Day 1 (need advice)
Recently got dumped by my ex-gf on June 22. We dated for a year on and off. It was her mostly who broke things off every time. She would come back everytime after me going silent or moving. We tried to talk things out and work on our issues. That did not work. We tried to do couples counseling but our schedules were too busy. Anyhow, after the breakup (June 22) I took a few days off and attended a cousin's wedding overseas. Made the mistake of calling her last Saturday (June 30) from overseas. Offered friendship, she said we can't be friends and needs time apart. She said at least 6 months apart and said in a way to torment me. I lost it. She hung up. I tried calling back twice.
Then yesterday this happened;
1) I tried calling her but she hung up the phone after a few dials.
2) I then sent her a text saying "I haven't been sleeping or eating and I cannot focus on work. I dont have family here (not my home country) and you were my closest friend. I dont know how I can function and move on. I am finding it difficult to do anything. I dont want to drink of smoke my problems away. I cannot go back to the psychiatrist (I have abandonment issues) because we had gone in together and I am worried that the memories of her in his office would be too much. I have a lot to get out of my chest. Please talk to me, I need you."
3) No response to the above text so I called back 3 times at different hour intervals. No response to any attempts.
I am not sure if she will come back after these moves but I dont expect her to. I plan on working on myself and getting healthier. Though I desperately need to see my counselor as well.
So today is my first day of NC. Wondering if I should remove her from Instagram? Would that ruin any chances of reconciliation and would it be seen as childish?
Any thoughts on how bad I messed up or chances of getting her back after these beta moves are welcome!
It's been a while now since I last entered here, usually when it's highlighted in the updates.
U need to create a new thread just for this buddy.
Gently reminding you that u hv been here since 2014 and it's abt time you read the DJ bible.
Sorry to be the bringer of bad tidings, I highly doubt she'll want you back given all the red flags u hv displayed.
Even if she did it's because she can't land a more manly man.
Nothing abt what you're posted is seemingly manly, masculine but highly feminine and no woman in the right frame of mind will be attracted to that. It's like dealing with another female from ur ex perspective. It's downright disgusting.
She was absolutely correct in dumping you.
She deserves to be fvcked by a real man and it will make her happy.
All women deserves to be fvcked by a real man and not by some female stuck in a man's body.
And if u really desire to be that man; go read POOK in the DJ bible then start practising and in a short few years you'll be that person whom ur ex desires.