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[badboyjmm]

Quick update about the girl situation, I never heard back from her. She then proceed to text my buddy saying that the minute she saw me, she knew that I wasn't her type and that if we did had sex it would be only be a ONS (one night stand). She also said to my buddy that she did offer sex but that I never try anything (I was basically passing out and her too) OH WELL...

In a sense I'm glad I didn't sleep with her cause I'm not interested in a ONS. Furthermore, all my lays were one night stand and I'm sick of it. So I was a bit upset because it's like all the girls see me as the one night dude when I wanna have a steady friends with benefits scenario.

So when I got home I started lifting the free weights and understood that although I'm training for soccer, I'm also training to feel better about myself and ultimately bang more girls plus having a rotation of girls to choose from

I guess I gotta be more attractive, since I pick the girls, but it would be for one night.

 

[badboyjmm]

I'm back !

Well it's been a while since I posted anything in here ! Well I had a LTR from Dec 2013 until July 2014, broke it off because the girl was arguing for no reason and was extremely jealous. Then I ended up seeing some other girl but nothing came out of that.

6 months later and I ended up sleeping with another girl, it's more of a FWB but cool nonetheless. For the beginning of 2015, I meet 2 girls off Tinder. Once just LJBF me 2-3 weeks ago, let's call her C (although we were making out at her place, I felt I should of pressured a bit for sex, maybe too much text, we saw eachother 4 times) and the other girl is replying every plus moon, let's call her S (claiming she always busy, I saw her 2 times)

Grab a phone number for a chick off POF and planned a date, she never answered her phone. So I went shopping instead.

Deleted numbers from girls I talk to online but didn't want to meet up.

Finally yesterday I got off Tinder and removed the POF from my phone. I feel like a need to focus a bit more on myself, I still want to have a solid team. I definitely need to start talking to girls since now work at a University

I manage to gain some muscle but there's still room for improvement. My posture is better, I'm definitely more confident.

I will definitely post some more stuff in there. It helps me keep sane and might help others.

And now my entry of last weekend​

I went to the casino of Friday,lost some money hehe

Lots of chicks but it seem that everytime I'm with my best friend, I can't talk to girls. He gets girls that are brave enough to talk to him but he never approaches. It almost like I take his aura and keep my mouth shut. I want to correct that ASAP. Way too much potential !

Saturday it was the surprise bday party of an acquaintance, got drunk, ended up making out and dancing with a girl that didn't want to leave the club and ended up disappearing on me. Oh well, it would of been nice to have another bed notch but it will be for next time.

Last thing, my FWB invited me to a event that her sorority is going, I said I'm going but I feel like going there will confirm that I'm her bf (which is not my intention) plus I'm sure there's a lot more hot chicks awaiting there. Perhaps I can try to get some phone numbers from that event.

 

[badboyjmm]

I sign up for the gym today and spend an hour over there. I felt good. I'm still thinking about the girl who ljbf'd me. She was more beautiful and less lazy then the current plate I have. Trying to get in top shape for summer and soccer. Hopefully I can have more girls on the roster. Tinder and POF have been dead to me.

Perhaps I need to do the 90 days challenge and stop worrying about getting girls. But at the same time, that current plate is kind of boring in bed. Plus I don't have any backup. Struggling with porn, I watch it every night and it's not healthy.

So my goals for next week:
-Stay off the dating sites (including Tinder)
-Keep going to the gym
-Stop flapping to porn
-Approach girls.

Let's make it happen !

 

[badboyjmm]

Field Report :Cool night last night

It's been a few days since I deleted my Tinder and POF. Those platforms got me show lazy and I got little to show for. (Met two girls on Tinder, got LJBF and the other one is not that interested and on POF I meet one girl that I have as my only plate)

Too bad for those matches I left behind hehe.

I decided to go clubbing with a Buddy of mine. Had a few drinks. Dance moves on the dancefloor and there's a girl just mimicking my moves.

Awesome, so I get closer and she grabs my hand and we start dancing. She know how to move that butt:rockon: Grinding and what not, we look in eachother eyes and we kiss ( no makeout)

My buddy takes the grenade poor dude ! But I was able to get her alone outside, had a cool conversation (apparently I do the same type of work as her dad).

I have her type her phone number. Ask her if it was real, she laugh and said yes. I did not test in on the spot but hey, we'll see what happens.

Went back in the club, dance some more we hugged goodbye and my buddy was telling me that I owe him a favor since the grenade was trying to c*ckblock and he stopped her by reassuring that I was a good dude.

I will shoot her a text later on tonight and I will try to set something up.

 

[badboyjmm]

It been a rocky month in terms of girls. I was able to have a few dates but no f-close. Annoying. It got the best of me when I didn't have the motivation to go to work. I know that I shouldn't care but I guess last week I reached the breaking point, I was putting myself out there, online dating and trying to meet girls going out. I guess I was burned out, just frustrated that I couldn't find a girl to drain my balls hehe

Talk to a friend about it and essentially told me to relax about this pickup game. Sometimes you need to a break.

After that little depression (if we can call it that) I went out, dance to some beats, had fun at the casino (won some money !) and played basketball.

I'm starting a diet and I'm feeling much better. I have some girls from my past asking about me and another girl that I meet on Tinder months ago talking to me again.

I was thinking that the Tinder girl (let's call her Tammy) was not interested until she told me that she got sick overtraining and under eating. According to her, she was fat (She's maybe 5'3 at 117pounds) So I told her that she's cute and that she needs to watch her health.

She seem to be very shy but she did ask me out for Wednesday and she wants me to go by her place for some ice cream. Then she mention that she will confirm with me the time. We spoke on the phone for an hour.

Anyways, hopefully things can go forward from there.

P.S: I also realized that nofap seem to keep me happy. I always felt really bad about fapping because once I was done, I started to ask myself what's wrong with me.

Currrently on day2, hopefully I can keep this going for a very long time.

Until next time,

 

[badboyjmm]

Inspired by another thread

There was a thread open with the title and I'm inspired by it: Focus on yourself for 3 months.

Well I have started:

-I hired a personal trainer, he's a friend of mine and I also get a nutritional plan and I work out 3 times a week

-Started playing basket-ball every week.

-Deleted a few girls off my facebook and off my phone.

-I will start the nofap and keep it for 3 months because it was getting ridiculous (fapping 2-3 times a day, that help me with 2-3 hours nap but I feel like I don't have the drive to even look at girls in the eye

-Deleted my Tinder.

I will force myself to make eye contact with chicks and smile. I'm a conversationalist when I get going but I feel like I'm shy.

It's funny how I really feel happier not chasing woman and not drinking (I haven't drink since my birthday on the 19). Sleep has been better.

Well I'm on day1 on focusing on myself, getting fit at the gym, enjoying sports and nofap

Wish me luck !

 

[badboyjmm]

I was at small gathering yesterday, had a few drinks, ended up talking to a cute chick. It seem like it was 15mins but it turn out to be much more and after an hour conversation, she was ready to leave. She said that I can add her on Facebook, I politely declined and ask her to type in her phone number.

Call her today, no answer and I left a message. I'm trying to go a different route while trying to contact girls but I also think that most girls are not too comfortable with having phone conversation... Anyways hopefully she replies and I can take her out on a date.