Twin Journey; A Journal

[BlondTwinNr2]

Being inspired by both, Nova, and Norwegian; I've decided to write a journal.
Goal's being to keep a straight focus on myself, whilst being able to receive feedback from optimal sources, such as my community is lacking in.

First of all I'm Caucasian, from the Scandinavia, been living abroad my entire life. My mother tongue is English, that is the language I grew up with and been studying with my entire life. My second language is Swedish. around 187cm, 70kgs. My hair is possibly my greatest asset, and the fact that I'm a twin.

My 18th birthday is coming up and I'm at a point where I feel I need to set goals, inspire myself, others and essentially, just come to terms with who I am.


My goals at the moment are:

1. Gain some muscle
2. Stop failing Geo.
3. Maintain a decent GPA
4. Stop Smoking
5. Stop excessive drinking
6. keep a steady girlfriend
7. Become "happy" with who I am.



How will I get there?

* Do some personal training to just boot my strength, e.g. push up, sit-up, crunches, resistance exercises (resistance band), join my twins gym the following school year.
* hit the books before tests. Class grades I pass, but those tests are like women who don't understand a "NO".
* Focus somewhat on school. Mainly areas that I'm interested in.
* Simple, stop smoking. yet; my social circles all include smokers... problem already....
* Easy; money problems are already available, so buying decent alcohol is not an option anymore; yet the cheap stuff looks real tempting at 6 at night... tsk. work out instead.
* Find something that interests both of us, here is a big problem; Cannot keep a girlfriend, usually bore after 1-6 weeks.
* Steady process throughout life; everything will fall into place.

 

[BlondTwinNr2]

Past Few Weeks;

Workout; Been sick lately so no improvement. no Comment. Started working out today again. Eye infection still present. Slight constant headaches. Coughing.

Socially; Been partying for the past 3-4 weeks. (yes, whilst sick) A mate stayed over for 10 days, socialized with a number of personas. Various ladies meet and presented. One case of total black out, 13 days ago. not smooth. Last weekend. traversed to a island w/ family. Shared a room with brother. The girl next door was very friendly. Told me "Just knock if you wanna come in". A decent three nights.

School; This week, World Lit. paper 1 rough draft due. 1500 words. Extended Essay, pre draft. 1500 words. Lab reports for both Physics and Chem. Geo. started the internal assessment. yet to define what it shall consist of. Got voted as student officer for charity group. And being the vice-prez of prom. and prom being 3 weeks away. it is contributing as an extreme source of stress.

 

[BlondTwinNr2]

Today, May 4th. 2011. Wednesday.

Easy day, warm and bright, looked to be a good day. My twin, lets call him, Fabo, wakes up sick as. School. Kino the regular lady friends, during 1st block. Study hall. Prepare Theory of Knowledge Essay; Wikileaks, let you know more about that as I come along. Added finishing touches to Physics lab. Block two. Geo. Start a choir in class for the 1st five min, making all the guys become the baritone, our soloist for Jazz band who is part of my class. lets call her HBSwizz is an amazing singer so she solos as the sopranos with the 4 other ladies (one being a HB6.5 [N.B. my county is deprived of HB.s and my school is extremely deprived.) in the class before the lecture starts. Was an amazing time. danced and joked. Spent class learning more about our IA, sat next to HBSwizz, participated in "friendly" Kino, discussed her boyfriend that had moved back to Swizz. 3rd block. Eng. sat next to Retro as normal, her and her friend watched Modern Family, kino and neg. participated in childish games such as stealing each other noses. Good old days when you didn't have a care. <3 Lunch; got elected for Student Office in Charity Group. Me and a runner up, HBArgen. very religious, participated in a deal, enjoyed some kino with a HB6, planned my weekend. Last block chem. focused on my social circles. new Chapter. Equilibrium.

A fairly average day; after school participated in an Honor Society meeting, Kino a girl the year below me, yet several years younger, shes 16. Messed about, and it ended fairly easy. My guess is that shes into me, yet i don't know. I think I'm out of her league whilst still... experience is experience. Already have a reputation [neg] that I managed to reverse from last year. Still; my blackout two fridays ago seems to have reversed that. Was called man***** again by Fabo's best mate. yet he's always hated on me sense I hooked up with his ex. Wonder what will happen this Sat on my birthday? Invited the next door neighbors up. hopefully they won't feel to awkward. They're pretty cute. both 16. Think both has the hots for me. yet that may be a preconception after spending 72 hours confined with them on an island. Remains to be proven. Will decide later.
Currently the girl that i like is out of the country or some **** like that, her school is on break. She stood me up last week after a prearranged lunch. Ofc she told me about it on the night out yet... I wonder... She timid and cute. Progressing.

