Alcoholism

[Married Buried]

Weed actually gets me paranoid. Trust me, if I could be a "pot head" rather than an "alcoholic" I would be, but it seems to effect me differently. Heard many people say that it's normal, you just gotta do it more, it will pass, and I did. It's not like I've only smoked once or twice, I've tried it a lot. Sometimes I had a good high, but a large majority of the time I felt sick, weird, paranoid, and thought I was going to die. Now it's something I avoid completely. I know plenty of people that smoke, but when the pipe is passed to me I simply say "no thanks". Perhaps it's my genetic and chemical make-up, don't know. I just never enjoyed marijuana. Not to say that I don't think it should be legal, I think it should be. But it's not for me. It's funny though because I've tried a lot of hard drugs (pcp, mushrooms, coke etc..) but weed gets me paranoid far more than any of those. All my friends thought it was weird, I think it is too. Back when I was doing drugs, coke was my favorite. Maybe I just like uppers rather than downers (weed)? One of the reasons why I will never do meth.. I know I'd be addicted in a second, not worth it to me.

-Scars

Well maybe something bad happened to you as a kid and that's why you get paranoid like that. I get a little paranoid but it passes.

 

[Scars]

Well maybe something bad happened to you as a kid and that's why you get paranoid like that. I get a little paranoid but it passes.

The only thing I can think of is when I "accidentally" smoked pcp. That was my first time trying it actually. Thought I was smoking weed, then noticed it tasted funny and effected me different. Then the guy who handed me the pipe said "Have you ever smoked pcp before?" I said no, "well you just have" he said. Tripped me out, but I actually enjoyed it bit. Not going to lie though, I was scared. Maybe it has part to do with it. Me and a buddy both got tricked, and we ended up walking to the river, then walked back to the house, then I had my mom come pick me up. Somehow, I kept my cool the whole time, even though I felt like my heart was going to explode. Spent the rest of the whole afternoon pacing around my room/house, without trying to make it obvious. I think that's when everything started, as far as weed goes.

-Scars