Hello guys!
I am not a native english speaker, so I tried to make all this clear as much as I could!
I am going to tell my experience with my first girlfriend that dumped me about 5 months ago. I know I made many mistakes, but I am here to hear your thoughts, tips, etc!
I will start from the beginning. I was 17yo and she 16yo. We met in a dancing bar and that night we had our first kiss. I got her number and that was it. The days after that we started to text each other a lot, all day long! We were both young, none of us had a (boy/girl)friend before and this scenario continued to happen for the next months. We were seeing each other every weekend but there were no sex at all, just a few bl0wjobs, because she always argued that for having sex we would have to be in a serious relationship and she needed to visit her doctor first (she was always on pills because of a health problem). After almost 1 year and a half, we made that official and started a relationship, I visited her parents, she visited mine and stuff like that.
I was always available for her. Now I know that I shoudn't have been so romantic and easy. I gave flowers, opened car's door, gave gifts, always telling 'I love you', etc..(my mistake I know). She lives in a city about 50km from me and most of the weekends I went there by car. She had not a license so it had to be me, otherwise we couldn't even see each other. (Her parents barely cared about our relationship).
So we were in a relationship and about 2 months later she went to the doctor and it was everything ok! Then, we had our first time(I always used a condom and she also was on pill).
We had sex hidden from her parents, and she always complained about it. She would like to have free talks to her mother about sex and stuff, but she didn't. We had sex only 6 times. We were both really in love.
Everything was going ok, until one day that she had to stop taking pills for a while. During this time, we had sex one time and I used a condom ofc.
Just the day after she started to be really mad at me. She was scared of getting pregnant and blamed me for that last sex. The next days her period was irregular, delayed, she started to panic. She would even talk to me with some kind of hate in her words. For her, I was the responsable for the risk of pregnancy. One week later, she told everything to her mother. At the same time, she texted me breaking up with me (I was at college in the middle of a calculus class). I knew she wasn't pregnant and for 4 days I didn't keep any contact with her. On the 5th day I called her to hear some news and to ask her back. She made blood exam and found out that she wasn't pregnant. She was completely angry, upset, she started to HATE me for the panic I "gave" her and her mother.
Then I made some other mistakes. I became desperate, I called her for ask her back, apologizing, I assumed I was guilty for all that, etc...
After 4 days we were back together, BUT now enters her mother in history. Her mother prohibited us having sex, she had to be home until 10pm and stuff like that. My girlfriend was saying that she wouldn't have sex for many many years, because what she considered the biggest trauma in her life.
I agreed with all that(My mistake again). We continued together, no sex at all. During these months, she intended start having sex again but always changed her mind, mostly because her mother terms.
I always talked to my girlfriend and tried to convince her that what happened would never happen again, but no success, we had no sex for 8 months.
One day, she told me her father was aware of what happened and became very very angry. She always said that her parents would never trust me again. Our relationship became a problem for them, and surprisingly, she seemed to agree with them.
After that, she (again by text message) asked for a break, telling me that she had to adjust her life, calm down her parents and then we could get back together. I offered to talk to her parents but she didn't want, so that was it, for 5 months until now we are "on a break" with no contact at all. I didnt look for her, not a single text msg or call. I disappeared, deleted from facebook and she had no information about my life.
These days, she appeared and wished me happy birthday and a week later she came to me(text msg) telling me that everything was ok in her life, that she misses me so much, etc. I replied her the day after, suggesting that we could meet and talk. She refused and prefered to do it by text msg... I told her I was becoming interested in another girl, and that we should then let the things remain that way. She didn't respond.
that's it.
I am inclined to believe that she does not love me at all. Am I right?
I do not want her even close to me, I can get a better girl than her. Will she look for me? If she does, I should ignore her forever or what?
I am not a native english speaker, so I tried to make all this clear as much as I could!
I am going to tell my experience with my first girlfriend that dumped me about 5 months ago. I know I made many mistakes, but I am here to hear your thoughts, tips, etc!
I will start from the beginning. I was 17yo and she 16yo. We met in a dancing bar and that night we had our first kiss. I got her number and that was it. The days after that we started to text each other a lot, all day long! We were both young, none of us had a (boy/girl)friend before and this scenario continued to happen for the next months. We were seeing each other every weekend but there were no sex at all, just a few bl0wjobs, because she always argued that for having sex we would have to be in a serious relationship and she needed to visit her doctor first (she was always on pills because of a health problem). After almost 1 year and a half, we made that official and started a relationship, I visited her parents, she visited mine and stuff like that.
I was always available for her. Now I know that I shoudn't have been so romantic and easy. I gave flowers, opened car's door, gave gifts, always telling 'I love you', etc..(my mistake I know). She lives in a city about 50km from me and most of the weekends I went there by car. She had not a license so it had to be me, otherwise we couldn't even see each other. (Her parents barely cared about our relationship).
So we were in a relationship and about 2 months later she went to the doctor and it was everything ok! Then, we had our first time(I always used a condom and she also was on pill).
We had sex hidden from her parents, and she always complained about it. She would like to have free talks to her mother about sex and stuff, but she didn't. We had sex only 6 times. We were both really in love.
Everything was going ok, until one day that she had to stop taking pills for a while. During this time, we had sex one time and I used a condom ofc.
Just the day after she started to be really mad at me. She was scared of getting pregnant and blamed me for that last sex. The next days her period was irregular, delayed, she started to panic. She would even talk to me with some kind of hate in her words. For her, I was the responsable for the risk of pregnancy. One week later, she told everything to her mother. At the same time, she texted me breaking up with me (I was at college in the middle of a calculus class). I knew she wasn't pregnant and for 4 days I didn't keep any contact with her. On the 5th day I called her to hear some news and to ask her back. She made blood exam and found out that she wasn't pregnant. She was completely angry, upset, she started to HATE me for the panic I "gave" her and her mother.
Then I made some other mistakes. I became desperate, I called her for ask her back, apologizing, I assumed I was guilty for all that, etc...
After 4 days we were back together, BUT now enters her mother in history. Her mother prohibited us having sex, she had to be home until 10pm and stuff like that. My girlfriend was saying that she wouldn't have sex for many many years, because what she considered the biggest trauma in her life.
I agreed with all that(My mistake again). We continued together, no sex at all. During these months, she intended start having sex again but always changed her mind, mostly because her mother terms.
I always talked to my girlfriend and tried to convince her that what happened would never happen again, but no success, we had no sex for 8 months.
One day, she told me her father was aware of what happened and became very very angry. She always said that her parents would never trust me again. Our relationship became a problem for them, and surprisingly, she seemed to agree with them.
After that, she (again by text message) asked for a break, telling me that she had to adjust her life, calm down her parents and then we could get back together. I offered to talk to her parents but she didn't want, so that was it, for 5 months until now we are "on a break" with no contact at all. I didnt look for her, not a single text msg or call. I disappeared, deleted from facebook and she had no information about my life.
These days, she appeared and wished me happy birthday and a week later she came to me(text msg) telling me that everything was ok in her life, that she misses me so much, etc. I replied her the day after, suggesting that we could meet and talk. She refused and prefered to do it by text msg... I told her I was becoming interested in another girl, and that we should then let the things remain that way. She didn't respond.
that's it.
I am inclined to believe that she does not love me at all. Am I right?
I do not want her even close to me, I can get a better girl than her. Will she look for me? If she does, I should ignore her forever or what?
