I Have Anger Problems/I Don't Know What To Do

[ZTIME]

Where are these different women at man? Every woman is doing this shyt....black, white, latino, mexican....short, tall.....they are ALL doing it.

You guys keep telling me there's women out there not doing this shyt....where man?? Where???

Totally understand your frustration. You have to filter through tons of trash to find one decent chick and then wait for the craziness to erupt.

However, it seems that your timeline may be a little off. I'm guessing that in the last 3 months you've probably dated over 3 women. So why try to qualify them as anything other than an FWB. If it becomes something down the road it does, if it doesn't it doesn't.

Don't lower your standards, lower your expectations. Don't look to the future, live in the present. No one is perfect, yet some are just right.

And why on earth are you dating chicks that were dating gang bangers, and criminals?? You say you want better quality, but seem to pull rocks instead of gems..........time to find a new quarry.

 

[Tenacity]

Totally understand your frustration. You have to filter through tons of trash to find one decent chick and then wait for the craziness to erupt.

However, it seems that your timeline may be a little off. I'm guessing that in the last 3 months you've probably dated over 3 women. So why try to qualify them as anything other than an FWB. If it becomes something down the road it does, if it doesn't it doesn't.

Don't lower your standards, lower your expectations. Don't look to the future, live in the present. No one is perfect, yet some are just right.

And why on earth are you dating chicks that were dating gang bangers, and criminals?? You say you want better quality, but seem to pull rocks instead of gems..........time to find a new quarry.

I'm just being 100% honest. I think I'm just breaking down. I have been dealing with this for a long time and I think I am about to do something fvcked up. This last girl just PUSHED me over the edge.

I'm just tired man.......I'm tired.

 

[ZTIME]

I'm just being 100% honest. I think I'm just breaking down. I have been dealing with this for a long time and I think I am about to do something fvcked up. This last girl just PUSHED me over the edge.

I'm just tired man.......I'm tired.

We've all been there, and it's OK to step back and take a break. We all get tired.

While resting, try to focus on why you let women control your emotions (mainly anger) in such a short amount of time. Maybe you're really wanting to settle down and trying to force that ideal onto others. Maybe your expectations are set so high that all things as they pertain to a relationship will fail.

Understand that the anger stems from you. Anger is a reaction not a forced response. Good luck sir.

 

[Tenacity]

We've all been there, and it's OK to step back and take a break. We all get tired.

While resting, try to focus on why you let women control your emotions (mainly anger) in such a short amount of time. Maybe you're really wanting to settle down and trying to force that ideal onto others. Maybe your expectations are set so high that all things as they pertain to a relationship will fail.

Understand that the anger stems from you. Anger is a reaction not a forced response. Good luck sir.

We live in a cold fvcking world. It's cold, it's dark.....and it's sickening.

I've had a fvcking enough of it.

I just don't feel like going on anymore.

 

[Tenacity]

Tenacity--Take care of yourself. Focus on the basics for yourself.

I've already been doing this. I've done all I can. I can't do anything else. I'm a heterosexual male, I have urges, I HAVE to be around women and deal with them. There's no other option.

Women are evil fvckin bytches. They are fvcking evil. There is no rest, or break, or anything I can take. I'm spoken with therapists, I'm spoken with Jesus, I've prayed....I've done everything.

This has nothing to do with Sosuave, I post here in a journal fashion to help organize my thoughts. But if something happens and you read about it, erase my information and thread from this site so nobody can link it back here. No reason for Sosuave to get caught up in this shyt.

My life is fvcked, it's always been fvcked. I have fought as long as I can and I can't fight no more.......I want out.

 

[ZTIME]

Tenacity--Take care of yourself. Focus on the basics for yourself. Get some rest. Give yourself some time and space to really re-gain your center. Only then, consider what makes the most sense for you moving forward.

Know that people care about you. I care about you. I am rooting you on. I know I am not the only one.

You're not.

 

[thatfeel]

Just move to Houston brah.

