Background:
I'm married, in my early 30's, but having serious roller coaster problems with wife. In fact, some would say we're almost separated although I've been trying to work it out.
My friend is NOT married (Single), but having trouble getting over her ex-boyfriend. She lives 4 hours driving-distance away from me, in a different state.
We are very close friends. Known each other for 20 years. And interestingly, we chat over instant messenger practically all day during work hours... and then she often calls me when she gets off work, so we talk on the phone quite frequently too. We do our own thing for a few hours during the evening, and then we chat again on messenger AGAIN until we go to bed.
What do we talk about?
We try to help each other get over any problems we might have... like how all good friends do. She helps me out through my rocky relationship and i help her trying to get over her x/bad days at work... etc. She tells me what she did for the day, she talks alot about herself... while I'm usually a listener but I talk about my problems too. She talks about what happened at work, what her coworkers did, etc. She usually talks about her ex-boyfriend and how difficult it is to get over him, how she's trying to get him back but then she doesn't really know if she should move on.
We are in fact extremely close friends that we can talk about just about anything and still feel comfortable about it... except for things that might cross-the-friendship-line. She even tells me girl-stuff that most girls would be too shy to talk about, (such as admitting that girls get 'hornier' as they age towards upper 30's, while men, in general, gets less past their 20's peak.)
What's the Interesting Situation?
I've been getting some "indecent" thoughts that maybe I kind of want her to be more than friends... But I'm married.. so I know I shouldn't be having these thoughts.. but I mean, c'mon... we're talking every day every week.
Infact, we talked about this... I said "I don't know why I'm getting these feelings for you."
I told her that maybe it's one of those mind-tricks that happen, such as the 911 firefighter stories where they tried to help the widowed and started with good intentions but eventually ended up caring waaay too much for them, leaving their own wives. When you commit yourself that you always want to be there for someone, maybe your mind follows too...
cuz I DEFINITELY DIDN'T INTEND ON THIS HAPPENING. In fact, I didn't even find her as attractive before as she looks to me now.
In fact, one day when we met up, I was PISS DRUNK and said some things I shouldn't have (being still married to someone of course). I had told her that I really like her and want her to be with me!!! (GASP!) I also asked her that if I made myself single, if she'd consider dating me. (she said "i might")
The next morning I regreted saying anything because I felt really embarrassed. But I kept making moves that i do when I'm single, forgetting that i'm still married.
She became really uncomfortable at one point and she said "Thanks I'm flattered, very much... but you're not available. Also, I don't wanna be involved in anything like that with someone married."
So I just decided to drop it and forget it all together. Eventually she was cool about it and didn't make much of a deal out of it. I told her that it's cool with me too and that I made a mistake, I shouldn't be even thinking of such things when I'm still married, even if it is a rocky one.
The next month I asked her to delete the specific portion of our emails/chats related to when I was making some moves on her
I asked her to erase the email letters I sent her during the time I felt I liked her. Said that I wish to 'erase them from existance' because I want to make it as if it never happened. Afterall, I'm still married.. despite all the problems I'm having. She agreed, although she felt that I'm in a 'strange mood' and was wondering if i thought she might be using it against me in the future or something.
But now, she's giving subtle hints that she's feeling a little jealous when I'm meeting female friends. She always 'says' that I should try to work things out with my wife, but when it's other female friends I meet... she is giving hints that she doesn't like it when guys get 'weak' to other girls.
In fact, recently she's been calling me every evening when I get off work. Sometimes during lunch time too. Before, she usually ate lunch with coworkers but now she eats alone and calls me instead.
Even today, we were chatting from 8pm until 1am...
I don't know what to think. I like her and want her, but I feel I need to straighten out my marriage situation first... This is crazy. :nono:
But I like her very much and feel at peace.
ANYBODY WHO'S IN A SIMILAR SITUATION I'D LIKE TO HEAR FROM YOU!!
I'd welcome any advice.. don't hold anything back!!!!!!!!
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What is she like?
She's church-going girl who's only had 3 real boyfriends so far , but definitely popular among the guys cuz at any given day there are at least 3 guys calling her to meet up with her. Considering a church goer, she's not THAT conservative (smokes, drinks, etc) although not too liberal either. She has more guy friends than girl-friends. Definitely attractive in appearance.
Personality wise, she's talkative.. but very moody. Ups and downs. With her coworkers/seniors, she fights often and gets annoyed often. But for some reason, I've only seen the softer side of her and not the *****y side she portrays herself to be. She calls me whenever she feels down, cries sometimes on the phone.
She's also very intelligent / analytical, she analyzes just about everything somebody says/write and can catch a lie instantly (although she wouldn't say it or bring it up right away). Heck I'm a scientist and I sometimes have trouble keeping up with her logical way of thinking.
