part 5

[1984]

It's all just ****ing fun and games to her.

I've never felt so ****ing stupid.

Tuesday night my roommate confronted me about how tense things have been. I spilled my guts, and got the speech. "I want to be your VERY good friend.".

So I called her out on her own behavior. Like why she keeps staring at me, and why she never stops flirting with me, or why she can never seem to let me the **** go! I think she started crying. It was too dark to tell.

Then she told me about how she comes into my room just to smell me. About how I'm "magnetic", and how she feeds off of my energy. How she feels a certain level of attraction. But ultimately she blamed her own insecurities on why we can never go past being "roommates" or just friends. She didn't seem to completely rule out something in the future, but the door was almost shut. Something about how she doesn't feel she can make me happy, or give me what I want.

So I tried letting go.

She reeled me back in.

At first it was just another night of staring and flirting, and her staying up late to talk to me about things I really couldn't care any less about when all I wanted to do was get some PS3 in before going to bed.

The next night she flirted with me so ****ing much I had a hard on. To make it worse she backed right into it. Then she went to bed.

Tonight she insisted on going out drinking with me. All night she spoke in sexual innuendos. I mean, she all but blatently told me we were gonna **** tonight. She even asked me why I didn't give her friend my phone number, and told me her friend thinks I'm hot.

When we got home she smoked another ****ing bowl, and pulled this "you will never get this" routine, then went to bed, practically ****ing laughing at me.

I have no idea what to do anymore. She won't ****ing stop!

 

[Entropy4]

This girl is low self-esteem and has emotional issues. She's using her sexual power and you to constantly validate herself.

You have to be disciplined man. Don't let her do it. Put your foot down and don't acknowledge her sexual advances. Don't be a ****. Don't ignore her. But don't flirt back. If she's touching you, move away. SHOW DISINTEREST.

This girl is pulling your strings because you've made yourself an easy target. Quit reacting to her and start acting on your own. She comes in an flirts with you? Tell her you're busy. She wants to talk about random **** when you're tired? Get up and leave.

And the best thing you can do is to bring another girl home and **** her. That'll fix things up real quick.

 

[1984]

You're absolutely right.

The only problem is she knows one of my "friends" wants to have sex with her. She told me that during a period where we weren't talking to one another in the past, she went out with him a few times. When he made advances on her she left and didn't hang out with him anymore, because she said she didn't want to be "that girl". "That girl" being the girl that goes around having sex with everybody within a circle of friends. Said she would have felt dirty.

If I start ignoring her, she might go to him for attention.

 

[Entropy4]

If I start ignoring her, she might go to him for attention.

Good. Then she'll be his problem.

Look, even you or your friend DO end up ****ing her, you're going to pay such a large price in drama, bull**** and nonsense that it's not worth it. It's good riddance. This girl has really ****ed with your head. Get her out of it as soon as possible. Try to meet another chick (preferrably one with high self esteem), and this will become 1/10th of the problem it used to be.

 

[1984]

Good. Then she'll be his problem.

Look, even you or your friend DO end up ****ing her, you're going to pay such a large price in drama, bull**** and nonsense that it's not worth it. It's good riddance. This girl has really ****ed with your head. Get her out of it as soon as possible. Try to meet another chick (preferrably one with high self esteem), and this will become 1/10th of the problem it used to be.

Yeah, but it would actually still piss me off.

I talked to my old landlord's daughter, and she said I've got first dibs on my last place. Seeing as how I have yet to sign the lease here, I might just move back there. I'd lose my security deposit of course, and piss off my other roommate (who's always been cool to me), but it might be what I need to do.