Hello gentlemen,
I caught myself yet again in a period where I'm losing interest in female companionship, to extent that I find it annoying when girls call me, text me, try to talk to me or generally do anything; Additionally, every single girl I look at seems somehow unattractive and flawed to me, even though month ago I though that very same girls were drop-dead gorgeous. Heck, I pretty much went ghost on my FWB last week for no real reason. I did not contact her for a week beforehand, so she invited me over for a movie on Monday night. As we were watching some scary movie at her place with her cuddling on my side, she started feeling me up, and for some reason, I just sighed, stood up, and said "uhh, yeah, I think I'm gonna go"
After some small talk as I was getting dressed, our last exchange was
FWB "I'll see you next week?"
"Maybe you will, maybe you wont". And I just left. From then I have ignored her messages, as well as messages from few other girls that wanted to find out my plans for the weekend/evenings. Even the thought of me texting/calling one of them makes me sigh in my head, and any memories associated with them seem... annoying. For example, my latest FWB, although not the brightest in the lot by my standards (Bilingual, graduated from average university in media, recently got a job in national TV) and somewhat shallow ("Oh, did I ever show you this fur coat? My last boss bought it to me! I sooo want another one" "Yeah, why don't you call your boss and ask for it?"), suddenly seems plain stupid and shallow to me in a repulsive way where even her looks are a turn-off to me.
I do have a busy schedule, and I am working a mentally demanding job extra hard recently, with quite a few deadlines on the nose, so I assumed this might be stress and general "busy-ness" with my life, however, in retrospect, I have managed to date/meet girls even when I had more on my plate. There's a certain negative episode in my past that happened on this time of the year, however, I always thought I had my inner demons on check, and did not encounter such mood swing last March, so I can't really put a finger on anything to cause this.
Has anyone encountered anything like this? What's your take?
And no, I don't wake up in the middle of the night "craving for some c0ck". I'm not becoming gay, nor I ever was a latent homosexual, if that's what you were about to say.
I caught myself yet again in a period where I'm losing interest in female companionship, to extent that I find it annoying when girls call me, text me, try to talk to me or generally do anything; Additionally, every single girl I look at seems somehow unattractive and flawed to me, even though month ago I though that very same girls were drop-dead gorgeous. Heck, I pretty much went ghost on my FWB last week for no real reason. I did not contact her for a week beforehand, so she invited me over for a movie on Monday night. As we were watching some scary movie at her place with her cuddling on my side, she started feeling me up, and for some reason, I just sighed, stood up, and said "uhh, yeah, I think I'm gonna go"
After some small talk as I was getting dressed, our last exchange was
FWB "I'll see you next week?"
"Maybe you will, maybe you wont". And I just left. From then I have ignored her messages, as well as messages from few other girls that wanted to find out my plans for the weekend/evenings. Even the thought of me texting/calling one of them makes me sigh in my head, and any memories associated with them seem... annoying. For example, my latest FWB, although not the brightest in the lot by my standards (Bilingual, graduated from average university in media, recently got a job in national TV) and somewhat shallow ("Oh, did I ever show you this fur coat? My last boss bought it to me! I sooo want another one" "Yeah, why don't you call your boss and ask for it?"), suddenly seems plain stupid and shallow to me in a repulsive way where even her looks are a turn-off to me.
I do have a busy schedule, and I am working a mentally demanding job extra hard recently, with quite a few deadlines on the nose, so I assumed this might be stress and general "busy-ness" with my life, however, in retrospect, I have managed to date/meet girls even when I had more on my plate. There's a certain negative episode in my past that happened on this time of the year, however, I always thought I had my inner demons on check, and did not encounter such mood swing last March, so I can't really put a finger on anything to cause this.
Has anyone encountered anything like this? What's your take?
And no, I don't wake up in the middle of the night "craving for some c0ck". I'm not becoming gay, nor I ever was a latent homosexual, if that's what you were about to say.