 

[guru1000]

The following will appear ethereal to you Tenacity, and I don’t think you are ready for this now, but I will write this as a reminder to myself and maybe some of it may resonate with you in the future:

You have to believe that there is something out there greater than yourself; and that you serve a greater purpose;

You have to believe that every event in your life serves this greater purpose;

You have to believe that every person is brought before you with exact purpose, which is to expose your shortcomings so that you can become conscious of them, and, hopefully, work toward correcting them;

You have to believe that when every family member and friend has turned their back on you, you are still not alone; there is something else here with you, in you;

You have to converse with this “something else,” and state that the lessons brought before you are unclear, and you are unable to connect the dots, and need greater clarity;

You have to quiet your mind, your inner talk, and let the answers to your questions and the lessons to be learned manifest through subtle cues and unique thoughts;

I know your position on Joel Osteen and religion. This is neither. But the aforementioned has helped me tremendously in the past and today to transcend my former thinking and paradigms and evolve into a greater being.

Best,

Guru

 

[PrettyBoyAJ]

Dog, this thread has gone on for 23 pages man.

You know this better then I do Tenacity. You gotta treat girls like the *** dumpsters they are. Don't worry about taking them out and pleasing them. Try to bang them and go to the next chick. No need to get mad because a chick don't want you, there are millions of girls in this world. If I can get shorties in small country towns I'm sure you can get some in Detroit. Don't take it to seriously, I see it as a numbers game.

I've told you many times what you need to do to clear your mind and I've even invited you to trips that I've taken man. You gotta travel and see different types of people. So take action and do something already.

 

[zekko]

Where are these different women at man? Every woman is doing this shyt....black, white, latino, mexican....short, tall.....they are ALL doing it

You admitted yourself, about a gazillion pages ago, that you've encountered some decent women before, but messed it up. Yes, they're rare. And every woman is still only human, no matter who they are. But if you've run into them before, you'll run into them again.

 

[Tenacity]

Guys as a man, I can admit when I have issues.

I have major issues. My issue is that I HATE the thing I NEED/WANT.

#1.) I need and want black women, why? I need them because it's where my fvcking heart is.....and I want them because to ME, they are the most attractive women and I want to continue FVCKING them.

#2.) But then, at the exact same time, I have GROWN through my experiences (keyword is grown, I wasn't like this before) to absolutely hate these bytches. Why have I GROWN to hate them, here's just some of the reasons:

- They say they want a particular type of man, then they fvck/make babies with thugs and criminals

- They fvck/make babies with thugs and criminals, rejecting all the "Carlton Banks" type of N-words, then they come around and start looking to settle down with Carlton after they have 2 or 3 kids by 2 or 3 thugs.

- When these bytches make babies with thugs/criminals, they continue the CYCLE of black kids growing up with no fvcking Father, but yet she continues to get her fat a.ss up on stage talking about how she wants to fix the black community.

- They are self-centered as FVCK, it's all about them....they can give two flying fvcks about you

- If you breathe hard, she will SLAP that same government on you that she gets her fat a.ss out in the street protesting against saying is killing black men, but the bytch has no issue calling that same government (cops, family court, criminal court, whatever) on your black a.ss whenever you "make her mad".

- They always try to manipulate the fvck outta you by using shaming tactics of, "You are my man, so help me pay for X, Y, and Z" bytch I'm your man, not your fvcking daddy, why can't you pay your own fvcking rent? Why can't you pay your own fvcking car note?

- Speaking of finances, they are horrible with finances. Damn near every black chick I meet has like a $400 car note on some piece of shyt car because the bytch buys her cars from Buy Here/Pay Here lots getting ripped up the a.ss in the process.

- They have a TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT attitude, but want to constantly criticize you to keep working on yourself. What do I mean? All day long, this bytch wants to point out what I do wrong, where I need to improve, what I need to work on...etc, etc, etc. Then when I turn around and ask this bytch to work on things about her I would like improved, from her attitude, her weight, keeping her side of my apartment clean when she comes over, being more "happy" instead of a bytch, etc., all the fvck she says is something along the lines of, "A REAL man SHOULD BE ABLE TO HANDLE a black woman!" Basically her response is that she ain't changing shyt and I need to just live with it.

