I am thinking back to some of my youth and it is not all that long ago but it is now like worlds apart, a different century, another age.
And when I look at my life, it has been so devoid of good things. And I did not trust my self back then, even less than I do now. Or even more than I do now.
And it is difficult as a young person to meet a young person. You are dumb. You don't know yourself. You waste relationships, throw them away for silly reasons. I am mourning yes. A girl that threw me away for silly reasons and she knew it I guess. And I was too flimsy to just tell her my truth.
Reading emails from that period. Facebook didn't exist. You had everyone's email. All your friends and acquaintances, you had their emails. And you emailed a lot. Sometimes, with people. You got to know each other, a bit. I had forgotten about all those emails. A girl - my age, somewhat - that I was chatting to on the phone lately.. how many emails we had sent each other. I had completely forgetten about any of that.
Another girl I liked; how many emails we had exchanged. Extremely... hard to imagine these days. I seriously thought, when I look back at it now, that she didn't like me and that we barely had contact. I guess.
When you are older you can meet younger chicks, they call it the godfather persona on this forum. It is so divinely important.
A young girl will not know what to do on her own. And a young guy also does not know what to do on his own. And together they just make a mess.
Don't waste the moments of your life. I implore you ;-D. I cry when I say those words, tears come to my eyes.
So much wasted. When I think back to encounters. You make choices because the encounters don't seem important and you always THINK you will get another chance. And usually you DON'T.
The foolishness and utter foolishness of youth. When I think back to many encounters, my present self, my present me, I would not waste a moment.
But that's what you can do when you are older. You can just tell a girl: "You and I we should meet. Come here."
When the girl herself is younger, still that age. Still that university age, for example. So easy. You have so much ... in Dutch we call it "overweight". You could call it the upper hand or dominance, but it means having more power in the relationship. Because of this you can cause her to stop being a fool because she will listen to you and accept you and honour you.
And in this fagotty society of ours this power of age is constantly getting demonized. We are being villified. It is said that we use it to abuse young girls.
It is supposed to be a power that corrupts and that is always wrongly used. And it is not.
It is power yes, to her benefit. And yours.
Don't let anyone tell you that your age and your power and your experience and your knowledge is a problem.
It is SO important to meet those girls. To get what you want. It is important for them too. Nothing is more important.
What we are we b1tching with our own age class and category? It makes no sense and it is stupid.
Young males have it so difficult in the dating life because they are trying to attract same-age girls.
When you are 18 you can't normally easily attact 18-year old girls. But society has made it wrong for you to meet 14 year olds, which is your natural target group when you are about 18.
A girl on a dating site I once met, she claimed to be 17, I thought she was 14, she was trying to meet 21-year-olds.
Girls lie about their age just so they can meet older men.
The same-age thing is LIE. IT IS NOT NATURAL to be dating or having sex with girls of your own age.
Very few succeed.
Then we go and blame ourselves. No, it has nothing to do with the self. The self wants to fvck younger girls.
We blame ourselves for so much that goes wrong and it is NOT OUR FAULT.
When I was 18 only 2 girls indicated a clear interest to me in the sense of trying something to meet me. One was the sister of my best friend, the other was a younger sister (also) of another good friend.
Due to reasons it never came about, but particularly the second girl. When I recently tried to find out about her - boy, she is ugly now - a woman who had intel basically implored me not to meet her because she thought I should or would destroy her relationship ;-P.
I think she ended up not in a good place. She is overweight (obese) and I've seen her run - I saw a video of a running match and she runs like a moron. She was such a beautiful amazing girl when she was that age. And we couldn't meet because she was too young to take to concerts nor could I get her to visit me where I lived.
I tried, yes. Her interest was clear, but I did not know back then how much.
And you don't say the things that work, you don't have the balls to just tell her you like her and how much. And that you want it to work out in some way, even if it is hard.
We are so miseducated. A famous album was the Miseducation of Lauryn Hill. It was released in that same year, more or about. And these were just childhood fantasies. It got worse after that ;-).
Most of this site is about reverting the miseducation that society has given us. That is what the red pill is all about. I am taken to accept the red pill metaphor now. It is true.
Accept this, please, if you will:
The difficulties in your life do not stem from your own failings but rather from a misperception of what's right for you to pursue..
Many times we don't know what we want, what we want most, and we dare not pursue it because we are led to believe that it is wrong.
Meanwhile, scores and scores of girls are trying to meet older guys but they are also told by society that it is wrong for them to do so and many also believe that.
You'll get a lot of sh1t tests if you face it. You know I hate to mince my words here in this forum just to escape the word filter? Can't we just get rid of that????.
