Advice needed(& no its not about a girl)

[Kirro]

I've decided that I want to follow the sosuave mantra of self improvement, it coincides with a mantra a very close friend of mine has that inspired me to seek the alpha path, this all led to me finding this site.

I've asked myself the tough questions, I've faced my flaws, my inner demons, I've exposed my insecurities out loud to my closest friends & I've admitted that I'm not who my ego thinks I am & that in many ways I suck.

However I realize that I have potential, in the opinion of many men in many age groups I have an assload of potential(remains to be seen).

So I've taken the steps in order to better myself, I'm leaving my current crap job in hopes of finding a better crap job(I'm exploring many avenues & some reliable friends of mine are helping me with this).

My boy Ciel has hooked me up with a nice fitness program, our own Fuglydude has given me a nice diet & i stick to both like religion.

I've pretty much given up on the idea of getting laid right now but I still interact with women when I can to develop my social skills.

The problem is, I'm young. My body & my mind are at odds, my body wants secks NAO where as I know full well that's not happening unless I get a pity fvck(which my pride wouldn't let me accept). I'm impatient, I want to be improved now, I want more money, I want sharper wit & social skills, I want the better body now. I want to lift heavier, run faster, jump higher, buy better clothes & gadgets & bang hotties NAO, right NAO. I wish I was like some anime character who could just yell for 4 minutes & transform into a higher state of being.

No matter how I try, I can't be content with where I am. I don't know if its the build of horniness but I can sometimes explode into rages(usually in privacy). It annoys me that while I have to grind away people have already achieved what I want, I hate that I am behind.

I'm going to increase my hobbies even more & try to hang out with my friends more often so I have less time alone to think. Yet this haunts my dreams, all I dream about is who I want to be & imagine the life I want. Anytime alone leads to me reflecting on my past highs & lows & where I want to be.

For those who have successfully upgraded themselves, how did you deal with this initial grind period? Or do I have to just grit my teeth & tough it out alone?

 

[Allurre]

Kirro, it's good you're acknowledging your weaknesses, and that self improvement is the way to go.

I've been in your shoes. The secret is take it day-by-day. Baby steps first. Small accomplishments will bundle up and help you reach milestones. Keep on upgrading yourself in one department (physically, mentally, financially, spiritually) everyday.

Just take it day by day, and don't create a cap on when to stop. Everyday is room for improvement. Just keep grinding - and incredible things will eventually happen.

It's a matter of will, patience, discipline, and determination. You've got it in you already, you just have to stick it through and enjoy the lifetime journey.

 

[Kirro]

@Espi - In short, you're saying I should develop irrational self confidence? Hmmm, one positive is due to my appearance, any ****y or arrogant remarks on my part are usually taken seriously however these days I'm unable to believe in such things unless they are actually facts :-/ However I'll give it a try.

@Allure - Heh. in short I need to tough it out. Thing is, as much as this feels painful, I can't possibly give up. I feel compelled to better myself, I'm obsessed with improvement.

I feel as if this would be easier for me if I were locked away from the outside world.