I absolutely hate these bytches. I wish Elliot Rogers psycho a.ss would have did a drive-by on these bytches instead of those dumb blonde haired h0es he did a drive by on.

 

[Tenacity]

You have the capacity to rise above your experiences. Only you can choose to do so. If you want it enough (more than your identity of being a victim) you will find a way.

Can you tell me how then? I don't know how...you are a woman, so you tell me how then?

I'm not gay, I'm a heterosexual man that is physically, emotionally, and mentally attracted to black women.

But black women are and have been giving me pure HELL. Not HELL in relation to rejecting me in terms of dating and sex.....that part is OK. The HELL is when I'm in a relationship with them and have to DEAL with them.

So what am I supposed to do??

 

[guru1000]

Tenacity, the first thing you need to work on is learning to humble yourself. You are not as smart as you think you are.

You were give pristine advice in this thread that answer all the questions that you repeatedly ask.

 

[Reyaj]

Tenacity, the first thing you need to work on is learning to humble yourself. You are not as smart as you think you are.

You were give pristine advice in this thread that answer all the questions that you repeatedly ask.

Can you please respond to my debt thread... Thanks man

 

[BlueAlpha1]

Guys as a man, I can admit when I have issues.

I have major issues. My issue is that I HATE the thing I NEED/WANT.

#1.) I need and want black women, why? I need them because it's where my fvcking heart is.....and I want them because to ME, they are the most attractive women and I want to continue FVCKING them.

#2.) But then, at the exact same time, I have GROWN through my experiences (keyword is grown, I wasn't like this before) to absolutely hate these bytches. Why have I GROWN to hate them, here's just some of the reasons:

- They say they want a particular type of man, then they fvck/make babies with thugs and criminals

- They fvck/make babies with thugs and criminals, rejecting all the "Carlton Banks" type of N-words, then they come around and start looking to settle down with Carlton after they have 2 or 3 kids by 2 or 3 thugs.

- When these bytches make babies with thugs/criminals, they continue the CYCLE of black kids growing up with no fvcking Father, but yet she continues to get her fat a.ss up on stage talking about how she wants to fix the black community.

- They are self-centered as FVCK, it's all about them....they can give two flying fvcks about you

- If you breathe hard, she will SLAP that same government on you that she gets her fat a.ss out in the street protesting against saying is killing black men, but the bytch has no issue calling that same government (cops, family court, criminal court, whatever) on your black a.ss whenever you "make her mad".

- They always try to manipulate the fvck outta you by using shaming tactics of, "You are my man, so help me pay for X, Y, and Z" bytch I'm your man, not your fvcking daddy, why can't you pay your own fvcking rent? Why can't you pay your own fvcking car note?

- Speaking of finances, they are horrible with finances. Damn near every black chick I meet has like a $400 car note on some piece of shyt car because the bytch buys her cars from Buy Here/Pay Here lots getting ripped up the a.ss in the process.

- They have a TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT attitude, but want to constantly criticize you to keep working on yourself. What do I mean? All day long, this bytch wants to point out what I do wrong, where I need to improve, what I need to work on...etc, etc, etc. Then when I turn around and ask this bytch to work on things about her I would like improved, from her attitude, her weight, keeping her side of my apartment clean when she comes over, being more "happy" instead of a bytch, etc., all the fvck she says is something along the lines of, "A REAL man SHOULD BE ABLE TO HANDLE a black woman!" Basically her response is that she ain't changing shyt and I need to just live with it.

I absolutely hate these bytches. I wish Elliot Rogers psycho a.ss would have did a drive-by on these bytches instead of those dumb blonde haired h0es he did a drive by on.

I feel you bro. I'm not black, but I hear it from a friend of mine all the time about these insufferable "strong, independent black women."

These white barbie doll types aren't much better. They walk around with a scowl, sunglasses on so you can't make eye contact, staring into their damn iPhone outside on a beautiful day. They deliberately make day-game or "cold approaches" impossible or severely awkward on purpose.

