Got A Girlfriend - Longing For More

[JT7890]

I wanted to see if any of you guys could relate. I have a girl that is really in love with me, she's young (18) but from a looks standpoint she's pretty hot. If I posted a pic of her on here I'm quite sure you guys would agree.

It's just, idk, I keep this picture of a particular girl in my head and no girl seems to meet this "dream girl."

I just see this girl as of course physically sexy, but it's just other things like being there for me, and the way she would talk to me and do other things to make me feel good, idk it's just that I can't find a chick that even resembles this dream girl.

The girl I'm with we have been having sex for a minute, of course I'm going to be with her all this weekend (we had sex earlier today) due to the Valentine's thing, but it's like I have to MAKE myself have sex with her. You know how you have to force yourself to do something when you would rather be somewhere else?

I just don't know what to do or even where to look. I know alot of the threads I post I notice that it's no answer for alot of the situations. I just want a girl that I'm really attracted to and that really fulfills me and I'm kind of scared she doesn't exist.

 

[JT7890]

To add, I'm not in anyway faithful to this girl yet I lie to her constantly about how faithful I am to her.

My entire life with women has mainly been sex based and nothing really soulful or relationship based. You know how you want to wake up and know that you got that "girl" on your arm that one that you are in love with, and that loves you, and it's real?

I'm talking about a girl you actually like, you love being with her, etc.?

I remember back in high school and my early college days when I was 18-20, I was getting a little tail back then but back then I was what you would call one of those "nice guys" or whatever.

But the funny shyt is, I actually LIKED women back then. I'm talking about when I would be out with a chick, I actually LIKED her and alot of them didn't want to have shyt to do with me lol.

Fast forward 4 years later, I'm now 24-today(27), and I have been literally sleeping with girl after girl to where I don't even LIKE women no more. I'm not talking about some gay shyt, but it's just, the pvssy is boring, the sex is boring, I'm SCARED to hell I'm going to get one of these chicks pregnant because to "spice" up the sex I find that I need to go raw sometimes (and I need to stop cause I got burned on New Years Eve).

I just want to like women again. I want to love them again. Idk. I'm rambling on I know but I guess I'm trying to get my thoughts out there to see if someone can relate and could potentially offer advice.

 

[sodbuster]

YOU sound like a woman in her 40's never been married because she's never found a guy she thought was good enough for her. Just remember,you aren't perfect either. Do you think that maybe she'd like a guy with more money? better looks? more muscles? I mean, there probably isn't a girl with the looks, intelligence, personality, etc to be my perfect woman[and if she is out there, she sure as hell won't date me]