It is already divine here to be able to not be moderated for it (escaping the filter) but it could get better. True freedom.
I can just only say that your flaws as a youngster are not your flaws.
People tell you to do things that are impossible for you. "Just walk up to that girl. Just say something, anything." And you can't.
Because you don't have overweight. She won't listen to you. It helps that you are being raised as a girl by your parents and your sisters treat you as a girl and your brother treats you as a girl and you treat your sister as a boy and you treat your mother as a man and you treat your father as a woman.
Our society does the exact opposite of what works. We are coming from the exact opposite direction of what the good life is.
Our family structure and the way we are raised programs us to be betas. I know a kind of guy who is like a supposed enemy/friend to me and his sister is 3 years younger (18/15) or (19/16) now and she is way above him. She treats him like a little d1ckless boy, and it rubs off on me because I talk to him.
You are raised by your mother to be a d1ckless boy. She wants to have her own toy she can play with, that's why she has children. She wants to have a little man of her own that she can control. It's a sickness. You should see the look in the eye of new mothers as they go over the street with their stumbling toddlers. They eye them with possession in their eyes.
Control. They've always wanted to be controlled by men. And the hate that formed because it didn't happen turned into a desire to control men. And when she has her little baby she thinks she doesn't need a man anymore.
Fvcking women who go and tell you about their little boy when you are with them. Making him more important than you. They don't tell about their daughter - hey that would interest me - no they tell you about the boy. Their charm, their miracle, their wonder, their life.
I only saw one woman on a dating site that I talked to; back then I didn't know she was a mother, I later found her on FB and turns out she has a boy. And she is fighting it. Turned out she fought a post-natal deperession (aparently) of losing her girl-hood. One of the hottest girls I have ever seen.
And you can see how much she hates it. Losing her youth. Losing that position of being a hot attractive woman. And she still is. And I can't find her again, to my loss. Anyway, not that it matters.
Heh, I bugged her and then I said "It's terrible being an attractive woman on a dating site, isn't it?" And she said "You can't even begin to imagine." And so went our talk, how 9 of 10 guys on there were morons. How she had met very few good guys. And I realized it is not easier for a reasonably good looking girl like herself than it is for a guy like me. The site is wasted now.
Anyway, time to quit this.
I feel my life is wasted now. I just don't want to have the younger guys make the same mistake ;-). And we are always getting rid of our miseducation.
And when I look at my life, it has been so devoid of good things. And I did not trust my self back then, even less than I do now. Or even more than I do now.
And it is difficult as a young person to meet a young person. You are dumb. You don't know yourself. You waste relationships, throw them away for silly reasons. I am mourning yes. A girl that threw me away for silly reasons and she knew it I guess. And I was too flimsy to just tell her my truth.
Reading emails from that period. Facebook didn't exist. You had everyone's email. All your friends and acquaintances, you had their emails. And you emailed a lot. Sometimes, with people. You got to know each other, a bit. I had forgotten about all those emails. A girl - my age, somewhat - that I was chatting to on the phone lately.. how many emails we had sent each other. I had completely forgetten about any of that.
Another girl I liked; how many emails we had exchanged. Extremely... hard to imagine these days. I seriously thought, when I look back at it now, that she didn't like me and that we barely had contact. I guess.
When you are older you can meet younger chicks, they call it the godfather persona on this forum. It is so divinely important.
A young girl will not know what to do on her own. And a young guy also does not know what to do on his own. And together they just make a mess.
Don't waste the moments of your life. I implore you ;-D. I cry when I say those words, tears come to my eyes.
So much wasted. When I think back to encounters. You make choices because the encounters don't seem important and you always THINK you will get another chance. And usually you DON'T.
The foolishness and utter foolishness of youth. When I think back to many encounters, my present self, my present me, I would not waste a moment.
But that's what you can do when you are older. You can just tell a girl: "You and I we should meet. Come here."
When the girl herself is younger, still that age. Still that university age, for example. So easy. You have so much ... in Dutch we call it "overweight". You could call it the upper hand or dominance, but it means having more power in the relationship. Because of this you can cause her to stop being a fool because she will listen to you and accept you and honour you.
And in this fagotty society of ours this power of age is constantly getting demonized. We are being villified. It is said that we use it to abuse young girls.
It is supposed to be a power that corrupts and that is always wrongly used. And it is not.
It is power yes, to her benefit. And yours.
Don't let anyone tell you that your age and your power and your experience and your knowledge is a problem.
It is SO important to meet those girls. To get what you want. It is important for them too. Nothing is more important.
What we are we b1tching with our own age class and category? It makes no sense and it is stupid.
