OK...I believe. I am DJ. I take what I want...now what do I want???

[squirrels]

Over the last week or two, I've really started to "feel" the "Don Juan" attitudes we all discuss. I've started to take responsibility for defining my role in the universe. I've learned to answer only to myself. I've started to take control of my feelings, and I've started to take what I want without apology or excuse.

The only thing is....I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT.

I feel like I'm finally in control of my emotions, but somehow I don't have any emotions left. I take what I want, but I really don't want anything.

I see women out at places that I go, and I say to myself, "She is beautiful, she is a sexual being, and I know that I should be attracted to her." But I still don't get her. Because I don't FEEL ANY SEXUAL AROUSAL in her presence.

Same with my hobbies. I modify my car with performance parts to make it go faster, and I feel that I want to go faster, but I don't FEEL ANY PASSION for speed. When I go climbing, I know that I want to get better and progress to harder climbs, and I know that I should put energy into completing these climbs, but I DON'T FEEL DRIVEN to go the extra distance.

Does anyone else ever feel like this? I think I've finally shed that shell I built around my ego and I'm in control of my spirit. Before I was a king with a cause, but without an army. Now I'm a king and an army without a cause. I am a DJ with no passion for women.

Does anyone else ever lose their desire, their passion, or their lust for life and for things like women? How do you cope?

I've got a vacation coming up in a few days. What should I do? Where should I go? I know I still have these desires and now that I feel I can control them, I want to feel them again. I want them to be stronger. How do I find these feelings again within myself? I feel like I hid from them for so long because I wasn't strong enough to control them, and now that I've become strong enough to control and wield my passions and my desires and my emotions, they've all left me.

A word of advice? Not that I expect any ground-breaking Pook-ism or other word of wisdom to help me re-find my passions. Just someone tell me that they've been through this.

 

[Dee-Zy]

That's my problem right now.

I don't get attracted to enough girls. they have to be like for me to actually spend time on em...

Bad bad bad - I'm try'N to change my whole approach on things. If u find an answer - share it with me.

 

[iqqi]

At times our own light goes out and is rekindled by a spark from another person... -Albert S.

Can't remember all of it, but yeah...

 

[2N Turbo]

Yeah I hear ya. I felt that way for a while. It was like I was drifting through, day to day. I mean, things were good. I didnt have anything to complain about, but then again I didnt really have anything to look forward too.

I guess you just got to take a step back and look at your situation. And you see that there is always room for improvement for anything. Example, I could improve myself by lifting weights, reading, learning a new skill (I always wanted learn how to weld), etc.

Things will come up and doors will open, but why sit around and wait for them. So start thinking positive. Share that badass life you have with some girls, yes more than one at a time.

 

[squirrels]

You know...I think I took the whole "elimination of desire" thing too far. That instead of taking control of my desires by strengthening my will, I did it by weakening my desires. So now, I'm "in control of my testosterone," as Pook would say, but I don't have as much testosterone to control.

It's like to conquer my out-of-control desire for women and sex, I actually put out that fire. If you had asked me 6 months ago about certain women, I could close my eyes and just see and touch them...get turned on about them. I think the way I chose to apply the "DJ attitude," combined with too much inter-porn, just kind of desensitized me to women. Maybe I just need to get laid to remember what it is I'm missing...but that's kind of a paradox in and of itself.

It's like if you were to ask me the question, "What drives you? What is it you WANT?" I can answer it, but I'm answering it from my mind, not from down in my gut where my REAL desires are. I need to raise the bar again. Now that I've found some kind of balance, I need to re-weight the scale on all sides.

LOL, sitting here and typing metaphors is getting me nowhere, I know that. I have to go to work. If anyone wants to chime in with experiences like this and/or how they got over them, feel free.