Aurora Demon
Senior Don Juan
This is one of the best posts I’ve ever read. Mostly pertains to going through a difficult time in your life. Originally written by Vision on Mystery’s second lounge. It was shared to me by Karea.
I have permission to post this.
Hey guys,
A lot of things have happened to me in the last few months that I’d really like to share with you. As some of you know, I decided a while ago that I wanted to be in a relationship. I met a girl that I idealized greatly and got to the point where I wasn’t really going out as much to pull and just wanted to kind of build things with this girl who I really liked.
I’ve had a lot of very interesting things happen to me while that was going on which maybe you won’t be able to relate to, and maybe this will be the right time in your path to experience this with me and learn something from it.
I was watching TV at a friend's apartment the other night. We were watching this show called "Taboo" where they go around the world and find taboo subjects and talk about them. This particular episode was talking about an African tribe where, in order to become a man, you have to go through a ceremony where you're cut with a razor blade a thousand times. Then, when they cut you, they put ash in your wounds to keep them raised. The pattern they make on you is very similar to crocodile skin.
And I was interested in this because that's their definition of becoming a man. What's significant about that is, after they're cut, they can't really do much of anything. They have to lay on the ground, motionless, for days. They pick them up once in a while to pull them outside to have the elders whip their wounds in order to put them through more pain and build a bond between them and their peers. But for the most part, they have to lay there... completely motionless and helpless, with no ability to change their external circumstances.
Basically, they have to let go while they're there.
They’re pulled from the worries of the world—their past, and their future. They’re taken into the moment and given the understanding that their lives are completely empty and meaningless. They give it fulfillment. They give it meaning. They're brought into the realization that any day could be their last and they’re shown that all the drama and bull**** of their day-to-day lives could easily be ended at any time.
They learn what truly doesn’t matter.
I’ve been able to connect and build bonds with people who travel more than with people who don’t. Other people build bonds with me from some of the things I say, but for the most part, I build my strongest bonds with those who have some extensive travel under their belt.
Right now, I live in a place where drama and bull**** are king. I meet people whose lives are based around image and their superficial accomplishments and acquisitions on a day-to-day basis. It’s a lot like LA here, but there aren't really any movie stars or actors and actresses. It’s a place where, for their 18th birthdays, parents will buy their little girls breast implants as a social norm. If you don’t have a tit job when you’re 18, you’re not "hip" (God, I love this country).
Guys walk around making $30K a year, up to their eyes in debt, and buy luxury sports cars. If you want superficial, I know where you should go.
So, when I find someone I really connect with naturally and genuinely (from my side), I look at why I’m connecting with them. People who experience what it is to not have anything, to not know where their meal comes from, to not know where they’re going to sleep the next night but who can be completely secure in themselves and understand that it’s just a temporary setback that’s building and developing them as a person, seem to be a lot more “down to earth”... or free.
And it’s amazing that there are more areas than I’ve really known about in this field. Up until about 2 months ago, I was receiving validation from what I did (and I probably still do to some extent). I had some of the craziest mood swings, from being high on life to wanting to shoot myself in the head... and it was all based on my external circumstances.
I was dating this girl who was beautiful— a model, really fun and cool, intelligent, and a whole bunch of other things that I was looking for in a girl. She also happened to be really good at playing the game. And I noticed my emotions being messed with constantly due to my dependence on validation from who I was dating and how the relationship was going.
I felt like I needed her to feel like I was a genuine and worthwhile person. I’ve been in the game for years now and wasn’t that what this was really about?
And the short answer is... it’s not. I was in a bad relationship. I was in a bad financial situation. I was in a bad everything. Things in my life a few months ago seemed to be going from bad to worse.
When Priest was staying at my place here, I was moving downward into a horrible state. I was in a bad place. And it was like, all of a sudden, I flipped a light switch. I went from being stressed, exhausted, angry, sad, and frustrated to being one with myself and understanding that what I'm really worried about... doesn’t really matter. I became free.
I mean honestly, nothing that I wear or that I drive or say or the girls I meet or the friends I have... none of that defines my worth as a human being. None of that determines my success in life. I’m on this earth for more than that. I’m on this earth for a higher purpose. And everything that happens to me was destined to happen to me to build me into the awesome person that I am today and will be in the future.
Dwelling on the problem that I have right now will only hold me back. I can understand that where I am isn’t where I should be... but there’s no reason I need to be emotionally drained because of it. I always know what I need to do. I just have to do it. There’s no reason to put myself through a rollercoaster of emotions based on my external environment. Things always change.
What you need to do is figure out where you're going, direct yourself there, and then live in the moment and experience what's going on in your life so that you can be fulfilled. You should be excited because you have a world of new experiences laid out in front of you. I wouldn’t rather live at any other time or in any other place than right here and now. I love everything about this world and all the ups and downs of my day-to-day, month-to-month, and year-to-year life. And I’m empowered.
If you want to know what power is...
It’s being in complete and total control of yourself. Power is realizing letting go... Power is being free from the emotional bond of superficial accomplishments and external achievements. Power is being able to love yourself unconditionally and being free from outcomes.
In the last couple of months, I’ve found a new passion for life and my world, and nothing could possibly be as attractive to women. Nothing could be as attractive to other people looking for their way.
If you want to really understand what power is... let go. Free yourself from your past and your future and give yourself to the moment. Be with yourself right now and experience your life. Be centered in your own life and let go of your judgments just for the moment and find out what it is to just be.
Set your destination and then just do it.
