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Hey guys,
man it has been a long time since I've posted here. I've visited every once in a while just to see what things are like around here, but anyway, allow me to cut to the chase.
Part I
In the end, falling deeply in love and dealing with oneitis is the biggest measure of a true man's inner strength. It's easy to keep your self-esteem high and act like a player when you've got the hearts of multiple women in your pocket. What's tough is keeping your head level and adhering to your principles when that special someone who has a world of influence over your emotions is causing you heartache.
AFC's and normal guys act like chumps under oneitis because they let the emotions they feel control them. A true man with enough inner strength will not succumb to those feelings.
Part II
It's been a little while now since I began to digress from the DJ way of thinking prevalent here on SS. I no longer believe in "game". The thought of behaving in a certain way in order to capitalize on the attraction of women is beyond me now. I now believe in total, inner honesty, with that honesty allowing one to be completely open and honest with others, in turn attracting the women who are compatible with the traits they exude. In other words, people just "connect". You could say I've become an absolute proponent of "inner game".
I'm in my freshman year of college, but it's like I'm a completely different person than I was one year ago, and even more change has taken place than the growth I experienced throughout my high school FR thread.
In high school, I was known as the kid who was smart but lazy as fwck. I had no idea what I wanted to do in life.
Oh, how things are different now.
None of the following things I am about to share are to brag or boost my self-esteem in any way. I'd have no reason to do that. Rather, it's to illustrate just who I've become and how I've changed:
I know exactly what I want to do with my entire life. I will graduate college in 3 years, with a dual degree, three minors, and a certificate in entrepreneurial studies. I'm currently taking 24 credit hours in order to do this (taking 12 hours qualifies you as a full-time student). I'm a scholarship athlete who's starting freshman year. I study on the way to practice, on the way back from practice, on the way to competitions, during the 15 minutes I have between classes, and every weekend night while everyone I know is hanging out or getting wasted. I'm not deficient socially though; I can honestly and objectively say that I'm one of the most popular guys on the team. I chat easily with anyone in my classes and would be making friends with a lot of them if I only had time to hang out. I'm a member of student government, I cook all of my meals, I eat insanely healthy, I workout four times a week, sometimes in the morning before classes, I do yoga four times a week, I make sure I sleep 9 hours every night, I volunteer every weekend, I donate platelets every weekend, and I have an online job as an independent contractor. As my roommate said, I don't do anything except study, practice, work out, do yoga, eat, and sleep. Every day I feel the pain of depriving myself of leisure, comfort, and physical needs. Every night I go to bed completely exhausted, but every morning I wake up ready to fight another day. Every time I question why I suffer all of these sacrifices, and I tell myself that this is what I chose. Every day I push myself because I have a mission.
I fwcked up the first 18 years of my life. I was smart but d!cked around in school. I was talented in my sport but wasted time playing video games instead of training. People liked me but I was too much of a pu$$y obsessed with popularity that I failed to make great friendships with people in high school. There were a few, really great girls who were into me but I was so much of a cwnt that I pushed all of them away by being a huge pu$$.
The weakness of my past may drive me, but I am not motivated by pain. I will attend a top medical school after graduating here and become a neurosurgeon. I will save lives and make half a million a year in a high-pressure job that takes huge amounts of guts on a daily basis. I will live frugally and invest my money. Once I have a significant amount, I will start by recognizing those who have been important to me--my coaches and my friends. I will start businesses. I will open and operate in my own hospital. I will keep investing until I have the financial power to make an impact on the world and help those in needs. I will do everything I can to preserve the beauty of humanity--all of those incredible connections we call human relationships, I will dedicate myself to ensuring that everyone else will be able to enjoy those good times with people close to them, without violence, hunger, and child abuse scarring lives from the beginning. I might go into politics later on.
In short, the power to change the world is what I want the most.
I am nothing. The impact I have may be something. When I feel weak, I think of a person I genuinely hate and ask myself if I would die for him. If the answer is no, then my heart is not in the right place.
When I talk to someone, I picture myself in their shoes and really try to understand them. I believe there's a little bit of something in everyone, and the battle between good and evil is within, with evil being weakness, and good being strength. I believe everyone is the same on the innermost level, with predispositions, environmental factors and personal experiences causing variations in tendencies and behavior.
