Designer Man
Don Juan
- Joined
- Apr 7, 2018
- Messages
- 171
- Reaction score
- 47
- Age
- 38
Day 2
I woke up this morning disgusted with myself. I wasn't a nice person to be around at times and I have put myself in her shoes to see how it made her feel. The aggression, the negative behaviour was not good and it must have been awful for her. I may not have put hands on her but I did get in her face, I slammed doors, I lashed out and it would have frightened her. What type of person does that to someone they love? Why did I react to the nasty things she said and behave like a psychopath? I should have controlled myself better and walked away from the situation. At times I did, but not often enough. I would get up in her face and then back away as I knew I was in the wrong but I let her push my buttons and I should have been a lot stronger than that. I intimidated her, I invaded her personal space, I am honestly appalled by my behaviour. She lashed out herself at times but I can't comment on the things she said or done, I can't reflect on her behaviour I can only reflect on mine. Today I hate myself and I don't understand why it has taken a break up for me to realise how awful I was and she stuck with me in the hope things would get better.
I woke up this morning disgusted with myself. I wasn't a nice person to be around at times and I have put myself in her shoes to see how it made her feel. The aggression, the negative behaviour was not good and it must have been awful for her. I may not have put hands on her but I did get in her face, I slammed doors, I lashed out and it would have frightened her. What type of person does that to someone they love? Why did I react to the nasty things she said and behave like a psychopath? I should have controlled myself better and walked away from the situation. At times I did, but not often enough. I would get up in her face and then back away as I knew I was in the wrong but I let her push my buttons and I should have been a lot stronger than that. I intimidated her, I invaded her personal space, I am honestly appalled by my behaviour. She lashed out herself at times but I can't comment on the things she said or done, I can't reflect on her behaviour I can only reflect on mine. Today I hate myself and I don't understand why it has taken a break up for me to realise how awful I was and she stuck with me in the hope things would get better.