That pretty much describes me, and I assume, you, though my father has never bothered to try and reconnect with me, but I'm still young, so...
I never and still do not give a crap that I don't have a father growing up. But I guess not having a male rolemodel in my life has made me into something very different then what I would've become..
Don't know where I was going with that.
Anyways I have that 100 personality problem thing you described above. I feel like most days, I don't even know or understand myself. I want one thing but at the same time want something the exact opposite.... Like I'll want someone to care for me, while at the same time wishing I could just be alone. Heh. If that's what your talking about....
What does a kid, or a man, do in this situation? Well. Man up. You don't really need a father, in fact maybe it's better you don't have one, is the way I figure, as your more free to form your own opinions and behaviors...even if they're negative.
What girls would want you? Well that's a dumb question. I guess if you were a depressed wreck most chicks would be hesitant to get involved with you. But still, even then a few would. But if your talking about what chick would want a fatherless man, well, that's just stupid. To prove it I even have a girlfriend at this time...