I know this attitude is wrong, but I don't know how to escape it. Conversation is almost always a chore for me, and especially so when meeting new people. Unless I'm in a great mind state, I have trouble genuinely caring about what the people have to say, and therefore don't listen well. I realize this while it's happening, but rationalizing my emotions does not change what I am feeling. Im just so sick of it . . meeting someone, catching their attention initially and then just continuing boring conversations full of me asking questions because I fail to focus on the conversation and capitalize on opportunities for humor, rapport, or even simply continuing the flow of conversation. I hate being a wallflower at parties, I want to go enjoy myself...I just dont know how anymore. Meeting new people and talking with them is nothing but a chore to me now, leading me to justify avoiding it completely. This is wrong and i know it...