I’m a dlckhead!

[Al parsons]

I don’t know if I should be angry and disgusted at myself or the society. Here’s the story:

In the past few days I’ve been ‘dreaming’ about this girl who is few years younger than me. I thought she was a very beautiful and innocently nice girl who’d be gf material. I WAS WRONG. Here’s how I found out:

Tonight I was talking to my 18 year old brother and his best friend. While we were talking I asked if they knew Lily S.

they both smiled and said “yes! She went to our school”.

I asked them “what kind of girl is she? What’s her status?”

They said with a naughty smile on their faces “she’s alright, what do you mean by ‘her status’”.

I didn’t say anything, just returned to my friends thinking well she went to my bro’s school and my bro and his friend say she’s good.

Later on I returned to my brother and his friend and asked them again “what’s her status?”

They said “Al, just know that us two and our other best friend lost our virginity to her on the same night last year in your parents’ house!!”

I was shocked to hear this news. I’ve been visiting this forum for the past 2 months, I’ve read half of ‘The Rational Male’. I know that I need to be spinning plates and not invest in one girl and to be non-exclusive and other stuff I’m still a stranger with. I know I should have options and not be needy and all lovely dovely. I know I’m bloody 23 and I should not ‘dream’ about a girl who I don’t really know like 13 year old boys but there is still this ‘mothafvcking nice cvnt’ in my mind’.

In my mind I am this very nice guy whom everyone loves. For the past 23 years I’ve been ‘honoured’ and ‘pleased’ to be praised by my parents’ friends and my older relatives on how much of a nice guy I am. I want to say this to all of those cvnts:

“Fvck you whoever praised, encouraged, affirmed and validated the bloody nice guy within me. I am disgusted by the way you motherfvcking nice cvnts structured my personality or encouraged me to be nice guy. After all it’s you motherfvckers who benefited from having this nice dlckhead in your miserable lives and I have been the bloody cvnt who suffered years of loneliness and sexlessness for being too much of a nice guy. I a looking forward to a day when you fvckheads tell me “you have changed, fvck you”. That day will be my happy day”

I am just disgusted in a good way. I think my mind now knows how much of an idiot she is. I feel different now. I hope it is a sign of a paradigm shift. Pray for me brothers...

 

[MoreThanSmooth]

There was a sweet, pretty, quiet, shy, high-pitched, squeaky voiced "good girl" in my year at university. She would be shocked by the rudest jokes, would never talk about sex and would call people out for swearing.

Found out a year later that the whole thing was just her public persona. In private she was the most promiscuous person I've ever heard of and spent every other night getting railed by a different c*ck. She would get with a guy every night she went to a club and probably had every STI under the sun.

The sort of girl who would tell me off for "being rude" with a mild risque joke despite my being an innocent virgin with no sexual experience. And on the other hand she would shove a random guy's kn*b in her mouth the same night first chance she got. It's such an absurd hypocrisy I actually laugh thinking of it.

Lesson learned? People are hypocrites and frequently the facade they present as their personality is usually not who they really are. It's not hard to pretend to be someone, it IS hard to actually have those values.

Stop pretending to be a nice guy, be a decent guy because you WANT to be, and realise everyone else (including the "sweet girls") aren't the f*cking saints they like to pretend they are. They probably have far more vices than you do.

 

[zekko]

Found out a year later that the whole thing was just her public persona. In private she was the most promiscuous person I've ever heard of and spent every other night getting railed by a different c*ck. She would get with a guy every night she went to a club and probably had every STI under the sun.

If she was really a good girl, she probably wouldn't be hanging out at clubs.

 

[Bible_Belt]

Stop expecting women to be innocent little virgins, and you won't have these problems.

 

[Al parsons]

There was a sweet, pretty, quiet, shy, high-pitched, squeaky voiced "good girl" in my year at university. She would be shocked by the rudest jokes, would never talk about sex and would call people out for swearing.

Found out a year later that the whole thing was just her public persona. In private she was the most promiscuous person I've ever heard of and spent every other night getting railed by a different c*ck. She would get with a guy every night she went to a club and probably had every STI under the sun.

The sort of girl who would tell me off for "being rude" with a mild risque joke despite my being an innocent virgin with no sexual experience. And on the other hand she would shove a random guy's kn*b in her mouth the same night first chance she got. It's such an absurd hypocrisy I actually laugh thinking of it.

Lesson learned? People are hypocrites and frequently the facade they present as their personality is usually not who they really are. It's not hard to pretend to be someone, it IS hard to actually have those values.

Stop pretending to be a nice guy, be a decent guy because you WANT to be, and realise everyone else (including the "sweet girls") aren't the f*cking saints they like to pretend they are. They probably have far more vices than you do.

This mindset actually helps me get over my neediness and the ‘wound which is on my heart from the time my ‘gf’ left me’ ( *Vomit*)
After all she wasn’t that innocent girl whom I dated and I now know that.
23 years and I spent it looking up to people thinking they are saints....regret...

 

[MoreThanSmooth]

If she was really a good girl, she probably wouldn't be hanging out at clubs.

Yeah, exactly. I was only 19 at the time and knew nothing of women, ridiculously naive.

Not that I'm saying women shouldn't be able to f*ck who they want or hang at clubs, it just irks me when they put on this innocent act when they're more promiscuous than literally everyone else around them.

If I was bending girls over every week, I wouldn't be walking around like butter didn't melt in my mouth, telling people off for rude jokes and implying I haven't kissed a girl before. It's weird that they even do it.