Dammit cam, really great job! Even though I have a thing against alcohol, it definitely does come in handy at times haha
Well, been awhile since I last posted. WEEKEND WAS BUSY. Really trying to do a ton all at once and it's not going bad I'll say.
Friday [3|13|09] - was hyped up all day about starting the bootcamp! I read the first 2 articles and took a break to do some miscellaneous stuff then got back to reading the rest before the day ends. I worked out (yes!) and I'm really starting to feel my body shifting into that healthy state.
Saturday [3|14|09] - BODY SORE AS HELL, it's been a damn long time since I've worked out and I can really feel the burn. Everyday in my dazed out moments and I think of philosophical things (i.e. life, death, human nature, etc.) and I really forgot by now but it was a pretty nice thought... if I can only remember! Anyhow, didn't do much but rest at home. I did go to my gym for a little swim practice though. Definitely saw 4+ HBs that were to drool for! Too bad I am myopic and couldn't really focus in on looking at them (or even their eyes!) if I wanted to.
Sunday [3|15|09] - Really exciting day (it's the lord's day of course). Apart from rereading the bootcamp articles (which I actually skimmed) and revisiting the songs (I like Start Me UP) I had chores which included cleaning room and laundry, soooo... after an intensive room scrub-down, I was off to a laundromat! I went with my sister (glad I did) and even though I've never been to that particular laundromat, I tried to keep confidence and did exercise numero uno! Results weren't that memorable, but by the end of the day I got treated with yogurt (the awesome self-serve places, you know) and got to watch Watchmen (great movie, though going to watch with my dad and sister, especially dad, made the whole sex scenes uncomfortably hilarious).
Monday [3|16|09] - Now, I was set to end my week (on Sunday) with a big bang of stares and hellos, but that plan fell over so I was determined to transfer it to today! Woke up feeling great (I had beef broccoli and eggs, simply superb) and really pumped myself up with songs that I love. First part of the day I played a game that I left off 3 days back (it's an h-game heh heh, but the whole subject got me more into participating in "the game"). All the while that this was going on, I had my thoughts on my workout for today (I workout M/W/F) and it really hit me. I need to work on abs HAH. So now I've incorporated a 16 week ab program into my workout along with muscle building... all I can say is life is golden.
At the gym, At first I was self-conscious about actually doing the exercises in the middle of packs of HUGE muscular men (who can really just breeze through what I'm capable of atm :[), but I held some confidence and in my red converse, I beasted through my ab workout and worked up a LOT of sweat (been a long time since I've sweated this much and it felt great). During the whole time I searched for eyes to smile at but most of the men don't look back. THERE WAS ONE GUY THOUGH. I looked at him, he looked at me and out of no where, he bowed his head a little and greeted me. THIS CAUGHT ME WAAAAY OFF GUARD. All I could muster was a return head bow and I walked off (definitely shocked).
Anyhow, the gym I really kept the work out basics in mind and did a great job in my standards. Mistakes I've learned are: 1. not only do I have to focus on working out in a gym setting, but focus on social interactions as well... otherwise, it's redundant to have a public gym membership! (I go to 24, great place) 2. speak with conviction and confidence. A very nice (hawt, I'd say) desk worker greeted me and even farewelled me, but both times I responded with WEAK tonality
With lessons learned, I head home to carb up and take a relaxing shower (those very warm soothing one, like a sauna or jacuzzi even). NOW THIS IS THE POINT WHERE I MUST, MUST DO MY HOMEWORK (I actually preferred to call this fieldwork with a acronym like FW, you know lol, but the bootcamp says it's hw so HW it is!). I got fancied up (black graphic T, fitting jeans, plain belt with a nice buckle, a hoodie from forever 21... yea they sell men clothes now) and I road on down to the nearby mall! Monday nights are the worst times to go to the mall in search of people... It was practically deserted with mostly families strolling around. I can't help but notice maybe 10... no TWENTY families/couples just walking around the place. Luckily, there's a Walmart attached to this mall and there's ALWAYS people in there, even singles :].
This is where my night shined. Many people walked pass me and I looked every single one of them in the eye. Most, of course, looked away which dissatisfied me :[. It was not until I was at the check out (I bought some stuff including handycam disks, toothpaste, toothbrush, towel...) and had a conversation with the person behind me! He was a married man (I assumed,
since there was a lady next to him) and he was asking about the disks. Let's see...
Man: Hey, are those the CDs you use for a camera recorder?
Shaik: (caught a little off guard, but I had a moment of thought and...) Yes, they are. (I then turn back to the cashier scanning my items)
Man: Hey, blah blah blah (he wanted to know how much they cost, how many disks you get, how much they hold, etc.)
Shaik: Blah blah blah (I answered very clearly, my tonality was rockin!)
He definitely held eye contact with me during this short time (which was a happy moment from this experiment and I NOTICED 1. his wife/GF/whatever was listening to us talk and 2!. an HB in the back of the checkout line was looking my way, haha!). Shortly after though, I get a phone call right there (social proof?!?) and BAM, it was my sister (loved her very much that moment). I kept my confident voice and it was just a convo about what she wanted me to buy at walmart. Now this is a semi-interesting part as where I thanked the cashier (while still on the phone) and headed off to buy my sis some shampoos. I walked with some swagger now (lol) and still searched for and kept eye contact to those looking at me and what not. Now as I entered the hair care aisle, I definitely noticed the women starting to become aware of my presence (no guys there, I mean... it's understandable hah). So after a long phone convo, I searched the tresemme products and IT TOTALLY HIT ME RIGHT THEN AND THERE. One of the women shifted from looking at one side of the aisle to standing right next to me (to my left) to browse at w/e the hell was there (I glanced at her while coming in... definitely nice and she's asian!). FVCK ME. I thought of so many things to open her up and bring her into some form of rapport (hey are you familiar with these hair products, do you know which one is good for a girl's hair, ETC) BUT GODDAMIT, I FAILED. I really disappointed myself :[. I ignored her IOI and kept trying to find a stupid shampoo/condition on my own. A BIG MISTAKE AND I TOTALLY REGRET!
But as I went to pay (again), the cashier started a convo with me (something along the lines of cash/credit but he, either purposely or by mistake, added in check and scrambled his speech around). The whole disappointment didn't settle in yet and this caught me off guard as well. I just said cash and the rest is blurry. I do remember going out and I looked at an older lady in the eye (sadly, not hawt heh) and gave her a smile... she smiled back. It was a good feeling to know I can make people smile at least.
Results: an hour inside walmart and I successfully completed a half portion of exercise 1 along with mistakes and experience regarding conversation and confidence. One regret: not talking to the asian hawty in the hair care section, NEVER AGAIN! (yes, I was disappointed on the ride home, but no, I did not let my day go to ruins
).
I now have the rest of today, tomorrow, and a portion of Thursday to finish up week one's bootcamp. Hopefully from what I learned, I will further my experience. Thanks for reading (if you so kindly did :]) and good luck to you out there!
