A Borne Inspired Journal...Billy Badass style!

[Billy_Badass]

Well, in effort to get my life where I want it, I am gonna do some things to push it in the right direction. I currently have no consistent friends, I hardly ever go out, and I am basically alone. Along with that, I have other goals in mind because being a DJ is a lifestyle alltogether, its not just about banging the hotties. So, following suite with Mr. Borne, I will start my own journal chronicling my sucesses and failures of getting my life in order. Here are my goals in life as of right now:

1) Getting some kind of social life started.
2) Moving out.
3) Getting my ass in gear as far as college goes. I let my depression from being dumped bring me down, and my grades came down with it. I am too smart for this ****.
4) Getting some ass sooner or later... I need to see whats out there besides the one GF I landed.
5) Work out again. I used to be such a buff bastard, now I ain't even close.
6) Figure out a way to quit my damn smoking. I have tried and failed like 15 times. Will go in conjunction with number 5.
7) Becoming socially unafraid. I have made several strides in this direction already, but I am not even close to where I need to be. I want to be able to have intersting conversations with everyone, not just people I "click" with.
8) I want to have a more positive attitude about the things I do have, I have been in a depressed stupor for 3 months now, all over one piece of ass. Its a damn shame really. I need to realize that while things may not be perfect, I have it better then most!
9) Better emotional control. Love, or whatever the **** I felt, made me weak. This cannot happen again.... period. I must learn to control these feelings better as to not lose my self-respect again.


Well, thats what I want to accomplish. No, thats what I will accomplish. I am ready to pay whatever cost it will take to get my life in order, and become what I really want to be. With that said, I guess I will go get started now.

 

[Bourne]

I'm honored man. Good luck to you. If you have any questions, even though I am work in progress I will try do my best to answer you.

Remember, "Success is your only motherfVcking option, failure is not."

The day you take control of your life, that is the day you will stop worrying and start living. When you are 80, you will die without regret, because you know you have lived to your fullest potential.

 

[Billy_Badass]

Day one... a few approaches

I am fortunate enough to work in the perfect sarging environment... a mall. I work at a little kiosk that has tons of lady traffic around it as it is located right by Victoria's Secret! Got a few approaches done.

#1 Redhead HB8 that I keep running into in random places, its freaky really:

She walks by:

Me: You know we can't keep meeting up like this don't you?
Redhead: I know! This is so weird!
Me: Tell me about it! How have you been?
Redhead: Not bad! I have just been doing my schoolwork and working! I have been so busy lately.
Me: Same here! I hardly have time to do much of anything! Its mostly work, school, and sleep.
Redhead: Yeah, I know what you mean!
Me: Well, I really should be working, but instead of meeting in strange random places, how about we just hang out sometime?
Redhead: Well, I am a pretty busy person right now. No gurrantees.
Me: Thats not really a problem for me. I am a busy man too! I say we just go out for coffee and talk for a bit.
Redhead: Well, I am actually in a serious relationship right now, so I can't. Sorry!
Me: Haha, no biggy! I actually do this all day long! (****y smile)
Redhead: Haha, oh yeah? Ok haha. I guess I will catch you later though. It was nice talking to you. Goodbye!
Me: Take it easy!

Not a bad convo... didn't get the number though. Not to mention I may have used some bad C&F talking about how I pick up chicks all day. I guess I was just trying to brush off the rejection. Not really a big deal though, I always wanted to ask for her number, but I never got around to it.

Approach #2 Hispanic HB 7.5 from highschool

Me: Hey, How goes it?
Hispanic: Not bad! Haven't seen you around in a while!
Me: Yeah, I have been quite the busy man. What are you up to?
hispanic: Not a whole lot. Just doing some shopping!
(Insert meaningless fluff talk)
Me: You 21 yet?
Hispanic: No, not yet!
Me: Awww! I guess you can't come with me to the bars yet, youngin!
Hispanic: No, not yet. Well, I need to go. See ya later!
Me: Later!

Haha, scared that one off the moment I went for the close. It was clumsy anyways, so I really don't care.

Approach #3 Sexy tall girl

During lunch, I talked to this tall, sexy hb8.5. Her and I always chat when we get the chance. I saw her walk by while I was at a table outside:

Me: Just getting back from lunch?
Tallgirl: Yeah, but I still have a little of my break left.
Me: Then get your ass over here and sit with me!
TallGirl: Haha, ok, sure.
(insert random bull****)
TallGirl: I think I may go out tonight... I wanna hit the bar.
Me: Haha, sooner or later, I could use a few beers. We'll go sometime. You can be my wingman!
TallGirl: Well, on Thursdays, there are two dollar you call its at Sterlings, so we should meet up there sometime.
Me: Sounds good! Now you need to get your ass back to work!
TallGirl: Haha, whatever! See you later!

We'll see about this one. She kinos me a lot, and always comes over to talk to me while I am working. Even her coworker commented on how much she flirts with me, and he was a bit jealous! Could be a possible lay, but not LTR material.

The rest of the night was just eye contact practice. I am already descent at this. I tried smiling, but I am unsure of the results.

One girl was giving me ec and I smiled and said hi. Either she was creeped out, or surprised. I walked by the Jewlery store, and saw her again, and she kinda looked at me. Not sure if thats good or bad.

Another, made ec and when she passed me I saw her and her friend giggling. Could be good, could be bad, but I don't really give two ****s or anything, so whatever.

Overall, good day for some practice. I didn't get any numbers, and I have been getting a few here and there lately, but I didn't keep the interest level high enough, so I know what to work on. Thats about it for today!

 

[Billy_Badass]

Day 2

Didn't do a ton of approaches today, but I did have some success... I got the first number close I have recieved in about a couple of weeks, so it was a nice end to the dry spell I have been having.

Approach Number 4# Cute HB 7.5 brunette smoking outside of work

I walk outside to smoke, see a cutie on the bench smoking, so I walk up to join her.

Me: Hey! How you doing today?
Brunette: Not bad, although we are getting swamped at work today?
Me: Wish I could say the same! Its been slow as hell for us.
Brunette: Oh! Where do you work?
Me: (I just point to my shirt's logo)
Brunette: Oh yeah! The little stand that used to be by the theater?
Me: Yeah. Its not so bad.

I noticed she had a book, so I figured it would be an easy conversation piece.

Me: What book are you reading?
Brunette: Fast food nation! Its really kind of scary.
Me: Yeah! Have you ever seen super size me? That movie almost scared me out of fast food!
Brunette: Yeah! haha, no joke! You really never know what you are eating these days! The only thing I haven't given up is my coke! That stuff is too good!
Me: Yeah, I'll never be able to stop drinking that ****!

This basically keeps going for a little while, until she got up and was about to leave. She asks me where exactly my job was located so she could come visit me, and I told her, and then I just got her name and number.

Time for the ole two day rule... shes cute, descent sense of humor, and what not, so I'll give her a call. If nothing comes of it, so be it, I will just keep doing what I am doing until I find the diamond in the rough.