JackBauer24
Don Juan
- Joined
- Oct 29, 2007
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Some of you already know the story, but for those of you who don't, here's a quick recap: Girl lives down the street from me, used to be close friends with her at a young age, didn't see much of her in high school other than saying "hi" to each other in the halls. She was very pretty then, but she was going out with the same guy throughout high school, so I never really thought of her.
Fast-forward to a couple months ago, I find her on myspace, contact her, we make small talk, then I ask her to hang out. I get this long response back, saying how she's busy, but we go back too far for her to just blow me off and she'll let me know when she isn't as busy. Doesn't matter if she was "letting me down easy" or if she really meant it, I blew it by contacting her about a month ago and telling her that I hate myspace and the only reason I'm on it is to hear back from her and a few other people. Yeah, yeah, I know I f*cked up. So I message her today for the first time since then, and just ask how her Christmas was. She read it and didn't respond. Wasn't on for a long time, but I'm not expecting a message back, and I'm not expecting myself to get over her.
The funny thing is, she's put on some weight. She isn't fat but even my mom said "she's bigger than the girls you usually like." But I can't help it, I like her face that much. And it's not like she has guys lining up for her with her weight problem. I guess the reason I'm so upset is because I feel like I should be able to get her. But I have to face the fact that she isn't interested for whatever reason and isn't likely to go out and say it.
What I'm worried about is when I finally start talking to girls in person, meet someone as attractive to me as her or more attractive to me than her. I'm a one girl at a time kind of guy. It isn't about "playing the field" or being a man-wh*re. I can see myself getting really into a girl and setting myself up for a disappointment.
For now, I'm just not sure how to get over her. I've tried getting rid of myspace. I just keep making a new one.
Fast-forward to a couple months ago, I find her on myspace, contact her, we make small talk, then I ask her to hang out. I get this long response back, saying how she's busy, but we go back too far for her to just blow me off and she'll let me know when she isn't as busy. Doesn't matter if she was "letting me down easy" or if she really meant it, I blew it by contacting her about a month ago and telling her that I hate myspace and the only reason I'm on it is to hear back from her and a few other people. Yeah, yeah, I know I f*cked up. So I message her today for the first time since then, and just ask how her Christmas was. She read it and didn't respond. Wasn't on for a long time, but I'm not expecting a message back, and I'm not expecting myself to get over her.
The funny thing is, she's put on some weight. She isn't fat but even my mom said "she's bigger than the girls you usually like." But I can't help it, I like her face that much. And it's not like she has guys lining up for her with her weight problem. I guess the reason I'm so upset is because I feel like I should be able to get her. But I have to face the fact that she isn't interested for whatever reason and isn't likely to go out and say it.
What I'm worried about is when I finally start talking to girls in person, meet someone as attractive to me as her or more attractive to me than her. I'm a one girl at a time kind of guy. It isn't about "playing the field" or being a man-wh*re. I can see myself getting really into a girl and setting myself up for a disappointment.
For now, I'm just not sure how to get over her. I've tried getting rid of myspace. I just keep making a new one.