Ahhhh whatttt ammm i doingggggg? HELP

[cclim-ox]

Hey Bro's, firstly a bit of background info.....got screwed over by this girl I'm about to post about, I was a massive AFC then found DYD, then found this board (been reading everyday for 4 months) and I've also read everything i can get my hands on (including the bible ) plus I've got a heap of DYD MP3'S........I know it comes down to fiield experience and I still can be a real puzzee, however, I've made some pretty big steps with talking to girls....

Anyway, I have a lot to learn....and it seems I've gone and ****ed myself up again......or at least confused my self over the girl i mentioned above.

Heres the quick histroy of me and this girl:

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18 months ago:
*Get her MSN: talk online....couple of weeks later...hook up with her knowing it was ONLY going to be wild sex....banged her in her car...

4 weeks later:
*We are FB"S and I have no respect for her what so ever...no feelings what so ever...but i hadn't been laid in 2 years so I was ejoying the freaky sex. ... .. .. she gets feeligns for me during this 4 week FB relationship...so i call it all off....

A COUPLE OF WEEK LATER:
*She gets a BF and stays with him ofr a bit over a year.....we talk every now and then on MSN.

FEBUARY THIS YEAR:
*Breaks up with her BF, start talking agian regualry with her.....she has changed dramarically as is not the same person at all......inpossible to explain.....I start to actually really like her....we are now BF and GF...

APRIL:
* We come into a lot of trouble because she still has feelings for her ex-bf. I break it off with her because it wasn't fair on me.

*Next she gets back with her ex again......

* Then guess what? Yup, she breaks up with him 3 mothns later!

* During this tiem I have read everythign known to man....I practice all my DJ skills on her...I even take things way to far and be an abosolute JERK at tiems....suprised she still talks to me....

*We kiss......then she says she doesnt wanna have sex coz she has to leave....we speak durign that week,i[m busting my besy DYD/DJ moves on her.....she brings up the topic and tells me shes goign through a break up and just wants to be friends with me...no sex.

* THe folowing 4-5 weeks, i just practice all my DJing on her...and use it for that only.......up until last wednesday night when I jokingly told her to coem over because it was cold 9 over msn) and she did...and we fuked like rabbits.....

*See her saturday mornign on msn...she is eatign out of my hand...and its hard to read what shes thinking...i badly wana know if it was a ONS or she is interested in being FB's ....but I dont ask....

*11:30 at night, STUPIDLY on my way home from a pub i send her a text message telling her to come stay over, when she finishes up her night. ( tihniing purely with my cok...against DJ ruels).....no reply.......try calling her 30 misn later....she doesnt pick up.....

Okay so i really fuked up here, but i thoguht I had a fairly good chance and i really wanted sex....poor excuse i know....i just couldnt contrl myself...

Now, i want this girl as a FB.....althoguh, I thought i was over her, it seems this is already playing with my head ALOT...I i hate to admit it but i think I do have feelsing for her again..FUK!

How the hell do I handle this situation? My haed knows this is a bad idea in a way....but i want her as a damn FB badly.

Give it too me straight fellas....

It's so hard when you tihnk yoru on top of it all....then you start dropping the ball.

All of this woudl be so much easier if I was out doing CA's all the tiem and meetign lots of women...I'm workign towards it and have imporved fro mthe very bottom on low-self esteem to actually beign able to talk to girls a little.....

I am in a very respected profession....awsome job....I have a lot of different talents...and I am an extremely dedicated bodybuilder that has probably oen of the best physiques in my gym of 2000 members. But all of this really means nothing to getting me out and doign CA"s all the time etc....i sitll have a lto of improvements to make...

Please shoot me a reply, this is doing my head in.

 

[DJDamage]

I don't think you can make her your FB, because you end up having feelings for her and it doesn't sound like she wants to be a FB.

ONCE ITS OVER ITS OVER!! stop being addicted to the pvssy and having oneitis and start sarging and NEXT this girl FOREVER! Its the only way to get out of this vicious cycle, you probably already knew the answer to that but you are thinking with your little head instead of your big head.

 

[Interpol]

I only read about 10% of that, but your answer is NEXT.

There are plenty of women out there, no need to chase after one who keeps fvcking around with you.

 

[Jariel]

There are two ways of looking at this. Either you want to know how to manipulate this girl to suit your needs, or you want to get your head straight and get on with life.

The biggest mistake guys here make is trying to manipulate or win over a retreating woman. She will only retreat further and cause you to feel more frustration and desperation.

However, getting your head straight is a good option and just means giving up on her. No contact, no trying to say or do the "right" thing, no hope of things changing. Just rule her out as an option and look elsewhere. Once you draw this line as final, things get much better. It's the clinging and hoping that makes things worse.

 

[cclim-ox]

Thanks very much guys..

She actually sent me a text message late Sunday night....

It's damn hard not to just do the t"think with your ****" thing and try try to sleep with her again...I wont hide that, its DMAN hard.

I'm just ignoring her at the moment and I'll be she rings me in the next couple of days....

I just need to get away from her, it is hard...but I know whats best i nthe long run.