And fudge. realized that a pretty... boring diary entry.

shall see what i can do to improve. not good at entertaining audience with written work. Hopefully that'll improve the more I continue writing. [comments please]

Friday night, invited the guys over; Going to be a hell of a way to reign in my 18th birthday. first pre-drinks my place. then Clubbing all night long. no constrictions. I say im pretty decent with openers and social working is my skill. Walking up to a HB10, not a problem. I just usually just stick them there though as my friends come and take the set over. Usually by forcing me to intro. I don't mind. usually. yet there's one in the crew that everyone falls for without him opening his mouth. It's the biggest distraction. usually when they found out im with him, all attraction goes to him asap. Usually win it back by the end of the night when they realizes he feel like a mute. but clubbing isn't the best place to start a decent convo w/ words.

anyways, Jaeger, malibou + the lads and a night. intrigued. to say the least.

 

[NorwegianDJ]

You should educate yourself on the science of changing a habit. First you have to assosiate more pain to smoking, and lots of pleasure to stopping. I'll leave it to you to figure out how. If you keep smoking, you'll just strengthen your neural pathways, making it harder to stop.
There are more you can do to. But ill leave that up to you to find out.

Give me a routine you'll be doing. Give me a calorie plan.

Stop drinking unless its a party. Try limiting yourself to a certain number of shots. Again, pain/pleasure.

Cool to have a swede around.

 

[BlondTwinNr2]

Changing a habit is something, that i personally find very easy. yet it is usually to a more... negative and damaging habit.

Smoking itself is not a problem, I'm not addicted to it. Of that much is certain, and I can sustain weeks and months without smoking. It is though, in the presence of my peers that smoke that is my biggest worry. It's not that they force me to smoke, it's just a social habit I picked up with them over the years.

I wouldn't mind associating pain with smoking. I already have some experience seeing as ally my grandparents have succumbed to it. On average i smoke 1/2 stick a week. but to me, that's to much.

Thanks for the tip though to associate pain with kicking a habit.

Hum. a shot count. that could prove very successful. i should make it a monthly shot count. or weekly.

Calorie plan is currently non-existent. I consume fish, eggs, and milk as a regular part of my diet. We eat whole grain meals as a family. My metabolism is relatively quick and I've been presented to my brothers personal trainer. She established that I'm undernourished, both in terms of body fat, body weight, and everything. She didn't give me a recommend meal plan. I shall acquire Fabo's shortly.

My current workout routine; (not daily, every 2 days)
3 x 20 pushup.
3 x 25 sit up (squats)
1 x 15 squat
1 x 17 squat
1 x 20 squat
3 x 60 bicep-curls. (twist; from hands normal) yet, im limited to 4lb weights. (essentially useless i believe...)

not currently involved in any gym;

so benchpress is not yet practical.

Next august after my summer break I plan to start.

and thank you for a positive, and constructive post. gladly appreciated Norwegian.

 

[Nino-Tk]

Good to have another brother doing a journal... I can see some good times for you if you keep it up.
Oh and...no woman is out of your league. No woman. Remember that.

 

[NorwegianDJ]

Just write what you feel is relevant, however, I'm not really interested in your schoolwork, but then again, this isn't for me!

Just take a look at my journal, my writing varied (varies) a lot. You can tell I got better, more confident, I started questioning, philosopying (if that's even a word), and I seem to have found a style that fits, but its naturally changing. Realize that your journal might be more confusing to others than you think. Elaborate when necessary, give creative easy names, and headlines for parties (if they may be significant later).

 

[novaknight]

Good luck with your journey. I actually can give some advice with the schoolwork, although I probably can't help you with the subject, I have been through really tough classes and survived.

 

[Amo]

Sounds like your an MYP/IB-er. It definitely makes it tough socially, but I think you can do it.

 

[novaknight]

Sounds like your an MYP/IB-er. It definitely makes it tough socially, but I think you can do it.

The OP? Or me? I've never took any IBs but took a lotta honors classes. Some were a good experience....while lets just say some are miserable.

 

[BlondTwinNr2]

IB is to me, an intense program, but enough about that.

Today, Friday the 06, 2011. Night before my 18th birthday.

Spent the last two day stressing school work, nothing really interesting happend, very similar to my previous journal entree. Tonight my mate are arriving any second. these guys are amazing, sadly some are out of the country and not everyone can make it.

Starting off in 30min. Update later. My closest friend is arriving soon. Got this 22 year old waiting for me at a friends house... but tonight i'd rather not get her involved; will tell her where im going. She's dieing to meet me.

friend has arrived. update later.

3 Shots of Jeager, and 2 malibou pineapple. Thats my shot count for tonight.

Enjoy your friday nights DJ.s

BT2.

 

[YoYoRocks]

IB is to me, an intense program, but enough about that.

Today, Friday the 06, 2011. Night before my 18th birthday.

Spent the last two day stressing school work, nothing really interesting happend, very similar to my previous journal entree. Tonight my mate are arriving any second. these guys are amazing, sadly some are out of the country and not everyone can make it.

Starting off in 30min. Update later. My closest friend is arriving soon. Got this 22 year old waiting for me at a friends house... but tonight i'd rather not get her involved; will tell her where im going. She's dieing to meet me.

friend has arrived. update later.

3 Shots of Jeager, and 2 malibou pineapple. Thats my shot count for tonight.

Enjoy your friday nights DJ.s

BT2.

Happy birthday bro

 

[Pozitron]

yeah... Happy birthday !!!