Maybe I got a bit weird

[englishman]

Im not sure whats going on for me. For all I learned about being a DJ I don't seem to take much action nowadays... realistically not for a while.

I asked myself why and I'm not 100% sure.....

Im getting older, not digging women my age so much, pursuing the younger ones sporadically, not really getting far.

I get the come on sometimes from women that Im not really interested in as Im thinking in my mind they're 5s or 6s and I find I jump into action when a 8+ comes my way.

Ive got in the habit of visiting the occasional lady of the night and Ive banged some that really weren't that young or for that matter so hot... but I still enjoyed fvcking em..I don't know how to get past it or just why Im this way at the moment.

If I did know I'd say its ermm....????? ..... Its easier this way! Maybe I'm a bit gun-shy nowadays.... I've had some heart breakers and broke some hearts, had chicks attack me and make up crazy bull sh1t stories about me.

Its almost like that.... I like the sex, I don't need the heart ache or the bullsh1t or to be a fool and have a women take half me sh1t through divorce, or end up having a baby etc... and I can't trust myself more than say 60% not to do either.

On the other hand its not something I feel good about either.... kinda think it probably looks a bit like Ive got Cliff Richard syndrome or something...

Any one else out there been that way and got over it?

 

[Outlaw_]

I haven't been there, but I would start working on the 5's & 6's that you have been turning down. Even a fatty is good for a BJ.

 

[Willard]

I was there a long time ago, my advice is to do major self improvement, go to the gym and read books like The 48 laws of power by Robert Greene, The Psychology of Achievement by Brian Tracy, I'm reading the 50th law right know by Robert Greene, it teaches you how to be fearless in any situation. Reading these books makes you realize you can accomplish anything you want and also makes you better with girls by making you a better man.