You could say I'm under oneitis right now. There's a girl who means the world to me emotionally, who could control my feelings on a whim. But I can't let anything get in the way of my visions, not even her. I hardly ever see her, maybe less than once a week. I would give up seeing her forever without hesitation if it were necessary for my goals. It would tear me apart emotionally, but what I need to do relies on rational decision-making, which needs to take place free of emotion. When I think of my goals and this girl, I don't think about her. I don't do what I do because of her. I do what I do so that people like her, and people like me, will have better lives. It doesn't matter to me that all of the other people in the world are strangers to me; we are all the same on the deepest level, so I want to fight for the right of everyone to be able to share those beautiful human relationships, of all kinds.
Call me crazy, call me a foolish idealist. It seems like all of the grown-ups I know have been left jaded and cynical by the "real world" out there. I will not slip into despair. I believe in the inner strength present within everyone.
Is it worth sacrificing or straining my own personal relationships in order to protect everyone else's? Maybe, yes.
Thank you SS, because you have been a catalyst in a previous stage of my development to become who I am now. Regardless of whether or not I believe in "game", I can't deny the fact that you made me understand how the female mind works, and some important truths about male-female dynamics.
When I talk to girls now, I'm not thinking about "gaming" them. I truly try to connect with them on a person-to-person level, and if I am attracted, I make sure to express my interest and follow up. Those who are interested will reciprocate, and those who are less interested will not be as willing. It has nothing to do with the best "method". I know I'm a real man now, and it's like this newfound instinct I have is guiding me and telling me what to do. I appreciate everyone and every moment I spend with anyone.
The girl I am now smitten with was from the high school days. I called her "Mel K" in my ol' high school FR thread. She was interested in me, I was too much of a b!tch to reciprocate interest, she got sick of waiting around. When I first kissed her a few weeks ago, words gushed out of my mouth before I had a chance to think: "This is something I regret from high school." Her reply was just as quick: "You should." The rest of that day involved some of the saddest emotions I have felt. All of the times we could have had together, if only I weren't such a useless piece of sh!t back then. I should have been happy, delighted to kiss a girl I was crazy about, but instead I was borderline depressed for about two days.
Thank you SS. Goodbye. If I return, it will not be to seek advise. It will be to help others.
man it has been a long time since I've posted here. I've visited every once in a while just to see what things are like around here, but anyway, allow me to cut to the chase.
Part I
In the end, falling deeply in love and dealing with oneitis is the biggest measure of a true man's inner strength. It's easy to keep your self-esteem high and act like a player when you've got the hearts of multiple women in your pocket. What's tough is keeping your head level and adhering to your principles when that special someone who has a world of influence over your emotions is causing you heartache.
AFC's and normal guys act like chumps under oneitis because they let the emotions they feel control them. A true man with enough inner strength will not succumb to those feelings.
Part II
It's been a little while now since I began to digress from the DJ way of thinking prevalent here on SS. I no longer believe in "game". The thought of behaving in a certain way in order to capitalize on the attraction of women is beyond me now. I now believe in total, inner honesty, with that honesty allowing one to be completely open and honest with others, in turn attracting the women who are compatible with the traits they exude. In other words, people just "connect". You could say I've become an absolute proponent of "inner game".
I'm in my freshman year of college, but it's like I'm a completely different person than I was one year ago, and even more change has taken place than the growth I experienced throughout my high school FR thread.
In high school, I was known as the kid who was smart but lazy as fwck. I had no idea what I wanted to do in life.
Oh, how things are different now.
None of the following things I am about to share are to brag or boost my self-esteem in any way. I'd have no reason to do that. Rather, it's to illustrate just who I've become and how I've changed:
I know exactly what I want to do with my entire life. I will graduate college in 3 years, with a dual degree, three minors, and a certificate in entrepreneurial studies. I'm currently taking 24 credit hours in order to do this (taking 12 hours qualifies you as a full-time student). I'm a scholarship athlete who's starting freshman year. I study on the way to practice, on the way back from practice, on the way to competitions, during the 15 minutes I have between classes, and every weekend night while everyone I know is hanging out or getting wasted. I'm not deficient socially though; I can honestly and objectively say that I'm one of the most popular guys on the team. I chat easily with anyone in my classes and would be making friends with a lot of them if I only had time to hang out. I'm a member of student government, I cook all of my meals, I eat insanely healthy, I workout four times a week, sometimes in the morning before classes, I do yoga four times a week, I make sure I sleep 9 hours every night, I volunteer every weekend, I donate platelets every weekend, and I have an online job as an independent contractor. As my roommate said, I don't do anything except study, practice, work out, do yoga, eat, and sleep. Every day I feel the pain of depriving myself of leisure, comfort, and physical needs. Every night I go to bed completely exhausted, but every morning I wake up ready to fight another day. Every time I question why I suffer all of these sacrifices, and I tell myself that this is what I chose. Every day I push myself because I have a mission.
