bukowski_merit
Master Don Juan
what do i do?
- I avoid exclusiveness. I regularly have 3-4 "f buddies" and 1-2 "emotional f buddies/non-exclusive relationships"... with a few of them we just share $ex but normally at least one of them - we connect on an emotional level as well (snuggling and sleeping together after $ex, i love you, spending days together having fun without $ex, you know all that "relationships stuff" without the relationship)...
i never pay money for these women to be in my life. regularly get them to buy everything.
i put in little effort to keep them around (they come and visit me/call me etc...) - i have a, "my doors open - just call first to make sure" policy (that most would advise against, but it works for me.)... the $ex comes at least twice a week... i don't get many $hit tests...
i basically live a life that i "believe" a lot of guys would kill to live... but sometimes it doesnt feel that way.
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so what's the problem?
on the 4th of july.... when i was around family... when i see all my cousins all snuggled up with the one they "love" watching the fireworks.... i felt empty.... i had just defended my "i don't do relationships at this point in my life" stance to my female cousin hours earlier... we had a very heated conversation... and i look over and there she is with her fiance... and although i watched them earlier and saw how much she controlled him - i was a little envious... not that she had him by the dog collar... but that she had him... period.
i also get a lot of pressure from my mom to produce a grandchild before she dies.... every time i see her... she says, "are you seeing anyone seriously?".... "not really mom"
sometimes i think - maybe i should settle down... but produce a baby? produce a marriage? live that life? i don't think it would last... i've done serious relationships (with good girls) and i get bored with them...
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but i must face the fact...
that i am the "lover" type.... trying to be the provider type with such a hard exterior would fail... trying to be the provider type when i have learned how to provide for myself and no one else would fail.... trying to be a provider type but knowing that i have a chance with most women i see would cause me to fail to be faithful...
can a guy who is "the lover type" (good in bed - alpha - very hard to read/myterious - able to understand women and their thoughts and show them i do, etc.... but not very wealthy, not driven by money, not interested in living the "typical" american family dream, not interested in courtship or marriage)...is it possible for me to overcome the flaw of not being a provider and still get a serious relationship? can "the lover type" be taken serious long-term by women without switching to the "provider" role?
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Like i said...
this feeling only occurs 5% of the time in my life... mostly when around family (actually "only" when around family)... 95% of the time - i love this lifestyle (i get to do all my hobbies, and have $ex with women without the headaches, financial strain, and commitment)... so maybe the 5% isn't even worth paying attention to?
who else goes through similar? do some of you get family pressure to stop the lifestyle you do?
- I avoid exclusiveness. I regularly have 3-4 "f buddies" and 1-2 "emotional f buddies/non-exclusive relationships"... with a few of them we just share $ex but normally at least one of them - we connect on an emotional level as well (snuggling and sleeping together after $ex, i love you, spending days together having fun without $ex, you know all that "relationships stuff" without the relationship)...
i never pay money for these women to be in my life. regularly get them to buy everything.
i put in little effort to keep them around (they come and visit me/call me etc...) - i have a, "my doors open - just call first to make sure" policy (that most would advise against, but it works for me.)... the $ex comes at least twice a week... i don't get many $hit tests...
i basically live a life that i "believe" a lot of guys would kill to live... but sometimes it doesnt feel that way.
---
so what's the problem?
on the 4th of july.... when i was around family... when i see all my cousins all snuggled up with the one they "love" watching the fireworks.... i felt empty.... i had just defended my "i don't do relationships at this point in my life" stance to my female cousin hours earlier... we had a very heated conversation... and i look over and there she is with her fiance... and although i watched them earlier and saw how much she controlled him - i was a little envious... not that she had him by the dog collar... but that she had him... period.
i also get a lot of pressure from my mom to produce a grandchild before she dies.... every time i see her... she says, "are you seeing anyone seriously?".... "not really mom"
sometimes i think - maybe i should settle down... but produce a baby? produce a marriage? live that life? i don't think it would last... i've done serious relationships (with good girls) and i get bored with them...
---
but i must face the fact...
that i am the "lover" type.... trying to be the provider type with such a hard exterior would fail... trying to be the provider type when i have learned how to provide for myself and no one else would fail.... trying to be a provider type but knowing that i have a chance with most women i see would cause me to fail to be faithful...
can a guy who is "the lover type" (good in bed - alpha - very hard to read/myterious - able to understand women and their thoughts and show them i do, etc.... but not very wealthy, not driven by money, not interested in living the "typical" american family dream, not interested in courtship or marriage)...is it possible for me to overcome the flaw of not being a provider and still get a serious relationship? can "the lover type" be taken serious long-term by women without switching to the "provider" role?
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Like i said...
this feeling only occurs 5% of the time in my life... mostly when around family (actually "only" when around family)... 95% of the time - i love this lifestyle (i get to do all my hobbies, and have $ex with women without the headaches, financial strain, and commitment)... so maybe the 5% isn't even worth paying attention to?
who else goes through similar? do some of you get family pressure to stop the lifestyle you do?
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