Dirtythirty
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Some back information first
Married 13 years love my wife, but we are both VERY type A personalities, so neither wants to submit which causes untold amounts of friction.
Been maintaining girlfriends for about 10 years out of the 13, never let them to close mostly just need a hole or some strange.
The only time she ever found out is when I told her about one because what we were doing just wasn't working and she needed to know I am not above leaving and she needs to show some respect or get the **** out.
Currently am seeing 2 girls on the side. One knows and is super turned on by it, and the other is a nieve college girl can't even drink yet that is going to have some regrets sooner rather then later.
Its far to time consuming for me to add another regular screw as it is I don't go a day without sex.
The dilemma is simple I met someone.
She is 20 and possibly the happiest person I have ever met, being around her even for an hour will make me smile all day, and I'm not alone. Everyone I see that talks to her is the same. The bad part is she knows where I live, my number etc, because she works at a store I frequent. Basically she is a lot closer to me then any other girl EVER, hell the 19 year old I mentioned earlier doesn't even know my real name.
Further
Recently I turned down a 3 way, not because I was scarred(have had a few usually better in porn, unless the girls make you want to cradle in the bathtub crying trying to get clean type of dirty girl, then it is definitely side reel material) just didn't want to, then about 2 days later I had the perfect opportunity to take a waitress to a hotel and bang her till her jaw went loose and I could mount her like a ventriloquist doll and I just said well I hope your boyfriend goes willy first into a blender and left.
Which leads me to believe either I'm back in high school and retarded around women or subconsciously I am committing to her.
What makes it worse is I can not seem to even get the nuts together to get this girls number, because she is so happy I don't want to change that.
God typing this out makes me think I need to take a step back, take a cold shower and go pick a fight after a few beers seriously I feel like a *****. Really would like a third party opinion as my friends have basically told me that I should go vegan and play an acoustic guitar.
By the way my dad said I am finally growing up and I should consider pursuing her and ending my marriage, because he thinks it might be real for me, so yeah he just wants grandchildren.
Obviously I'm knee deep in my own head so I will stop now
Married 13 years love my wife, but we are both VERY type A personalities, so neither wants to submit which causes untold amounts of friction.
Been maintaining girlfriends for about 10 years out of the 13, never let them to close mostly just need a hole or some strange.
The only time she ever found out is when I told her about one because what we were doing just wasn't working and she needed to know I am not above leaving and she needs to show some respect or get the **** out.
Currently am seeing 2 girls on the side. One knows and is super turned on by it, and the other is a nieve college girl can't even drink yet that is going to have some regrets sooner rather then later.
Its far to time consuming for me to add another regular screw as it is I don't go a day without sex.
The dilemma is simple I met someone.
She is 20 and possibly the happiest person I have ever met, being around her even for an hour will make me smile all day, and I'm not alone. Everyone I see that talks to her is the same. The bad part is she knows where I live, my number etc, because she works at a store I frequent. Basically she is a lot closer to me then any other girl EVER, hell the 19 year old I mentioned earlier doesn't even know my real name.
Further
Recently I turned down a 3 way, not because I was scarred(have had a few usually better in porn, unless the girls make you want to cradle in the bathtub crying trying to get clean type of dirty girl, then it is definitely side reel material) just didn't want to, then about 2 days later I had the perfect opportunity to take a waitress to a hotel and bang her till her jaw went loose and I could mount her like a ventriloquist doll and I just said well I hope your boyfriend goes willy first into a blender and left.
Which leads me to believe either I'm back in high school and retarded around women or subconsciously I am committing to her.
What makes it worse is I can not seem to even get the nuts together to get this girls number, because she is so happy I don't want to change that.
God typing this out makes me think I need to take a step back, take a cold shower and go pick a fight after a few beers seriously I feel like a *****. Really would like a third party opinion as my friends have basically told me that I should go vegan and play an acoustic guitar.
By the way my dad said I am finally growing up and I should consider pursuing her and ending my marriage, because he thinks it might be real for me, so yeah he just wants grandchildren.
Obviously I'm knee deep in my own head so I will stop now