There is a lot of talk among men about how you just need to "adapt" and "rise above" as a man. Don't get a hooker because that's the easy way out, instead spend $200 at the club, play the numbers game, go through the motions and get rejected by 98 women, before getting those 2 bangs because "that's just the way it is, and you shouldn't get mad at a woman just like you wouldn't get mad at a child." Just like a 4 year old, a 26 year old girl is not accountable for her actions and attitude.

That's all well and good for all these game master, multi-millionaire, "sociopaths" who've banged 250 women, that strangely seem to hang out on this website in large quantities to say, because they've "transcended" human emotion. It's also all well and good for Baby Boomers who are 50 years old who lived in a world where women came TO THEM for security and provisioning, and didn't have to compete 1000x more intensely than your average guy today. Having confidence and a good job doesn't get the girl anymore in a world where every HB6 wants her Christian Grey.

I actually agree with the sentiment, that this self-defeating attitude doesn't help us, but the elitist condescension directed towards frustrated guys is disingenuous and misdirected. I really do understand, but try to tone down the Elliot Rodger talk bro. Narcissism is not a capital offense...

 

[Tenacity]

I feel you bro. I'm not black, but I hear it from a friend of mine all the time about these insufferable "strong, independent black women."

These white barbie doll types aren't much better. They walk around with a scowl, sunglasses on so you can't make eye contact, staring into their damn iPhone outside on a beautiful day. They deliberately make day-game or "cold approaches" impossible or severely awkward on purpose.

There is a lot of talk among men about how you just need to "adapt" and "rise above" as a man. Don't get a hooker because that's the easy way out, instead spend $200 at the club, play the numbers game, go through the motions and get rejected by 98 women, before getting those 2 bangs because "that's just the way it is, and you shouldn't get mad at a woman just like you wouldn't get mad at a child." Just like a 4 year old, a 26 year old girl is not accountable for her actions and attitude.

That's all well and good for all these game master, multi-millionaire, "sociopaths" who've banged 250 women, that strangely seem to hang out on this website in large quantities to say, because they've "transcended" human emotion. It's also all well and good for Baby Boomers who are 50 years old who lived in a world where women came TO THEM for security and provisioning, and didn't have to compete 1000x more intensely than your average guy today. Having confidence and a good job doesn't get the girl anymore in a world where every HB6 wants her Christian Grey.

I actually agree with the sentiment, that this self-defeating attitude doesn't help us, but the elitist condescension directed towards frustrated guys is disingenuous and misdirected. I really do understand, but try to tone down the Elliot Rodger talk bro. Narcissism is not a capital offense...

It's refreshing to know that of the 320 million people in the US, there's at least ONE PERSON who understands what the hell I'm going through. Again, not saying I'm an angel in this, not saying I don't come to the table with issues, bitterness, anger, etc., already......but at least somebody can understand where I'm coming from.

- Moving to another place isn't going to help me. This is an epidemic with American women in general.

- Talking to other races won't help, this is an epidemic with American women in general.

I really just believe my life is cursed in this area. It's been cursed since I was a child through grade school and went through just a HORRIBLE time with women. And now today, that I'm the most "complete/balanced" man I will probably EVER BE, the BEST I'm getting from women is the shyt I get right now. This is literally the PEAK of it........and it's mediocre at best.

Maybe that's why I'm on this website with everybody else. Maybe I just sawk with women. Thugs, criminals, bums, deadbeat Fathers, they just don't seem to be having the issues with their women LOVING and supporting them like I do. When those losers get shot down in the street, their women protest and march....throw BIG funeral services for them, etc. If my black a.ss got shot down, they would either go on like nothing happened or probably crack a joke about it.

The only options for me are the following:

- Go MGTOW, even though I have no fvcking clue what that means in reality. Do I just live my life and ignore all of my sexual urges until I die??

- Kill myself. I have actually tried this before, but I was too scared to go through with it all of the way and still to this day am too scared to go through with it.

- Or, do what the definition of insanity is, which is go right back to doing the same ol' shyt, still dating/fvcking American women and be RIGHT BACK HERE within 2 months on Sosuave ready to blow my brains out again?

