if lost a good woman and at least could of looked back on the relationship saying “yeah those were good times and she was a good girl. Some guy will be lucky to have her” but that’s not reality.... these two dark years of my life are something I want to forget. It was a terrible toxic relationship and I truly am afraid to run into her again

Google ‘stages of grief’. It may help you with coming out of a toxic situation also.

 

[QuadDeuces]

Let it go buddy, we've all stuck our d!cks in crazy b!tches.
Obsessing will never change anything.

 

[051AV]

LOL you sound like me lol, takes a while for us to get over the mess they put us through, they inject us with their toxin, it takes a long time to purge it out of our system, life gets back to normal its when you realize what normal is. They live such a chaotic life they make yours that way you forget what a normal healthy life is. A BPD girl isn't happy if your not unhappy like them, they will make damn sure you are unhappy. I get reminders of her when I see women that look similar to her, gives me the shivers at times. I hear about my ex moving on to another man not too long ago I think that guy doesn't know what he's getting into. You can't fix these broads they are broken, they are like a high maintenance car, no matter how much she tried to change herself she reverted back to her evil self. I always think somebody should rid her of this world, but she does deserve to live, not with me that's for damn sure. I look at her path of destruction she leaves behind her I just laugh, people that have been in her life are no longer in her life she pushes people away. All I can say it was her father that fvcked up his daughter she would have been a perfect woman if her father was a better role model. I've realized a father/dad plays a big role in a woman's life I've seen it in other women that haven't had the best relationship with their father they are fvcked up somehow.