So I've found a recurring pattern with women I start getting feelings for. I'm pretty selective when it comes to taking a girl seriously and considering commitment, not just with looks but how well we connect and whether there are red flags that I pick up on or not.
This past month, I've been speaking with this girl (she's 21, I'm 25) and we've been getting on great. So great, to the point that for over a week, we were facetiming for hours into the early morning. I could tell she was growing feelings for me and I was for her as well, although I was a lot more reserved about it.
Daily, she would joke around telling me to admit I had feelings for her etc and it seemed like she really wanted me to come clean and just tell her, but I held out until she amitted it on her own first.
The last time we spoke was last thursday night, I didn't hear a word from her in 4 days. She didn't bother to even send me a snap or reply to the couple I sent to her. So Monday night I asked if everything was ok, and she gave me the typical "busy" bull**** excuse and I just told her that I know she's ghosting me and I want to know why..
She said she's scared of commitment and freaked out when she realised she did have feelings for me, and I basically told her that ghosting me and pressuring me to admit I have feelings only to cut me off is messed up. She didn't reply.. I've been NC since then, until tonight, she took a screenshot of our chat in snapchat, so I replied "?" and she ignored again..
I'm really ****ing pissed about this and I don't know whether that's even the right way for me to feel about it or if I should act on that anger or not. I'm so close to deleting her off everything social media, but I feel like that's such an easy let off for her.
I'm just fed up with this **** happening, girls leading me on and then dropping me without a moments notice like I'm disposable. I want to know how I can prevent this in the future and what my next move should be and why.. Because right now I just want to bury her, but at the same time I feel like that will make me look needy af
