Long story short: oneitis. Add my self improvement and long absence and all of a sudden a new sense of attraction from her. We got close; really close but there was always something. At the end of the day, I think she just enjoyed my attention.
So out tonight for a large social gathering, I play it cool and thank god for going back over The Bible. I am the life of the party, I do everything. By the end of it though I have her beckoning me over and so it was game on.
Then a male friend came past and she started chatting to him. I was completely ignored (sh*t test?). I played fair, hung around for a bit just to make sure the guy (a friend of mine) didn't feel nothing. But then I thought f*ck it. I walked away. I started flirting with every woman at the gathering and number closed a couple disappearing away holding hands with a few. Had I followed through and hit the town, I would have a lay report by this morning (I never realized it was this easy!) but a drunk friend needed a ride home early so being a good guy, I copped it. What a change. She ignored me for the rest of the night; full blown cold shoulder. When I caught her as she left after an early night, it looked like she was in tears. I mean she flirted with other guys too no? Her friends quizzed me after. I was indifferent and told them I won't wait for anyone.
So here I am in bed alone. But guess what, I feel damn good. I think it is one of the articles I read recently that got me through tonight and put simply; self respect. I from this day forth refuse to be some lapdog to ANYONE.
Should I have done anything differently?
So out tonight for a large social gathering, I play it cool and thank god for going back over The Bible. I am the life of the party, I do everything. By the end of it though I have her beckoning me over and so it was game on.
Then a male friend came past and she started chatting to him. I was completely ignored (sh*t test?). I played fair, hung around for a bit just to make sure the guy (a friend of mine) didn't feel nothing. But then I thought f*ck it. I walked away. I started flirting with every woman at the gathering and number closed a couple disappearing away holding hands with a few. Had I followed through and hit the town, I would have a lay report by this morning (I never realized it was this easy!) but a drunk friend needed a ride home early so being a good guy, I copped it. What a change. She ignored me for the rest of the night; full blown cold shoulder. When I caught her as she left after an early night, it looked like she was in tears. I mean she flirted with other guys too no? Her friends quizzed me after. I was indifferent and told them I won't wait for anyone.
So here I am in bed alone. But guess what, I feel damn good. I think it is one of the articles I read recently that got me through tonight and put simply; self respect. I from this day forth refuse to be some lapdog to ANYONE.
Should I have done anything differently?