You’re intelligent. You’ve lived this long and already accomplished a lot with your life. You know what you need to do and where you need to go. Take yourself there.
-Vision
I have permission to post this.
Hey guys,
A lot of things have happened to me in the last few months that I’d really like to share with you. As some of you know, I decided a while ago that I wanted to be in a relationship. I met a girl that I idealized greatly and got to the point where I wasn’t really going out as much to pull and just wanted to kind of build things with this girl who I really liked.
I’ve had a lot of very interesting things happen to me while that was going on which maybe you won’t be able to relate to, and maybe this will be the right time in your path to experience this with me and learn something from it.
I was watching TV at a friend's apartment the other night. We were watching this show called "Taboo" where they go around the world and find taboo subjects and talk about them. This particular episode was talking about an African tribe where, in order to become a man, you have to go through a ceremony where you're cut with a razor blade a thousand times. Then, when they cut you, they put ash in your wounds to keep them raised. The pattern they make on you is very similar to crocodile skin.
And I was interested in this because that's their definition of becoming a man. What's significant about that is, after they're cut, they can't really do much of anything. They have to lay on the ground, motionless, for days. They pick them up once in a while to pull them outside to have the elders whip their wounds in order to put them through more pain and build a bond between them and their peers. But for the most part, they have to lay there... completely motionless and helpless, with no ability to change their external circumstances.
Basically, they have to let go while they're there.
They’re pulled from the worries of the world—their past, and their future. They’re taken into the moment and given the understanding that their lives are completely empty and meaningless. They give it fulfillment. They give it meaning. They're brought into the realization that any day could be their last and they’re shown that all the drama and bull**** of their day-to-day lives could easily be ended at any time.
They learn what truly doesn’t matter.
I’ve been able to connect and build bonds with people who travel more than with people who don’t. Other people build bonds with me from some of the things I say, but for the most part, I build my strongest bonds with those who have some extensive travel under their belt.
Right now, I live in a place where drama and bull**** are king. I meet people whose lives are based around image and their superficial accomplishments and acquisitions on a day-to-day basis. It’s a lot like LA here, but there aren't really any movie stars or actors and actresses. It’s a place where, for their 18th birthdays, parents will buy their little girls breast implants as a social norm. If you don’t have a tit job when you’re 18, you’re not "hip" (God, I love this country).
Guys walk around making $30K a year, up to their eyes in debt, and buy luxury sports cars. If you want superficial, I know where you should go.
So, when I find someone I really connect with naturally and genuinely (from my side), I look at why I’m connecting with them. People who experience what it is to not have anything, to not know where their meal comes from, to not know where they’re going to sleep the next night but who can be completely secure in themselves and understand that it’s just a temporary setback that’s building and developing them as a person, seem to be a lot more “down to earth”... or free.
And it’s amazing that there are more areas than I’ve really known about in this field. Up until about 2 months ago, I was receiving validation from what I did (and I probably still do to some extent). I had some of the craziest mood swings, from being high on life to wanting to shoot myself in the head... and it was all based on my external circumstances.
I was dating this girl who was beautiful— a model, really fun and cool, intelligent, and a whole bunch of other things that I was looking for in a girl. She also happened to be really good at playing the game. And I noticed my emotions being messed with constantly due to my dependence on validation from who I was dating and how the relationship was going.
I felt like I needed her to feel like I was a genuine and worthwhile person. I’ve been in the game for years now and wasn’t that what this was really about?
And the short answer is... it’s not. I was in a bad relationship. I was in a bad financial situation. I was in a bad everything. Things in my life a few months ago seemed to be going from bad to worse.
When Priest was staying at my place here, I was moving downward into a horrible state. I was in a bad place. And it was like, all of a sudden, I flipped a light switch. I went from being stressed, exhausted, angry, sad, and frustrated to being one with myself and understanding that what I'm really worried about... doesn’t really matter. I became free.
I mean honestly, nothing that I wear or that I drive or say or the girls I meet or the friends I have... none of that defines my worth as a human being. None of that determines my success in life. I’m on this earth for more than that. I’m on this earth for a higher purpose. And everything that happens to me was destined to happen to me to build me into the awesome person that I am today and will be in the future.
Dwelling on the problem that I have right now will only hold me back. I can understand that where I am isn’t where I should be... but there’s no reason I need to be emotionally drained because of it. I always know what I need to do. I just have to do it. There’s no reason to put myself through a rollercoaster of emotions based on my external environment. Things always change.
What you need to do is figure out where you're going, direct yourself there, and then live in the moment and experience what's going on in your life so that you can be fulfilled. You should be excited because you have a world of new experiences laid out in front of you. I wouldn’t rather live at any other time or in any other place than right here and now. I love everything about this world and all the ups and downs of my day-to-day, month-to-month, and year-to-year life. And I’m empowered.
If you want to know what power is...
It’s being in complete and total control of yourself. Power is realizing letting go... Power is being free from the emotional bond of superficial accomplishments and external achievements. Power is being able to love yourself unconditionally and being free from outcomes.
In the last couple of months, I’ve found a new passion for life and my world, and nothing could possibly be as attractive to women. Nothing could be as attractive to other people looking for their way.
If you want to really understand what power is... let go. Free yourself from your past and your future and give yourself to the moment. Be with yourself right now and experience your life. Be centered in your own life and let go of your judgments just for the moment and find out what it is to just be.
Set your destination and then just do it.
You’re intelligent. You’ve lived this long and already accomplished a lot with your life. You know what you need to do and where you need to go. Take yourself there.
-Vision