Patrick124
Master Don Juan
My girl of on-and-off for almsot a year now is a college student. She jsut left and wont be returning home for 4 months due to sport. I currently dont have a license but the weekend I get it back is also the weekend of our one year, so I'm supposed to go visit.
But heres the thing: I'm a senior and as with all DJs, I love my independence. 4 months is a long time to be sitting around not gaming girls[well not hooking up] and I told her I jsut dont think I can trust myself. But she "loves me enough to try out a break." We both admit thou, that when I leave for college a relationship is 99% not possible..so its like a ticking timebomb. I vleo the girl..but I mean...beach week, summer roadtrips, germany in 9 days[I got with a girl there last year..shes going again this year ha]..and all these cute lil juniors n sophs to break? Temptation is a terrible thing.
So she calls me today saying that she was talking to her roomate and her roomate told her to "have fun, we're in college and how can you keep yourself from having fun [getting with guys] if your guy cant even fully commit?"
I get the told that i can do whatever I want, hookup with whoever I want but then told not to tell her so that our relationship doesn't get hurt from my mistakes. And as she starts crying she says that sounds horrible and she doesnt want that because she doenst view hooking up as fun, she views ti as something passionate between to people and she cant do that with someone and be with me at the same time, then tells em she doesnt care anymore and then says shes going. Shes being jerked around in her head and its all because I dont know what I want.
basically i think she threw the ultimatum in my lap of either breaking up or being 100%. I love the girl, but i dont know if i'm *in* love with the girl. I'm too young to know, and its fcuked up that she gets the butt-end of my unsure-love experimentation.
anyone grasp anything from this?
I mean..shes been gone for almost a weeka nd I'm already thinkign abotu who I would love to date before highschool ends just so I can say I gave it a shot....fcuk man.
help?
But heres the thing: I'm a senior and as with all DJs, I love my independence. 4 months is a long time to be sitting around not gaming girls[well not hooking up] and I told her I jsut dont think I can trust myself. But she "loves me enough to try out a break." We both admit thou, that when I leave for college a relationship is 99% not possible..so its like a ticking timebomb. I vleo the girl..but I mean...beach week, summer roadtrips, germany in 9 days[I got with a girl there last year..shes going again this year ha]..and all these cute lil juniors n sophs to break? Temptation is a terrible thing.
So she calls me today saying that she was talking to her roomate and her roomate told her to "have fun, we're in college and how can you keep yourself from having fun [getting with guys] if your guy cant even fully commit?"
I get the told that i can do whatever I want, hookup with whoever I want but then told not to tell her so that our relationship doesn't get hurt from my mistakes. And as she starts crying she says that sounds horrible and she doesnt want that because she doenst view hooking up as fun, she views ti as something passionate between to people and she cant do that with someone and be with me at the same time, then tells em she doesnt care anymore and then says shes going. Shes being jerked around in her head and its all because I dont know what I want.
basically i think she threw the ultimatum in my lap of either breaking up or being 100%. I love the girl, but i dont know if i'm *in* love with the girl. I'm too young to know, and its fcuked up that she gets the butt-end of my unsure-love experimentation.
anyone grasp anything from this?
I mean..shes been gone for almost a weeka nd I'm already thinkign abotu who I would love to date before highschool ends just so I can say I gave it a shot....fcuk man.
help?