Young males have it so difficult in the dating life because they are trying to attract same-age girls.
When you are 18 you can't normally easily attact 18-year old girls. But society has made it wrong for you to meet 14 year olds, which is your natural target group when you are about 18.
A girl on a dating site I once met, she claimed to be 17, I thought she was 14, she was trying to meet 21-year-olds.
Girls lie about their age just so they can meet older men.
The same-age thing is LIE. IT IS NOT NATURAL to be dating or having sex with girls of your own age.
Very few succeed.
Then we go and blame ourselves. No, it has nothing to do with the self. The self wants to fvck younger girls.
We blame ourselves for so much that goes wrong and it is NOT OUR FAULT.
When I was 18 only 2 girls indicated a clear interest to me in the sense of trying something to meet me. One was the sister of my best friend, the other was a younger sister (also) of another good friend.
Due to reasons it never came about, but particularly the second girl. When I recently tried to find out about her - boy, she is ugly now - a woman who had intel basically implored me not to meet her because she thought I should or would destroy her relationship ;-P.
I think she ended up not in a good place. She is overweight (obese) and I've seen her run - I saw a video of a running match and she runs like a moron. She was such a beautiful amazing girl when she was that age. And we couldn't meet because she was too young to take to concerts nor could I get her to visit me where I lived.
I tried, yes. Her interest was clear, but I did not know back then how much.
And you don't say the things that work, you don't have the balls to just tell her you like her and how much. And that you want it to work out in some way, even if it is hard.
We are so miseducated. A famous album was the Miseducation of Lauryn Hill. It was released in that same year, more or about. And these were just childhood fantasies. It got worse after that ;-).
Most of this site is about reverting the miseducation that society has given us. That is what the red pill is all about. I am taken to accept the red pill metaphor now. It is true.
Accept this, please, if you will:
The difficulties in your life do not stem from your own failings but rather from a misperception of what's right for you to pursue..
Many times we don't know what we want, what we want most, and we dare not pursue it because we are led to believe that it is wrong.
Meanwhile, scores and scores of girls are trying to meet older guys but they are also told by society that it is wrong for them to do so and many also believe that.
You'll get a lot of sh1t tests if you face it. You know I hate to mince my words here in this forum just to escape the word filter? Can't we just get rid of that????.
It is already divine here to be able to not be moderated for it (escaping the filter) but it could get better. True freedom.
I can just only say that your flaws as a youngster are not your flaws.
People tell you to do things that are impossible for you. "Just walk up to that girl. Just say something, anything." And you can't.
Because you don't have overweight. She won't listen to you. It helps that you are being raised as a girl by your parents and your sisters treat you as a girl and your brother treats you as a girl and you treat your sister as a boy and you treat your mother as a man and you treat your father as a woman.
Our society does the exact opposite of what works. We are coming from the exact opposite direction of what the good life is.
Our family structure and the way we are raised programs us to be betas. I know a kind of guy who is like a supposed enemy/friend to me and his sister is 3 years younger (18/15) or (19/16) now and she is way above him. She treats him like a little d1ckless boy, and it rubs off on me because I talk to him.
You are raised by your mother to be a d1ckless boy. She wants to have her own toy she can play with, that's why she has children. She wants to have a little man of her own that she can control. It's a sickness. You should see the look in the eye of new mothers as they go over the street with their stumbling toddlers. They eye them with possession in their eyes.
Control. They've always wanted to be controlled by men. And the hate that formed because it didn't happen turned into a desire to control men. And when she has her little baby she thinks she doesn't need a man anymore.
Fvcking women who go and tell you about their little boy when you are with them. Making him more important than you. They don't tell about their daughter - hey that would interest me - no they tell you about the boy. Their charm, their miracle, their wonder, their life.
I only saw one woman on a dating site that I talked to; back then I didn't know she was a mother, I later found her on FB and turns out she has a boy. And she is fighting it. Turned out she fought a post-natal deperession (aparently) of losing her girl-hood. One of the hottest girls I have ever seen.
And you can see how much she hates it. Losing her youth. Losing that position of being a hot attractive woman. And she still is. And I can't find her again, to my loss. Anyway, not that it matters.
Heh, I bugged her and then I said "It's terrible being an attractive woman on a dating site, isn't it?" And she said "You can't even begin to imagine." And so went our talk, how 9 of 10 guys on there were morons. How she had met very few good guys. And I realized it is not easier for a reasonably good looking girl like herself than it is for a guy like me. The site is wasted now.
Anyway, time to quit this.
I feel my life is wasted now. I just don't want to have the younger guys make the same mistake ;-). And we are always getting rid of our miseducation.