That's pretty much it, I don't see anything changing here and I meet a woman I can do anything serious with, or get any type of quality relationship with. I just don't see it. PLUS UNDERSTAND, the shyt is deeper than just women. I have issues all around personally, from family issues, to friendship issues......I'm just FVCKED UP.

My life looks to be on a train track with me running towards a light. Everyday I'm getting closer and closer to this light. One day.......I will come face to face with it and it will be a major train crash which will take me the fvck out of here.

And sometimes.....like right now......I can't WAIT for that fvcking train crash to come soon enough.

 

[BlueAlpha1]

It's refreshing to know that of the 320 million people in the US, there's at least ONE PERSON who understands what the hell I'm going through. Again, not saying I'm an angel in this, not saying I don't come to the table with issues, bitterness, anger, etc., already......but at least somebody can understand where I'm coming from.

- Moving to another place isn't going to help me. This is an epidemic with American women in general.

- Talking to other races won't help, this is an epidemic with American women in general.

I really just believe my life is cursed in this area. It's been cursed since I was a child through grade school and went through just a HORRIBLE time with women. And now today, that I'm the most "complete/balanced" man I will probably EVER BE, the BEST I'm getting from women is the shyt I get right now. This is literally the PEAK of it........and it's mediocre at best.

Maybe that's why I'm on this website with everybody else. Maybe I just sawk with women. Thugs, criminals, bums, deadbeat Fathers, they just don't seem to be having the issues with their women LOVING and supporting them like I do. When those losers get shot down in the street, their women protest and march....throw BIG funeral services for them, etc. If my black a.ss got shot down, they would either go on like nothing happened or probably crack a joke about it.

The only options for me are the following:

- Go MGTOW, even though I have no fvcking clue what that means in reality. Do I just live my life and ignore all of my sexual urges until I die??

- Kill myself. I have actually tried this before, but I was too scared to go through with it all of the way and still to this day am too scared to go through with it.

- Or, do what the definition of insanity is, which is go right back to doing the same ol' shyt, still dating/fvcking American women and be RIGHT BACK HERE within 2 months on Sosuave ready to blow my brains out again?

That's pretty much it, I don't see anything changing here and I meet a woman I can do anything serious with, or get any type of quality relationship with. I just don't see it. PLUS UNDERSTAND, the shyt is deeper than just women. I have issues all around personally, from family issues, to friendship issues......I'm just FVCKED UP.

My life looks to be on a train track with me running towards a light. Everyday I'm getting closer and closer to this light. One day.......I will come face to face with it and it will be a major train crash which will take me the fvck out of here.

And sometimes.....like right now......I can't WAIT for that fvcking train crash to come soon enough.

The ONLY thing I can recommend that has provided a ray of hope for me is travel and hookers.

Yes, travel IS helpful because there ARE a few decent women left that have not been corrupted by the west. Basically you can eliminate USA, Canada, UK, France, & Australia, though my brother and best friend both found amazing LTR's. Go figure. But In the last year I have meet feminine, naturally BEAUTIFUL girls from Argentina, Czech Republic, and New Zealand. All three were charming, natural 9's without makup and a great personality. Sadly I didn't bang any of them, because time moves quickly at a hostel. If the girl is checking out the next day it's a ONS or nothing, and these girls are often a higher quality than that. Of course, I know 50% of the guys on here would have just grabbed the girl's crotch within 15 minutes of hello, but I haven't reached such a level of "alpha" yet. But just interacting with them was refreshing. I'm rather depressed I am going back to work FT soon and won't be able to travel as much for a while to sample these kinds of girls more.

The other thing is hookers, who are hit and miss. I've had a good experience and two god awful experiences. But it is the most HONEST interaction between and man and woman you'll EVER have. If it's true you've got 200k, you can enjoy yourself once in a while. The key is to scope her out, make sure she's doing this willingly and not in some trafficking racket (like a lot of Asian massage parlors), AND pay her a little more than what she's asking. If she wants $150 an hour, pay her $250 but tell her she's playing by your rules the entire time. Depressing, but is it any worse than you're feeling right now?

