Posting this here because of my age and never really getting responses in the main forum:
My recent break up has had me questioning everything that I've learned from the past 7 years. I was in a 1.5 year relationship that I KNEW wasn't going anywhere with a woman who is 11 years older than me. I dumped her 4 months ago, and was happier than ever to be single again.
I always told her that I wanted her, but did not need her and I really believed this. After I dumped her, I was out and about, hitting on women and feeling really good about it. At one point, I started missing her and we hooked up again for a couple of weeks. However, I started unknowingly becoming needy, while at the same time trying to keep my emotions in check.
She eventually rejected me for another guy and this hurt like nothing else. I couldn't figure out why I was feeling this way. I was numb, anxious and depressed. I kept thinking, "what the hell is going on with me?" "Why am I feeling this way when I didn't even want this lady?"
I remember walking on the beach and talking out loud to myself, "This is good for me because she has found someone else her own age who will appreciate her and loves her." I kept telling myself that I would get over this in a matter of days. Those days became weeks and those weeks became months.
I'm finally starting to feel better and I'm getting my mojo back. However, I still have a difficult time reading posts on this forum (including the DJ Bible) as I feel like I've become a bit too sensitive. While I can relate to many of the things on here, I don't feel like a player anymore and I'm have a difficult time getting that mindset back. Most of my online time is spent on ENA in the "healing after break up" section and I can't tell if this is having an affect on the way I'm starting to view things. It's like 7 years of learning seduction has all been wasted on this one break up.
The thing that I'm mostly concerned about is the physical reaction I had to the break up. The numbness, anxiety (heart beating too fast), and throwing up in the morning.
How is this possible just from being separated from a woman? Normally, I would date women for about a month or so and I could walk away with no problem, but this one just killed me and I don't understand why.
Opinions?
My recent break up has had me questioning everything that I've learned from the past 7 years. I was in a 1.5 year relationship that I KNEW wasn't going anywhere with a woman who is 11 years older than me. I dumped her 4 months ago, and was happier than ever to be single again.
I always told her that I wanted her, but did not need her and I really believed this. After I dumped her, I was out and about, hitting on women and feeling really good about it. At one point, I started missing her and we hooked up again for a couple of weeks. However, I started unknowingly becoming needy, while at the same time trying to keep my emotions in check.
She eventually rejected me for another guy and this hurt like nothing else. I couldn't figure out why I was feeling this way. I was numb, anxious and depressed. I kept thinking, "what the hell is going on with me?" "Why am I feeling this way when I didn't even want this lady?"
I remember walking on the beach and talking out loud to myself, "This is good for me because she has found someone else her own age who will appreciate her and loves her." I kept telling myself that I would get over this in a matter of days. Those days became weeks and those weeks became months.
I'm finally starting to feel better and I'm getting my mojo back. However, I still have a difficult time reading posts on this forum (including the DJ Bible) as I feel like I've become a bit too sensitive. While I can relate to many of the things on here, I don't feel like a player anymore and I'm have a difficult time getting that mindset back. Most of my online time is spent on ENA in the "healing after break up" section and I can't tell if this is having an affect on the way I'm starting to view things. It's like 7 years of learning seduction has all been wasted on this one break up.
The thing that I'm mostly concerned about is the physical reaction I had to the break up. The numbness, anxiety (heart beating too fast), and throwing up in the morning.
How is this possible just from being separated from a woman? Normally, I would date women for about a month or so and I could walk away with no problem, but this one just killed me and I don't understand why.
Opinions?
