Im confident but still need help?

[SHAKEZULA09]

ive just finished highschool and I feel like I wasted 4 years of my life.
for some reason or another I didnt find the slutly girls attractive and avoided the ones who had their asses slaped by jerks because in my mind she had no respect for herself to just let guys do that stuff to her and remained firm in my actions I would try to find nice girls and doing this caused me to get no play no dates nothing. only LJBF ****t. I have no problem walking up to a girl and running my moth to her. but I think one of the problems is that my school is like all black and im not being racist im just telling the truth girls at that school dont like black guys who like rock music (only fat chicks,and if your fat I dont talk to you) and that more than anything turned them off. it got to the point where I just said in my mind **** it! im just going to work on my school work and hopefully a girl will notice me.

it got to the point where I couldnt even tell if a girl was attracted to me because I never experienced it before. one time me and one of my white friends went to an afi concert (a fire inside) and at the time i didnt know it and neither did he but we were being hit on by 2 hot mexican chicks and didnt even know it unitll they got tired of trying and left! how messed up is that! now in 2009 im about to go to columbia college (if i pass the bridge program.) I had a talk with my brother and our friends(who are jerks to girls) and to my horror found out how much ***** they were getting and I havent even had sex once! one time an australin chick gave me a bj in a hot tub when i was on christmas break, but she was way older than me and she got me drunk before hand so that dosent count in my eyes. I want a girl with a clear head to WANT to have sex with me. back to my friends after i told gave them an outline of the kind of girl I wanted they told me that I watch too many movies. they said I have a better chance finding a cure for aids then finding a girl like that. they said your all ready confident I just need to kill the nice guy in me and just and I quote

"just give these stupid *****es what they want... some big black ****."

at the time I found their advice to be silly and took it as a joke but now

I realize that doing things "my way" was going to turn me into a 40-year-old-virgin. I loved that movie but I NEVER want to be that guy. so before I finished my senior year i went to all of my friends of the opposite sex. that I will no longer be any of your friends and they didnt think I was serious but I have yet to talk to any of them. I went to columbia college open house and saw TONS of girls who LIKE guys who like rock music and it gave me a new world of confidence. I walked around the college and started talking to random girls. most of them said I looked "real young 4 your age." fuc if i know what that means. I am open to all the advice I can get from this site. it seems like the dudes on this site know what they are talking about. when it comes to the ladies. and despite what you see on tv not all black guys are good with the ladies in REAL LIFE. I think I am attractive I just need to go to a gym so I can get a 6 pack. another problem i have is that I dont have a nice/jerk guage Im either 2 nice or giveng my speach for ******* of the year. Im like **** I thought you wanted a jerk!:cuss:

ya know?

 

[Analyzeit]

Ok good to know and yeah this website does help, its a sh!tload of reading but it helps lol,

Yeah i had the same problem with the whole either being two nice or being to much of a jerk when i found this website, only way to fix this is practice, keep talking to them and you'll soon find out what to say and what not to say.

And one day someone will find a cure for aids (hopefully) and if you get up your game you'll find that girl hahaha

And yeah I know lol

Just make sure you stick to the bible, it won't fail you

 

[Exhumed]

That was stupid to ditch your female friends, they could have hooked you up with *****es! Which is much easier than cold approaches. I'd apologize and start talking to them again. There's nothing wrong with keeping your female friends when you start your transformation as long as you don't have one-itis and they legitimately value your friendship.

AFI rules btw. Even if they're weirdos...great music.

 

[SHAKEZULA09]

That was stupid to ditch your female friends, they could have hooked you up with *****es! Which is much easier than cold approaches. I'd apologize and start talking to them again. There's nothing wrong with keeping your female friends when you start your transformation as long as you don't have one-itis and they legitimately value your friendship.

AFI rules btw. Even if they're weirdos...great music.

the thing is I was only attracted to 1 of my female friends and hung out with her alot. I never told her I liked her ever. so after a while she started telling me about her boyfriends she was with and she dated around the school with lots of people I new and I started to like her less and less I figured my time with her was up so I just left and told her bye. she was the only girl I liked in the school but I just didnt like the new her I doubt she cares anyway.

the only date tactic i know is to take a girl to a concert there was this one girl who i didnt like but she was all over me. so I asked her out to a mindless self indulgence concert and she felt insulted because 1.msi is well fuuck music and she thought I didnt respect her. 2. she didnt want to pay even after I convinced her to go and tickes were like 70 bucks a pop! soo yeah i never saw her again either. I wanted to just sever the ties of everyone I ever knew in my old highschool so I can start new in college I got rid of friends I liked as well as didnt like it was all for the greater good.

 

[Exhumed]

70 bucks?? Are they really that popular? And um are you sure she liked you? Unless a girl was super religious...Why would asking a girl to a concert ever offend her? Either it was a lame excuse not to go or she's just a weirdo I think.

I mean...if all your friends walked all over you and didn't respect you I can see why you'd ditch them, but it doesn't appear to be the case...I keep in touch with the less attractive girls because I know they often have cute friends...you got rid of ALL of your friends, male too? WTF?

I suppose you did have racism and a reputation at your high school working against you...but it doesn't look like you have too many issues...go to college and get laid!

 

[SHAKEZULA09]

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[SHAKEZULA09]

we had a art class and she would constantlly start conversations with me. and ask if I was looking at her ass. I would say yes thinking it would make her happy. it made it worse she wouldnt leave me alone. she would find me in passing periods and hug me and tell me to talk to her. I didnt like her at all. I hated seeing her smile. I finaly fliped a penny I saw on the floor and asked her out to the msi show. it was 70 bucks because of bus,train,food,and msi for 2. I told her did you want to do something else but she seemed different and upset. like asking her to spend money was wrong. so I just left. never saw her again she was a but younger than me so I just assumed she was stupid and didnt know what she wanted. never saw her again. dont care.
there was a 3rd girl who i think liked me she came on to me almost the same way the other girl did. she was a 10 in my book. but never talked to her on a boyfriend level because most of her friends were guys that I hated and I thought and still do think that she was in some plot to just humilate me infront of the whole school. she seemed honest in here approach. she really seemed to like me and was real nice, but I couldnt risk It. something like that happned before I got in highschool and I will be damned if I let it happen again. I dont care if she was serious about being with me and rocked my world
I know I did the right thing. ive decided to change and ment it. so I got rid of all my friends made sure everyone in highschool forgot who i was. Im heading off to college soon. Im going to start working out at a gym. and I might even start acting in porn. one of my brothers white friends has "connections" with the amature porn industry and wants us to sign. he says it pays well and you can choose what kind of porn you do so we dont have to do any gay ****.:nono:
I dont realy want to do it I probaly will because I need money to help for college. college girls might like it if I tell them ive been in porn anyhow.