cactus3178
Senior Don Juan
Oh, boy. Where to start....DON'T be like me:
I went to the local bar with a female friend last night, one of my ex's best friends. Nothing weird or anything like that, we are just FRIENDS (I know some of you have a hard time grasping the fact that guys can actually have female FRIENDS). Everything was going great, kicking it and drinking beer, had a couple shots of Jager (Love that stuff). My ex's cousin called me up and wanted to meet up with us, and I like the guy, so he came down and we hung out and the three of us played pool and drank.
What happened next is still so fresh in my mind that I get pissed all over again typing this:
Ex's cousin says to ex's friend "So, I'm not coming to Idaho with you guys because me and (cactus) are gonna go bang some ho's this weekend". She says "Okay, have fun!". I interject "No that's quite alright, I'm not really ready for that quite yet"
***I know I should be dating, but I'm still a little fucking bent about the last relationship I had***
Ex's cousin says "Man, you and Jenn (my ex) are done". "Your done". I said "Uhhh....I guess..."
So ex's cousin gets a serious look on his face and says "Dude, I didn't want to have to be the one to tell you this, but..."
And then he and ex's friend proceed to tell me a ton of stuff I wish I would have known a long time ago. Evidently, my ex has been on the lookout for a replacement for some time now. She planned to go to Idaho (where she has alot of friends) to hook up with some dude, and a ton of other BS.
Truth be told, this girl has told me the opposite of the information I received last night, and it honestly did hurt me to listen to that.
So, by this time, I'm kinda buzzin....to much to be driving legally....so stupidly, I decide to jump in my truck and go up to her house to bury this thing once and for all. At 2:30 in the morning. Walked in the door and un-fucking-loaded. Called her a lying byatch, told her that I had lost all respect for her, and that I wouldn't get back with her in a million years.
She denied everything (I didn't say who told me), told me to go to hell, and threatened to call the cops if I didn't leave, so I left. She asked me to call her when I got home to see if I made it okay, WTF?
I called when I got home 6 minutes later, and she was crying uncontrollably....I told her I hated her, to make it count with the next guy (she swears she'll never sleep with 5 people in her lifetime, I'm #4), and told her if she wanted to tell me the truth face to face, she could come by the next day and tell me.
She left here 5 hours ago, after denying everything. She told me whoever told me that was full of shit, and that she was definitely not interested in ever being with me again after my little stunt last night. She told me I wasn't 'marriage material'. I wished her good luck in life and sent her on her way.
Lesson of the day: Don't let alcohol influence you to do retarded things like this!
Amazingly, I still feel horrible about everything. I shouldn't have done what I did, but the more time goes by, I actually DISLIKE her more for dumping me in the first place. The day I learn to let go is the day I'll be a free man. I hope that day comes soon. I wish I knew why the thought of her being with somebody else revolts me...she's not even mine anymore.
Thank God it's finally over. This relationship needed a bullet in the head over a year ago.
/long vent
I went to the local bar with a female friend last night, one of my ex's best friends. Nothing weird or anything like that, we are just FRIENDS (I know some of you have a hard time grasping the fact that guys can actually have female FRIENDS). Everything was going great, kicking it and drinking beer, had a couple shots of Jager (Love that stuff). My ex's cousin called me up and wanted to meet up with us, and I like the guy, so he came down and we hung out and the three of us played pool and drank.
What happened next is still so fresh in my mind that I get pissed all over again typing this:
Ex's cousin says to ex's friend "So, I'm not coming to Idaho with you guys because me and (cactus) are gonna go bang some ho's this weekend". She says "Okay, have fun!". I interject "No that's quite alright, I'm not really ready for that quite yet"
***I know I should be dating, but I'm still a little fucking bent about the last relationship I had***
Ex's cousin says "Man, you and Jenn (my ex) are done". "Your done". I said "Uhhh....I guess..."
So ex's cousin gets a serious look on his face and says "Dude, I didn't want to have to be the one to tell you this, but..."
And then he and ex's friend proceed to tell me a ton of stuff I wish I would have known a long time ago. Evidently, my ex has been on the lookout for a replacement for some time now. She planned to go to Idaho (where she has alot of friends) to hook up with some dude, and a ton of other BS.
Truth be told, this girl has told me the opposite of the information I received last night, and it honestly did hurt me to listen to that.
So, by this time, I'm kinda buzzin....to much to be driving legally....so stupidly, I decide to jump in my truck and go up to her house to bury this thing once and for all. At 2:30 in the morning. Walked in the door and un-fucking-loaded. Called her a lying byatch, told her that I had lost all respect for her, and that I wouldn't get back with her in a million years.
She denied everything (I didn't say who told me), told me to go to hell, and threatened to call the cops if I didn't leave, so I left. She asked me to call her when I got home to see if I made it okay, WTF?
I called when I got home 6 minutes later, and she was crying uncontrollably....I told her I hated her, to make it count with the next guy (she swears she'll never sleep with 5 people in her lifetime, I'm #4), and told her if she wanted to tell me the truth face to face, she could come by the next day and tell me.
She left here 5 hours ago, after denying everything. She told me whoever told me that was full of shit, and that she was definitely not interested in ever being with me again after my little stunt last night. She told me I wasn't 'marriage material'. I wished her good luck in life and sent her on her way.
Lesson of the day: Don't let alcohol influence you to do retarded things like this!
Amazingly, I still feel horrible about everything. I shouldn't have done what I did, but the more time goes by, I actually DISLIKE her more for dumping me in the first place. The day I learn to let go is the day I'll be a free man. I hope that day comes soon. I wish I knew why the thought of her being with somebody else revolts me...she's not even mine anymore.
Thank God it's finally over. This relationship needed a bullet in the head over a year ago.
/long vent