 

[guru1000]

Tenacity, I think I hit the nail on the head for you. You can thank me by coming down here and buying me a fcking drink.

In the other thread, I stated that you are holding shallow, superficial conversations with these women. In this thread, you complain that the thugs are the true "alphas" that black women truly desire and have kids with, and you are the "second class" citizen, correct?

What do all these thugs have in common that you don't? Looks? No. Education or finance? No. This belies the SMV theory for you then, right? How does a thug with no education, no finances, and likely less in the looks department grab the hearts of the woman that YOU want?

Heart. Thugs have heart. They possess the Alpha characteristics but use beta-game; i.e. "You are my boo, I will do anything for you boo." They are deeper than you, more manipulative than you, and carry more profound, meaningful strongholds and connections with your women.

You are as shallow as they come. You are exposable.

Let's look a little deeper. You have no family. Your mother abandoned you to some degree and you have no love for and very little communication, if any, with her, right? How do you think this influences your deeper connections with black women?

Have you ever told a girl, "I love you," "I miss you," or " You are the girl I am going to <insert any beta term here>." You don't have to mean it, but have you ever told a girl any of this? I'm interested in your response here.

 

[Tenacity]

Tenacity, I think I hit the nail on the head for you. You can thank me by coming down here and buying me a fcking drink.

Okay.....let's see....

In the other thread, I stated that you are holding shallow, superficial conversations with these women. In this thread, you complain that the thugs are the true "alphas" that black women truly desire and have kids with, and you are the "second class" citizen, correct?

What do all these thugs have in common that you don't? Looks? No. Education or finance? No. This belies the SMV theory for you then, right? How does a thug with no education, no finances, and likely less in the looks department grab the hearts of the woman that YOU want?

Heart. Thugs have heart. They possess the Alpha characteristics but use beta-game; i.e. "You are my boo, I will do anything for you boo." They are deeper than you, more manipulative than you, and carry more profound, meaningful strongholds and connections with your women.

Actually I come out of the gate using the pet names of boo, baby, etc. From everything to "hey baby, what's up lol"....to "hey boo, damnnn I wouldn't mind slappin a rang on it "....or some variation of that.

You are as shallow as they come.

You are exposable.

Let's look a little deeper. You have no family. Your mother abandoned you to some degree and you have no love for and very little communication, if any, with her, right? How do you think this influences your deeper connections with black women?

Honestly, I think the rantings towards my family are the effect not the cause. What do I mean?

I believe the cause is coming from something in relation to how I grew up and the combination of:

- Not being attractive to women in terms of looks, personality, or finances (style)

- Being roasted a lot, which is what some might call bullied, but we refer to it as roasting and I myself am NOT a good roaster at all so all of my comebacks would fail miserably

- Not being included in many social groups growing up and when I was, it was basically to be the class clown for the most part, or the A.SS of the group

That was my life until about late 2006 when I lost everything for the most part. I entered a period of homelessness, cut contact with ALL of those prior people, and focused 100% on college/work which I climbed out of the financial issues and got into the middle class by the middle of 2010.

Today, I think the build up of ALL of those years of issues from my black social circles, social groups, and black women, have led me to LASH out. The family just gets included with that...NO...I don't hear from my family a lot, but to be very honest with you that's not the thing that bothers me the MOST.

What has always bothered me the most in the previous years, were the times they would gang up and roast me.....or the times when black women as a group would all diss me....it was like I was an easy target for someone to get an entire GROUP or an entire ROOM of people to burst out laughing over.

Want me to be 100% honest right now? Okay.....if you want you break Tenacity down...I mean COMPLETELY break me down? Get a group of black people in a room, put me in there...and have them all start roasting me for a straight 15 minutes.

Every ounce of self esteem, confidence, all of it...will be DRAINED from me within 15 minutes. It's always been my kryptonite.

 

[Die Hard]

We are getting somewhere.. Kudos to you for discussing your inner hurt and weaknesses. Eventually, this will lead you to be stronger!