dark.spirit
Don Juan
This website only gave me trouble...
Last year I wrote a few things on this forum and I end regreting it deeply...
I was interested in a girl and I wrote about it...
I know I could have asked advice to my father but I think his brain has the size of a wallnut...besides, Im not interested in having long conversations with him...(we dont get along very well ).
This was what happened to me: someone find out what I wrote on this forum and now almost all the town where I live knows about it
Im very popular on this bloody place because I used to run all the time and sometimes I get very nervous...
Its not easy to control this nervous energy and because
sometimes I cant do it they think Im crazy!
What went wrong is that she too find out the things I wrote and now she thinks Im a player...
To make things better I wrote a few stupid things about fighting and now sometimes it seems like some of them want to have a piece of you to see how good you are at fighting!
I know nothing about fighting...I only like martial arts and I read about it because I like art...and martial arts are an art in itself: an art expressed in movement, movement this that happens to be made with fighting moves
The other reason for my interest in martial arts is because guys stronger than me seem to have inclination to allways pick on me for no reason at all! I think they are all cowards... they only pick on me because Im skinny and smaller and they know Im not as strong as they are: It gives me no choice but to learn how to defend myself...I dont want to fight but I dont want to get beaten either...
If they are going to beat me up I have to be prepared to do something about it. I must defend myself...still I prefer to run away than to fight... fighting is for stupid people...
Now Im feeling humiliated, but deep inside I know that I deserve it: I wrote something about girls having no chance with me but the truth is that at the time I didnt even deserved a chance with them. And I think they were never interested on me.They were just being nice. Its truth that thei're not my type, but Im not thei're type either...(I was just trying to boost my own ego)
In the end I was the cause of everything bad that happened to me. Sometimes I still hear people making coments and laughing of me whenever I go! Even in the streets! I would like to hide myself in a hole for a long time...I wonder how long its going to take to the end off it...
And even worst... I think she is not interested...she looked hard at me once because I invade her personal space, forcing eye contact!
By coincidence they find out another thread that I wrote about it in other website, sometime ago...humiliating!
I always learn things the hard way...
IM VERY ANGRY WITH MYSELF !!!
I didnt want to came here anymore but I had to write this last thread:
I expect you have learnt something with my experience. Learning tricks are not the way to go.
The first word that I wrote was the beggining of a nightmare...
The last word is going to be the end of it...
PS: (I lost the girl...)
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Sometimes you have to go down...to go up...(Dark Paul)
Last year I wrote a few things on this forum and I end regreting it deeply...
I was interested in a girl and I wrote about it...
I know I could have asked advice to my father but I think his brain has the size of a wallnut...besides, Im not interested in having long conversations with him...(we dont get along very well ).
This was what happened to me: someone find out what I wrote on this forum and now almost all the town where I live knows about it
Im very popular on this bloody place because I used to run all the time and sometimes I get very nervous...
Its not easy to control this nervous energy and because
sometimes I cant do it they think Im crazy!
What went wrong is that she too find out the things I wrote and now she thinks Im a player...
To make things better I wrote a few stupid things about fighting and now sometimes it seems like some of them want to have a piece of you to see how good you are at fighting!
I know nothing about fighting...I only like martial arts and I read about it because I like art...and martial arts are an art in itself: an art expressed in movement, movement this that happens to be made with fighting moves
The other reason for my interest in martial arts is because guys stronger than me seem to have inclination to allways pick on me for no reason at all! I think they are all cowards... they only pick on me because Im skinny and smaller and they know Im not as strong as they are: It gives me no choice but to learn how to defend myself...I dont want to fight but I dont want to get beaten either...
If they are going to beat me up I have to be prepared to do something about it. I must defend myself...still I prefer to run away than to fight... fighting is for stupid people...
Now Im feeling humiliated, but deep inside I know that I deserve it: I wrote something about girls having no chance with me but the truth is that at the time I didnt even deserved a chance with them. And I think they were never interested on me.They were just being nice. Its truth that thei're not my type, but Im not thei're type either...(I was just trying to boost my own ego)
In the end I was the cause of everything bad that happened to me. Sometimes I still hear people making coments and laughing of me whenever I go! Even in the streets! I would like to hide myself in a hole for a long time...I wonder how long its going to take to the end off it...
And even worst... I think she is not interested...she looked hard at me once because I invade her personal space, forcing eye contact!
By coincidence they find out another thread that I wrote about it in other website, sometime ago...humiliating!
I always learn things the hard way...
IM VERY ANGRY WITH MYSELF !!!
I didnt want to came here anymore but I had to write this last thread:
I expect you have learnt something with my experience. Learning tricks are not the way to go.
The first word that I wrote was the beggining of a nightmare...
The last word is going to be the end of it...
PS: (I lost the girl...)
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Sometimes you have to go down...to go up...(Dark Paul)