I fwcked up the first 18 years of my life. I was smart but d!cked around in school. I was talented in my sport but wasted time playing video games instead of training. People liked me but I was too much of a pu$$y obsessed with popularity that I failed to make great friendships with people in high school. There were a few, really great girls who were into me but I was so much of a cwnt that I pushed all of them away by being a huge pu$$.
The weakness of my past may drive me, but I am not motivated by pain. I will attend a top medical school after graduating here and become a neurosurgeon. I will save lives and make half a million a year in a high-pressure job that takes huge amounts of guts on a daily basis. I will live frugally and invest my money. Once I have a significant amount, I will start by recognizing those who have been important to me--my coaches and my friends. I will start businesses. I will open and operate in my own hospital. I will keep investing until I have the financial power to make an impact on the world and help those in needs. I will do everything I can to preserve the beauty of humanity--all of those incredible connections we call human relationships, I will dedicate myself to ensuring that everyone else will be able to enjoy those good times with people close to them, without violence, hunger, and child abuse scarring lives from the beginning. I might go into politics later on.
In short, the power to change the world is what I want the most.
I am nothing. The impact I have may be something. When I feel weak, I think of a person I genuinely hate and ask myself if I would die for him. If the answer is no, then my heart is not in the right place.
When I talk to someone, I picture myself in their shoes and really try to understand them. I believe there's a little bit of something in everyone, and the battle between good and evil is within, with evil being weakness, and good being strength. I believe everyone is the same on the innermost level, with predispositions, environmental factors and personal experiences causing variations in tendencies and behavior.
You could say I'm under oneitis right now. There's a girl who means the world to me emotionally, who could control my feelings on a whim. But I can't let anything get in the way of my visions, not even her. I hardly ever see her, maybe less than once a week. I would give up seeing her forever without hesitation if it were necessary for my goals. It would tear me apart emotionally, but what I need to do relies on rational decision-making, which needs to take place free of emotion. When I think of my goals and this girl, I don't think about her. I don't do what I do because of her. I do what I do so that people like her, and people like me, will have better lives. It doesn't matter to me that all of the other people in the world are strangers to me; we are all the same on the deepest level, so I want to fight for the right of everyone to be able to share those beautiful human relationships, of all kinds.
Call me crazy, call me a foolish idealist. It seems like all of the grown-ups I know have been left jaded and cynical by the "real world" out there. I will not slip into despair. I believe in the inner strength present within everyone.
Is it worth sacrificing or straining my own personal relationships in order to protect everyone else's? Maybe, yes.
Thank you SS, because you have been a catalyst in a previous stage of my development to become who I am now. Regardless of whether or not I believe in "game", I can't deny the fact that you made me understand how the female mind works, and some important truths about male-female dynamics.
When I talk to girls now, I'm not thinking about "gaming" them. I truly try to connect with them on a person-to-person level, and if I am attracted, I make sure to express my interest and follow up. Those who are interested will reciprocate, and those who are less interested will not be as willing. It has nothing to do with the best "method". I know I'm a real man now, and it's like this newfound instinct I have is guiding me and telling me what to do. I appreciate everyone and every moment I spend with anyone.
The girl I am now smitten with was from the high school days. I called her "Mel K" in my ol' high school FR thread. She was interested in me, I was too much of a b!tch to reciprocate interest, she got sick of waiting around. When I first kissed her a few weeks ago, words gushed out of my mouth before I had a chance to think: "This is something I regret from high school." Her reply was just as quick: "You should." The rest of that day involved some of the saddest emotions I have felt. All of the times we could have had together, if only I weren't such a useless piece of sh!t back then. I should have been happy, delighted to kiss a girl I was crazy about, but instead I was borderline depressed for about two days.
Thank you SS. Goodbye. If I return, it will not be to seek advise. It will be to help others.