I'm married, in my early 30's, but having serious roller coaster problems with wife. In fact, some would say we're almost separated although I've been trying to work it out.
My friend is NOT married (Single), but having trouble getting over her ex-boyfriend. She lives 4 hours driving-distance away from me, in a different state.
We are very close friends. Known each other for 20 years. And interestingly, we chat over instant messenger practically all day during work hours... and then she often calls me when she gets off work, so we talk on the phone quite frequently too. We do our own thing for a few hours during the evening, and then we chat again on messenger AGAIN until we go to bed.
What do we talk about?
We try to help each other get over any problems we might have... like how all good friends do. She helps me out through my rocky relationship and i help her trying to get over her x/bad days at work... etc. She tells me what she did for the day, she talks alot about herself... while I'm usually a listener but I talk about my problems too. She talks about what happened at work, what her coworkers did, etc. She usually talks about her ex-boyfriend and how difficult it is to get over him, how she's trying to get him back but then she doesn't really know if she should move on.
We are in fact extremely close friends that we can talk about just about anything and still feel comfortable about it... except for things that might cross-the-friendship-line. She even tells me girl-stuff that most girls would be too shy to talk about, (such as admitting that girls get 'hornier' as they age towards upper 30's, while men, in general, gets less past their 20's peak.)
What's the Interesting Situation?
I've been getting some "indecent" thoughts that maybe I kind of want her to be more than friends... But I'm married.. so I know I shouldn't be having these thoughts.. but I mean, c'mon... we're talking every day every week.
Infact, we talked about this... I said "I don't know why I'm getting these feelings for you."
I told her that maybe it's one of those mind-tricks that happen, such as the 911 firefighter stories where they tried to help the widowed and started with good intentions but eventually ended up caring waaay too much for them, leaving their own wives. When you commit yourself that you always want to be there for someone, maybe your mind follows too...
cuz I DEFINITELY DIDN'T INTEND ON THIS HAPPENING. In fact, I didn't even find her as attractive before as she looks to me now.
In fact, one day when we met up, I was PISS DRUNK and said some things I shouldn't have (being still married to someone of course). I had told her that I really like her and want her to be with me!!! (GASP!) I also asked her that if I made myself single, if she'd consider dating me. (she said "i might")
The next morning I regreted saying anything because I felt really embarrassed. But I kept making moves that i do when I'm single, forgetting that i'm still married.
She became really uncomfortable at one point and she said "Thanks I'm flattered, very much... but you're not available. Also, I don't wanna be involved in anything like that with someone married."
So I just decided to drop it and forget it all together. Eventually she was cool about it and didn't make much of a deal out of it. I told her that it's cool with me too and that I made a mistake, I shouldn't be even thinking of such things when I'm still married, even if it is a rocky one.
The next month I asked her to delete the specific portion of our emails/chats related to when I was making some moves on her
I asked her to erase the email letters I sent her during the time I felt I liked her. Said that I wish to 'erase them from existance' because I want to make it as if it never happened. Afterall, I'm still married.. despite all the problems I'm having. She agreed, although she felt that I'm in a 'strange mood' and was wondering if i thought she might be using it against me in the future or something.
But now, she's giving subtle hints that she's feeling a little jealous when I'm meeting female friends. She always 'says' that I should try to work things out with my wife, but when it's other female friends I meet... she is giving hints that she doesn't like it when guys get 'weak' to other girls.
In fact, recently she's been calling me every evening when I get off work. Sometimes during lunch time too. Before, she usually ate lunch with coworkers but now she eats alone and calls me instead.
Even today, we were chatting from 8pm until 1am...
I don't know what to think. I like her and want her, but I feel I need to straighten out my marriage situation first... This is crazy. :nono:
But I like her very much and feel at peace.
ANYBODY WHO'S IN A SIMILAR SITUATION I'D LIKE TO HEAR FROM YOU!!
I'd welcome any advice.. don't hold anything back!!!!!!!!
:cuss:
:cuss:
:cuss:
:cuss:
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What is she like?
She's church-going girl who's only had 3 real boyfriends so far , but definitely popular among the guys cuz at any given day there are at least 3 guys calling her to meet up with her. Considering a church goer, she's not THAT conservative (smokes, drinks, etc) although not too liberal either. She has more guy friends than girl-friends. Definitely attractive in appearance.
Personality wise, she's talkative.. but very moody. Ups and downs. With her coworkers/seniors, she fights often and gets annoyed often. But for some reason, I've only seen the softer side of her and not the *****y side she portrays herself to be. She calls me whenever she feels down, cries sometimes on the phone.
She's also very intelligent / analytical, she analyzes just about everything somebody says/write and can catch a lie instantly (although she wouldn't say it or bring it up right away). Heck I'm a scientist and I sometimes have trouble keeping up with her logical way of thinking.