That's a shame to hear man. I still think the first 4 weeks are the most pivotal parts of bootcamp. The stuff after that isn't as jarring to your old ways as the frst 4 weeks are. Maybe I say that because I haven't really tried past week 5, but eh. Apod's running out of steam, you're out of steam, Duke's going through some tough times- what is this? Some kind of epidemic? I don't know what else I can say to try and inspire you, I don't want to waste space and sound like a broken record. If you haven't yet, look at my latest entry in Duke's journal, I put some advice there for him because he's running low like yourself. We've all been slacking off...you try to always stay out of your comfort zone but...you can't always stay out of it. I can't explain it, you won't really know what I'm talking about until you do a few weeks of bootcamp yourself (not talking to you EO, but the other readers).
I was thinking about this today. I know I'm not done with bootcamp, nor am I at the point where I one day wish to be, but...I really don't know. I feel kind of weird saying this, but I really don't like some parts of the DJ mindset. I don't plan to go pick up 80 different women each week. Nor do I go clubbing alot, although I'm not seeing a huge amount of scuess besides ONS from clubbing. Although my confidence level isn't where it should be, and I don't have a gf yet (although I'm surrounded by afc chumps with gf's) I'm still proud of how far I've gone. It gets me down at times to be alone, even though I'm working on other stuff in my life...I still want to get laid alot like everyone else
. I still have alot of work to do to get to where I want to be, but it's somewhat comforting knowing what I have to work on, and pressing forward with this. Can't just give up and go for some ugly fat girl, I deserve better, I will be better than I curently am. I dont know, I'm still not sure. I'm rambling, but at least I'll still keep trying.
