ok, final update. I'm sure you read my story for those of you interested in this. Yesterday she IMed me, and so I want you guys to critique my responses if you can. I just want to let you guys know that right now I'm just going to move on and put this girl back on the "friend list". She is now officially with Sparkman, so there isn't much I can do but next her for now. I think she can be useful to me as a quality female friend tho I think.
Jaymo said:
hey, this is jason. saw your msn id on facebook when u added me and decided to add you as well
amy: Hey May I, say something to you in regards to my inappropraite actions?
Jaymo says: sure
Amy: I do apologize, though that may not make a difference because what happened, happened, but I apologize for leading you on like I did. I understood what I was doing on seeing how far you would take things, I just..failed my own test by allowing myself to get caught up in the moment.
It wasn't fair to you
(my comments: I find this particularly facinating. It seems that I actually did do something right for a change. I think I've finally found a way to make kino work for me when it comes to other women.)
Jaymo says:
I'll say. i sensed that i could have escalated things further if i wanted, but i knew you were still on the rebound and ended the interaction before it got too far.
(i know, crappy response.)
amy: don't let me or anyone else use that as an excuss. Just because there was the breakup, shouldn't mean certain behavior should have been done and/or acted on. I told Steven Tackett about this and spoke with him later on allowing an agreement between us with communication. That is why he blew up at you that day which WAS very inappropriate a response on his part
Jaymo says: so he found out about what u did with me too.......
Amy: He was very upset at finding my decision
Amy: Yes. Meredith had told him.
Jaymo says: i didn't know about u and tacket and your physical relationship with him till last sunday
Amy: He and I's odd friendship had been going on for over a year
I've known him almost as long as I've known Mr. Sparkman
Jaymo says: yea, so i gather
Amy: After what happened that night with you and I, I got after myself for what I'd done, that is why I tried to back away from you physically, so that I didn't do it again.
(Meaning, if i did what I did before and lets me get away with it, I'll prolly get the same positive results)
Jaymo says: right. well u digged yourself into quite a deep hole on this one amy. this is has already spread beyond our little circle of friends
Amy: So I've heard, and it's rightly deserved.
Jaymo says: hope sparkman's worth it. i doubt anyone else on campus would go for you after this. but that's my opinion
Amy: Thank you for letting me speak
Jaymo says: i wish i found out about sparkman from u rather than jessica
Amy: I didn't get to see you on campus today so I didn't get to tell you. I could have called.....and at least you are still hearing it from me
Jaymo says: yea, after i hear it second hand from everyone else...but whatever, i'll get over it
Amy: Which is inappropriate since they knew I was going to talk to you
Jaymo says: well better late than never i guess
Amy: Thank you, Jason.
Amy: If you wish not to speak to me after this point, just tell me now. I, personally, would like the line of communication to stay open to know if you could ever forgive me. I don't want you to forget so that mistakes aren't made, but to forgive.
Jaymo says:
well, i'll need a week or two to get over this stupid drama stuff. it's all been very depressing for me. By then, I'll prolly find someone else nice and I'll be over it by then
Jaymo says:
already got a phone number from another girl. i met last night
Amy: Congratulations, just, make sure you get to know her and that she gets to know you, the REAL you.
Jaymo says: i always am the real me
Jaymo says: there's just different sides
Amy: I find you more outgoing and attentive when you are singularly with someone, versus in a group.
Amy: Then it will be good that "she" sees all sides of you.
Amy: I think I have done enough damage for the night. I wish you good night and good luck before further injury is added to insult on my part. Again, I am sorry and I wish you luck and much happiness going along your path
Jaymo says: thx. talk to you in a couple weeks i guess
Amy: Only when you feel ready or want to speak with me agian.
Jaymo says: yea
Ok, here's the part where I will be bracing for all the head knocking for all the wuss stuff i shouldn't have said. I'm just looking to learn from this at this point, and not make the same mistakes again.
