FACEBOOK ! I never usually go on, and subconsciously I know the only reason I go on is to see what my ex (first GF, took v-card AND oneitis) is up to.
Anyway, I went on tonight randomly, and of course the first thing I see is a new profile pic she put up with like 15 comments. Initially, when I saw the pic my jaw dropped, she looked 10x better than when we went out. She lost weight, got a nice tan, and of course wore a low-cut shirt to show it off. Now I know as a real man I shouldn't be doing this to myself, I should move on, and I know this. It just kills me though to know that she's doing so much better without me (and rightfully so, since it was my first relationship and I didn't treat her as good as I should have). I know I have to man the fcuk up and I have gotten with a new girl, it just still gets to me. Plus in the pic she was wearing all black and it looked mega photo shopped, but it still hit me like a ton a bricks.
I'm not really looking for advice and I know what I have to do. This is just a rant I guess. I just have to live the best life I possibly can and not worry about her. I almost feel like I want to outdo her and when I see her down the road I want to be the one who she envies. It's really hard for me not to think like a sicko though, I picture her sucking other guys off at frat parties, and finding someone else, and every once in awhile I just want to get revenge and key her car, smash a brick through her windshield, just stupid sh!t like that. I know she's going to end up with someone else's d!ck in her mouth, it just pisses me off sometimes.
Ok, thanks guys.
Anyway, I went on tonight randomly, and of course the first thing I see is a new profile pic she put up with like 15 comments. Initially, when I saw the pic my jaw dropped, she looked 10x better than when we went out. She lost weight, got a nice tan, and of course wore a low-cut shirt to show it off. Now I know as a real man I shouldn't be doing this to myself, I should move on, and I know this. It just kills me though to know that she's doing so much better without me (and rightfully so, since it was my first relationship and I didn't treat her as good as I should have). I know I have to man the fcuk up and I have gotten with a new girl, it just still gets to me. Plus in the pic she was wearing all black and it looked mega photo shopped, but it still hit me like a ton a bricks.
I'm not really looking for advice and I know what I have to do. This is just a rant I guess. I just have to live the best life I possibly can and not worry about her. I almost feel like I want to outdo her and when I see her down the road I want to be the one who she envies. It's really hard for me not to think like a sicko though, I picture her sucking other guys off at frat parties, and finding someone else, and every once in awhile I just want to get revenge and key her car, smash a brick through her windshield, just stupid sh!t like that. I know she's going to end up with someone else's d!ck in her mouth, it just pisses me off sometimes.
Ok, thanks guys.