I've made a decision...
With regards to women; that is to say love/sex "relationshiops" I only want one night stands. Only. Ok...One
night stands and day two's (ie timebridge to fvck)
I have a time limit: 9 months (I have a reason for that time frame) and the time started from this weekend...
Friday I bagged a 24 year old English chick. a 7 (that's really subjective and I don't give a fvck for it normally)
Why do I love one night stands? She left my flat today at around 11.30am with her friend (no threesome..) and there was no bullshvt talk about changing numbers and all that....did she buy into my frame? I jokingly had said "now don't start stalking me after tonight, yeah?" her response "don't worry, it'll be you catching feelings" chin chin......so i got what I wanted/she got what she wanted....I have no whatsapp friend and I'm free to be the selfish narcissist that I am and persue my own interests....
What's the reason...
I've came to the realisation that since I was a teenager....I've had the brainwashed disney belief that....I needed a significant other.....
When I was 17 I slipped into a ltr with a girl which would last 5 years....when it finished? Where's her replacement? I wanted to fvck as many women as possible to make up for lost time....but.....I wanted....ok maybe I fvcking needed her replacement....
I realise that I've had that a long time.....finish with a girl....replace her....coming from a need......not from a want...ie a compliment...
The last couple of years it's been all about me...however I noticed that feeling of replacement never quite went.....now....I have such a full life......a lot of activities, friends, interests....
...where would I fit a woman? that's the point.....I don't want to change my life.....for now.....and fit one in.....fvck that.....I am too selfish and I have no problem saying that...
but sex I do need.......so sport **** it is
However, sex is not the goal of this project or decision.....
what is?
Pure.....transient confidence
and...
Pure....unadulterated mental freedom
transient confidence from pick up skills and my own life....
mental freedom...from not wanting anything from anyone......(yes I want cvnt but that's easily obtainable)
With regards to women; that is to say love/sex "relationshiops" I only want one night stands. Only. Ok...One
night stands and day two's (ie timebridge to fvck)
I have a time limit: 9 months (I have a reason for that time frame) and the time started from this weekend...
Friday I bagged a 24 year old English chick. a 7 (that's really subjective and I don't give a fvck for it normally)
Why do I love one night stands? She left my flat today at around 11.30am with her friend (no threesome..) and there was no bullshvt talk about changing numbers and all that....did she buy into my frame? I jokingly had said "now don't start stalking me after tonight, yeah?" her response "don't worry, it'll be you catching feelings" chin chin......so i got what I wanted/she got what she wanted....I have no whatsapp friend and I'm free to be the selfish narcissist that I am and persue my own interests....
What's the reason...
I've came to the realisation that since I was a teenager....I've had the brainwashed disney belief that....I needed a significant other.....
When I was 17 I slipped into a ltr with a girl which would last 5 years....when it finished? Where's her replacement? I wanted to fvck as many women as possible to make up for lost time....but.....I wanted....ok maybe I fvcking needed her replacement....
I realise that I've had that a long time.....finish with a girl....replace her....coming from a need......not from a want...ie a compliment...
The last couple of years it's been all about me...however I noticed that feeling of replacement never quite went.....now....I have such a full life......a lot of activities, friends, interests....
...where would I fit a woman? that's the point.....I don't want to change my life.....for now.....and fit one in.....fvck that.....I am too selfish and I have no problem saying that...
but sex I do need.......so sport **** it is
However, sex is not the goal of this project or decision.....
what is?
Pure.....transient confidence
and...
Pure....unadulterated mental freedom
transient confidence from pick up skills and my own life....
mental freedom...from not wanting anything from anyone......(yes I want cvnt but that's easily obtainable)