So i slipped up again. My ex bpd girlfriend txtd me for the second week in a row since I broke up with her and I replied...I know I shouldn't have but I just wanted to see her even though I knew we would never be exclusive again.
Last week she txtd me saying "I'm missing you x" a week after the breakup. I stupidly replied and the next morning she said she was drunk and we should leave things as they are.
Then last night (2 weeks after the breakup) she sent me a txt saying "sorry I know i shouldn't txt you, sorry x"
I replied saying "You can txt me if you want i don't mind but if you're just messing with my head like last time don't bother"
She replied "sorry!"
Then this morning and all day I've been waiting patiently like a total b1tch for her to contact me again hoping she'll ask me to get back with her.
I waited until late afternoon and sent her a txt saying "I'll be honest I still think about you a lot. What are you doing tonight I want to talk to you"
She replied "Sorry I'm at a mate's house getting ready to go out what is it you want to talk about? I still think it's best we stay friends hun"
I replied "So why do you keep txting me every week since we split up?"
No reply so after an hour I realised I'm just like a mouse being toyed with by a cat. She's doing this for validation and not because she actually misses me in any way.
So I sent her one last txt "Do me a favour and don't txt me again I don't care if you're drunk it's no excuse. Have a nice life"
She replied "ok"
I'll be extremely surprised if i never hear from her again. If it's not next weekend it won't be long after but when it does happen i WILL NOT be replying. I've wasted these past 2 weeks kidding myself I could get back with her when I could have been recovering and moving on with my life.
So today is day no.1 of no contact. Not sure how long it will be before I feel normal again but it can't come soon enough for me.
Wish me luck. Today is the first day of the rest of my life.
Last week she txtd me saying "I'm missing you x" a week after the breakup. I stupidly replied and the next morning she said she was drunk and we should leave things as they are.
Then last night (2 weeks after the breakup) she sent me a txt saying "sorry I know i shouldn't txt you, sorry x"
I replied saying "You can txt me if you want i don't mind but if you're just messing with my head like last time don't bother"
She replied "sorry!"
Then this morning and all day I've been waiting patiently like a total b1tch for her to contact me again hoping she'll ask me to get back with her.
I waited until late afternoon and sent her a txt saying "I'll be honest I still think about you a lot. What are you doing tonight I want to talk to you"
She replied "Sorry I'm at a mate's house getting ready to go out what is it you want to talk about? I still think it's best we stay friends hun"
I replied "So why do you keep txting me every week since we split up?"
No reply so after an hour I realised I'm just like a mouse being toyed with by a cat. She's doing this for validation and not because she actually misses me in any way.
So I sent her one last txt "Do me a favour and don't txt me again I don't care if you're drunk it's no excuse. Have a nice life"
She replied "ok"
I'll be extremely surprised if i never hear from her again. If it's not next weekend it won't be long after but when it does happen i WILL NOT be replying. I've wasted these past 2 weeks kidding myself I could get back with her when I could have been recovering and moving on with my life.
So today is day no.1 of no contact. Not sure how long it will be before I feel normal again but it can't come soon enough for me.
Wish me luck. Today is the first day of the rest of my life.